WHO AM I?

What the heck life blindweed me

The Cruz family, my step relative, gave me attention that I need. But at the same time all changes again, it is so hard again and again like I feel so unlucky to have this kind of life, I wanted to kill myself beside of my step family who teaches a lot to inhale those bad experience and exhale as good as I can and breathe like it is my lucky for every day that God given to me but I think I must die also, my whole life crush and I-I can’t do anything. I begin with transferring to public school, no service, no yaya and no hugs coming from my assumed parents.

My step relatives push me to became just like before like Boyet did ( My Step cousin, his actually my crush because he is nice and he can make me smile) He give me what I wanted , and his family really loves me too the way my parents did, I appreciate that very well.

I become rude in some situation, I feel so hopeless and miss my parents because I know I will never felt that love again. I felt guilty that I think it’s my fault. I feel so bad just like what I am before, I love being bad to show my feelings so I am back, literally that never fall, strong, always on top and believe that I can pass through this situation, and pursue my dreams but I did nothing. I’m not going to school, just having happiness with myself and with friends at Mall.

One day, Boyet saw me shopping instead of holding the test papers.

Boy ”What are you doing here?”, “Do I needed to say what am I doing here?”, Boy”Yes, look at yourself”, “Not that clean anymore?”, Boy“I’m begging you!”, “What’s the problem!?”, Boy“ I know everything just please stop!”(his eyes was very emotional), “Why would I?”,Boy”I like you, don’t be afraid to fall, I’m willing to be there and help you in every way, just please stop doing this, continue your dreams...” he go out without my permission.

When I got home I secretly go to Boyet’s room, I saw their pictures together with his family, he has medals that I thought he don’t have. He is a pursuer, loveable, and also famous, I saw a box, as I opened it, I saw a lot of letters, love letters, I was amazed telling myself that he’s so cool having that pictures, medals and letters so I decided to make him amaze like he do.

I go back to school and go back what I needed to be, really hard to change but thats not the reason to fall out and crawl. Boyet cheer me up, help me though I don’t need it.

Then, finally I made it! I graduate and pass the LPT. Really glad to have it though I didn't make it ti be valedictorian, I'm still happy.

The family of Cruz of Boyet suddenly go to America to have vacation.

Boyet told me that "Actually I know your not part of the family since then you came, your step father told me about it (he smile like so? What do you want?) I love you (he hug me so tight and kissed me Surreptitious,I got shame and thrill over my mind) Wait for me, ok? Don't worry I'll back as soon as possible." And I answered very quick and never think "I think you should go, they're waiting for you, your mom's calling you!" Boy "Ok! I will missed you! Bye! "

That was so fast like I never expected he'll leave me by my side I was so lingering to wait for Boyet to come

I explore life and find my own family. I was happy to meet my relatives but sad to hear that my parents were gone in an accident when going to a vacatiom, and they search for me so long but they didn't know where I've been through, they thought I'm with them when the car explode. I was so happy to see their pictures taken before the accident happened, my mom was beautiful as my step mother, and my father was diligent as my step father, their smile as they hold me as baby was nice and lovely, I take it as I felt to have them windy and soul.

They accompany me to cemetry, since then, I always go there where I take out all the pain I felt in every thing.