Can't stop thinking of what Tamima informed me about, if I try to exit the secret society. Been thinking of how I can end the contract since can't live a normal life. Now that have cut ties with Amanda. I won't be in any romantic relationship with anyone other than Tamima, who knows the situation am in. I can't risk being too close to another lady. That will be an open door for her to learn about my secret. But this ain't good, living an abnormal life in a normal world hasn't been an easy thing. Tamima told me that in the secret society you have to sacrifice something that's dearest to your life. For her, the ultimate sacrifice is to be childless for the rest of her life. That's not an easy thing to live with. That's why at times I don't remorse when I remember Tamima's ultimate sacrifice.
