Part 5 Chenoa Heals Too

A hard truth

Zion POV

I had just told Kevin his mate, ex mate was banished and he looked like he wanted to rip me apart. He would take a few steps then place his hands on his knees and breathe, take a few steps and do it again. He was attempting to gather himself before he started swinging. When we were pups Kevin was very competitive and never was a good loser, "Walk it off Kevin!" My father would yell at him and this would always be his response a few steps pause a few steps pause then usually we would roll around on the ground duking it out. "Kevin, she slept with Blaine. One of the twins was his, Tabatha betrayed the whole damn pack what was I supposed to do?" I demanded to know even though I knew he was not trying to hear a word I said. It was a hard truth to face.

"She wouldn't do that!" Kevin yelled at me. He was visibly shaken, 'Kade, bring me the girl.' A few seconds later Kade walked over holding the hand of Summer. Kevin looked at the girl, "Ah why did she do that, ahhhh why?" Kevin started swinging blindly at the air, "my son is out there." I felt his pain, not knowing was the hard part, "Why did you let her take him? She had no rights once she left the pack!"

I stood there silently. According to Wolfen law he was correct. Once Tabatha was banished I could have taken Brock and returned him to his father who was still a member of a pack. By law since Tabatha was considered a rogue Kevin had rights to Brock and truthfully I had not considered him at all because I was pissed. "I have no excuse Kevin. I was furious at the time I reacted in anger."

"I have to go back and find her, she has my son damnit!" He growled in frustration.

"Kevin, listen to me, I will help you find her," I offered.

"AND HOW THE HELL DO YOU PLAN TO DO THAT? HUH ZION SHE'S A f*****g ROGUE!" Kevin was becoming irate. My father walked over to him and started talking to him. Leilani walked over to me and hugged me, "I was so worried about you."

She was smiling as she looked over at Maden. Then she looked over at Kevin as Breanna tried comforting her mate. "This is heartbreaking and it's my fault."

"I'ts ok," Leilani said to me and it brought me no comfort at all because I knew the truth.

"Zion, this is not your fault. Tabatha betrayed the pack. You did what had to be done, no regrets." She grabbed my face, "promise me no regrets."

"No regrets," I mumbled and she stood on her tippy toes to kiss my cheek. Just as Chenoa and Dorkis came through another portal.

Chenoa looked sick and I immediately could sense something went wrong. She walked up to Yeresa and just stood the two women just stared at one another for a second and then Yeresa dropped to her knees with no words spoken she starting shaking her head, "No no…no!" She screamed and cried. While Chenoa just stood there gripping the bottle. This was not her thing. Seeing her all broken hurt me, I always hated to see Cat cry and she was her mirror image. I walked over as Kevin did. He picked Yeresa up, he carried her inside while Chenoa still stood there clutching the bottle. I walked over to her placing a hand on her shoulder and she immediately buried her head in my chest. I wrapped my arms around her. "Noah, it's okay. We know you have healing hands if there was anything that could have been done, I know you would have done it. Try not to beat yourself up."

"It happened right in front of me, Zion. She picked him up and ripped him apart. There was nothing I could do, this is just too much." She said, shaking. She stepped back and took a deep breath. Leilani walked over and tried patting her back, but true to form Chenoa brushed her hand off. "I talked to Vladimir. He told me that Elijah is dream walking or something. He is afraid that he could attract something bad."

"Dream walking." Leilani asked, "what does that mean?"

"It means my kids are just like their damn mom! s**t s**t s**t s**t! He might lead her right to us here. How the hell do I stop him from dreaming." I felt sick, Chenoa looked like I felt. You could tell she had been doing a lot of crying. A portal began to open and Carson and Chandler came running in carrying Cameron who looked pretty bad off, "Noah! Noah!" Chastitywas screaming. Chenoa shoved the bottle at me and went running toward them. Janette came running outside of the light house screaming. She ran to Cameron, throwing herself around him as his brother lay him flat. Janette just kept screaming as Chenoa ran her shaky hands over Cameron.

"Janette, look at me." I said, trying to calm her down. "It's okay Chenoa has this under control."

"Does she?" Janette and I both turned to see Yeresa, she reached out snatching the bottle from me. She walked away. I saw Kevin go behind her. I felt bad for her. I knew that feeling more than anyone. She was yelling at Kevin. I couldn't tell what she was saying but Kevin grabbed her in a hug and she tried pushing him away and finally she collapsed into him, defeated. She just let him hold her as she cried, stricken with grief.

Cameron was looking much better, "I'm alright woman," he said to Janette "you're not getting rid of me that easily." Janette practically dove on him, smothering him with kisses. Carson and Chandler looked wrecked, I guess losing a sibling was as bad as losing a mate except there was no risk of dying. Chenoa fell back on her knees, she looked so frustrated. "This b***h has pissed me off," She growled

Jumping up she shifted into Anika and took off. "I'm going to go after her." I said as Leilani grabbed my arm, "Let her have some time alone."

"No Leilani she is confused and angry and hurt. She needs to be around family."

"You're not family. I mean," she shook her head, "I mean have you thought about it Zion. I mean really thought about it. If your mate says it's over then-"

"DON'T SAY THAT!"

"WHY NOT," she poked me in the chest, "BECAUSE I WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH!"

"OH MY GOD LEILANI THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU!"

"IT'S NEVER ABOUT ME ZION. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT HER! MY GODDESS AM I ALWAYS JUST GOING TO HAVE A PIECE OF YOU." She threw her hands up in the air.

"Leilani for Goddess sake I'm getting so tired of this conversation. I have given you my loyalty!"

"I DON'T WANT YOUR LOYALTY ZION! I WANT YOUR LOVE BABY!" She looked at me with those huge eyes, "Lei Lei can you please trust me?"

"Will you promise not to break me? I can't go through that again." She turned away from me and I walked to her and pulled her to me. "Leilani-"

"Zion I know you love her and that's okay with me. I will take any part of you I can get but I don't want to be pushed to the side. I don't want you to forget me and I'm so scared. I.. I hear you but I can't help it I'm afraid."

I just held her because my words meant nothing to her. "Stay with me Zion please, love me." She begged me.

I felt Czar pacing, he was upset that she was hurting. He wanted to comfort her but his loyalty was with Catori.

"Leilani," I whispered but she pushed me away.

"No, I need to know! You sound so sure Of everything all the time Zion what if it's me or her?" She stood hands on hips,

"Catori will-"

"BUT WHAT IF SHE WON'T?" Leilani yelled.

"She will!" I gritted through my teeth.

She huffed, rolling her eyes. She finally said, "You are her mate and she loves you but you took another mate . She will not talk to you and she tried to kill me! Zion, have you ever considered the possibility that your mate might regret you? She might find your actions unforgivable?" She stepped closer, "that she might choose the dragon lord over you?" I raised my hand to her, but my wolf took control before I struck her. She still threw her hands up to cover her face. She looked at me, her eyes huge, "Zion," she whimpered,

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME LEILANI! I AM AN HONORABLE MAN. I f*****g CHOSE YOU! NOW I'M STUCK WITH YOU! SO IF SHE HATES ME IF SHE NO LONGER WANTS ME THEN I WILL DEAL WITH IT! I'M TIRED OF THIS CONVERSATION!" I roared, tears sprang to her eyes and she then took off running. I had never been so ashamed of myself, guilt immediately washed over me. I mean she was no evil person but her words cut deep and I was not ready to consider the repercussions of my actions. What if Cartori was unforgiving? What if she chose him over me, what if there was no choice to be had? I would not accept her choice ever, period. The Moon Goddess gave her to me and any man, woman or thing that came between us would have hell to pay. Catori Knight -Black belonged to me.

Unfortunately so did Leilani Black. I could feel her heart wrenching pain. We had never marked each other yet I still felt the pain, even though I had not completed the mating ritual in its entirety, meaning my wolf never mated with her and I hadn't marked her. Part of me held back because it was hard to complete without Czar. I could not force him to take her and her wolf Fay was certainly willing. She had offered herself to him. Czar had sniffed her ass a few times, he was tempted but never took her. He only spent time with her in wolf form, staying by her side. Refusing to allow any wolves to get to close but he would not mate with her. I walked off stalking toward the tall grass. I knew where she was and although I didn't feel there was time for this…drama I would make time for her. She was my mate. I owed her that much. I dragged her into things, I could have left her alone, but I was being selfish. Now I was pulling away and she felt it. I found her balled up on the ground, curled up in a fetal position. "Lei Lei, come to me." She didn't move so I sat beside her pulling her into my lap. "I'm sorry baby I'm under a lot of pressure and stress. I should have never raised my hand to you. Please forgive me. Lei Lei I don't… I don't know what I would do if she put me in that position. I guess I would die because I don't think I could handle the rejection. I love her but Leilani I love you too, just differently." She went stiff in my arms then turned to look at me. She reached up and touched my face.

"Really Zion? Do you mean it?" She asked me.

"Yes." I wasn't lying, I did love just not the way I was supposed to. As long as she didn't ask me to explain the difference I was in the clear. She didn't. She was so excited her whole face lit up. She threw her arms around me and kissed me.

"You forgive me," I asked as I felt her hand slip between my legs. I had my answer . I was sitting Indian style and she was pushing me back, screw it she needed this so I lay back and let her straddle me. She rode me hard. And my mind continued to roam but I forced myself to focus on her. She pulled her shirt off and I focused on watching her breast bounce as she rocked up and down. "Say it again Zion, say you love me," she whispered. I looked her in the eyes, "I love you." She started to moan and I knew she was almost at her peak. I closed my eyes. For a moment, trying to focus on her but as always, my imagination kicked in…

Zion, do you remember the time we made love on the balcony?

Yes Catori

It was raining so hard

Yeah and you looked so sexy the way that white t-shirt clung to every curve. I'm ashamed to admit I did this alot imagined her talking to me so I could get off.

And there we were on that damn balcony, I licked my lips in anticipation. "Come here, Kitten, I wanna hear you purr." I grabbed her and pulled her to me pulling her shirt over her head. She leaned and ran her tongue up my neck and I bent my head to take her n****e in my mouth. She tossed her head back moaning in pleasure and I ripped her panties off lifting one of her legs as I entered her. "f**k yeah," I moaned as I felt her wetness.

"I want you Zion,"

"Then take me," then she sank her teeth into my neck, claiming me.

Being claimed was like having an orgasm that was intensified three times over. My eyes darted open but all I could do was shake as Leilani had sunk her teeth into me. I could do nothing but hold her hips as my body uncontrollably plunged inside her bucking like a wild bull. I couldn't even think about what was happening, only the need to fulfill that carnal need that continued to build. She had latched on to me and had not let up which clearly meant there was thought behind her action. She was intentionally trying to make me mark her. Czar was whimpering and snarling. He was trying to fight the urge but she was draining him, it was either claim her or go mad and after resisting as long as he could be growled as he grabbed her neck clamping down. She yelled in pain. As he roughly shook her by the neck with so much force, she began to squirt all over me. I lay back stiff on the ground as I felt the mate bond connecting us, feeling the surge through my entire body. I was sick, weak, drained. I felt Czar pushing his way through forcing me into the darkness and I did not have the energy to fight. I knew what would happen next. "Shift! Now!" Czar growled at Leilani. He would mate with her wolf Fay to complete the process.

Did that really just happen, had she just forced me to claim her?

Akoshka

The wolves were disappearing. Where were they hiding? I transformed myself into my human form. I was irresistible this way, no one denied me. The only way I would get answers is if they thought I was one of them. I chose an ordinary wolf because I didn't want to be too flashy. The last wolf I killed did not tell me much reminding me how loyal they were so now I had to result to trickery. It did not take long to find a pack of rogues all of them immediately wanted to have me. But they all looked disgusting and smelled horrible. I knew they would not be able to tell me much either since they had not belonged to a pack.

That's okay I would find out what I wanted. I just had to be a little patient.

Chenoa's POV

"I have to go, Noah. Zion banished Chastity." Kevin was saying to me.

"What? Why the hell would he do that?" I asked, this day was getting worse and worse.

"She slept with Blaine." He said and I gave him a blank look.

"Okay so… he is punishing her for the past? That makes no sense." I declared.

"Chenoa," he pointed to a small girl that was clinging to a woman by the leg. "That is Blaine's daughter."

I was thoroughly confused, "What do you mean Blaine has a son, and …"

My forehead wrinkled, "I don't understand."

"One of the twins belongs to Blaine." Kevin spat out. I nodded my head up and down as if I was getting it and then it clicked. I covered my mouth in surprise, "s**t she back tracked on Richard? Noooo that b***h is savage,"

"I don't know the details and truly don't give a damn!" Kevin snapped.

"Lies all lies. You care bro you do not have to pretend with me. That's f****d up I hope she did not play Richard like that, poor guy. You think he needs some…comforting."

"Seriously!" He snapped.

"No, Kreis would eat him. Sorry I just had to lighten s**t up because I feel like I'm going crazy." I said shaking my arms.

Chastity walked over to us and reached out and hugged me, "Thank you for fixing Cameron up. Janette would have lost it." She said to me,

"Yeah like Yeresa?" I mumbled.

"She is okay for now. Dorkis gave her a light sedative to put her to sleep." Kevin said.

"Guys I can get us to Russia," Chastity said.

"Cool, I can get us to Wisteria." I said, "and I can also get Tabatha safe."

"How?" Kevin blurted out.

"Just trust me." I assured him.

"Then what the f**k are we just standing hear for let's get everyone together and start planning." Kevin walked off howling to get everyone's attention.

Chastity went to walk away but I grabbed her arm. "Are you sure about this? I can't lose you again."

"I need you to trust me." She said to me,

"Okay well I'm going to need you to have my back in there. My plan is not exactly going to go over well there."

She looked at me and smiled, "Since when did you start giving a damn how you came across to other Chenoa Knight?" I laughed at her and looked away. She hugged me again, "Hey you, you got this and I got you like always right?" Chastity asked me.

"Of course, let's go ruffle some feathers."

"Ruffle some feathers," Chasity frowned at me, "nah we going to shake some s**t up!" I burst into laughter. She was imitating Catori. Catori could get so hyped at times even when we were kids she was just animated as hell and Khrisna would join right in with her. Those two together… I felt a pang in my heart as I thought of ultimately what happened to my family. Dad was broken after losing mom, Khrisna was lost to us, and hell Cat was too. In reality everyone was saying, hoping Catori would return but it truly all boiled down to the ramblings of kids and the scrolls. I was just feeling crazy, in a f****d up place. Kevin was waving at us to come on and I was dragging my feet. We all gathered around a table outside along with the other Alphas. There was not enough room for all of us inside. "Chastity and Chenoa have something to say." Kevin announced. I saw Zion push through to get closer. I took a double take at him because he looked different. And he seemed to have a permanent scowl on his face. "Uh you go first Chastity." I urged.

"I can get us to Russia." Chastity said.

"How?" Zion asked simply.

I watched as Chandler's frown lines deepened. I looked at Zion and immediately zoomed in on the huge, puffy, swollen bruise on his neck. That was not a normal mark and it wasn't there before. I had seen a mark like that before. When a wolf from another pack forced himself on one of our younger pack members marking her against her will. Chastity was talking but I wasn't even hearing her. Zion was a d**k but he did not deserve to be marked against his will. No one deserves that, it was painful, and traumatic. I was certainly not team Zion but this was screwed up. Everyone else was looking at the mark and pretending they did not see it. I felt my father's eyes burning into me and I looked up at him. I could tell by the look on his face he was telling me to mind my own business. No way no how.

I suddenly recalled a time when I was a little girl. I was sitting in the center of the kitchen floor. My ponytails were a mess, eyes puffy, completely distraught. My father's voice always had a calming effect on me. "Deep breaths Noah,"

I inhaled trying to do as instructed, "Would you like to tell me what happened?" He asked me

"It was my..my turn and," I immediately got worked up all over again and began to wail. My father said nothing, he just waited for me to see my error which was losing control once again. I knew because he would look away as if he did not want to see me in the state I was in. This would cue me to breathe again, deep breaths. "It was my turn and Cat didn't let me have my turn and Khrisna didn't do anything; he let her have her way and it was my turn."

"And how did you respond?" He asked, knowing already full well how I responded. It was a toy Khrisna had begged for his birthday. It was pretty simple: you had to take wooden rings and toss them at a pole to get them to hook. He spent hours playing it and rarely missed. I had gotten so angry I pulled the stick from the ground smashing it into a tree breaking it in half. "If I can't have a turn nobody can play." I announced it to them both. Khrisna was never one to get very upset but he was reduced to tears. Catori was ticked off that I would be so selfish that she had shoved me and before long we were rolling around in the new dress our mother had just gotten us.

"Chenoa you must learn to choose your battles and more importantly to control your temper. Now none of you can play the game and that is not fair to Khrisna. It was a gift to him, he did not have to allow you to play at all. The game was a gift for his entertainment. How would you feel if he started breaking the heads off all your dolls?"

I glanced over at my father and he appeared to be studying me as if he was waiting for my next move. When Leilani walked over to stand beside Zion she wrapped an arm around his and he shoved her off like he was repulsed. She to had a huge ugly mark confirming what everyone was thinking. "Desperate much?" I said to her, and she looked over at me.

"Mind your own freaking business!" Leilani growled, but not just any growl. The earth shook, I laughed as reality hit. Zion had transferred half his power to her during the mating process. His mouth had dropped open, apparently he was shocked as everyone else. If she thought I would be intimated she was sadly mistaken. That is not to say I should not have been intimidated as I said before my sister is the one with the juice and at this moment I didn't give a damn if my father looked down on me. Catori was my twin, Zion was her mate. I felt her pain and when she died she loved him with every ounce of her being and this b***h….this b***h had tried her. Meaning she crossed the line, and if none of them were willing to say anything then I would stand alone. I slammed my fist on the table, "f**k you, you hard up, pathetic ass, whimpering, desperate needy, slut!"

Leilani gasped, her cheeks turned red with embarrassment as all eyes were on her. She looked up at Zion for support but all she saw was bitterness and hurt which infuriated her. "You know nothing about my mate! You should focus on your-"

"Blah blah blah b***h you forced him to mark you. No use denying it," I accused, "I guess words were not enough."

"I owe you or no one else an explanation." Leilani's spat out, her eyes started to glow.

'Chenoa back off!' my father warned me but she was issuing a challenge snarling at me, dad had not been around for a long time. If he had been he would've known I never learned to choose my battles. "YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE IN THE WORST WAY!" Leilani was inching toward me.

"And you are an opportunist, deplorable and a rapist in the worst way."

'Noah!' Kevin huffed but it was too late Leilani shifted into her wolf Fay which was now twice the size she once was. She was huge but Anika was no shrimp and not easily disparaged. Her wolf came charging at Anika but Anika dodged her with ease causing her wolf to go sliding and roll over in the dirt. She was not use to the new weight, but she recovered quickly and dove at Anika again and this time Anika side stepped grabbing her neck, she clamped down flipping her over.

'b***h you thought this would be easy? My sister is the Chosen, do you not think we ever tangled before?' Anika shook her, and her wolf whimpered. Her wolf Fay was strong but she was a sloppy fighter even with her strength and power Anika was making her look like a fool. Leilani shifted and and threw a bolt of power toward me. I shifted and for the next few minutes I was just running back and forth dodging her shots, "Stop it you two." Zion tried to intervene.

"No!" I growled using my alpha tone. My moves were careful and caculated, I was determined to break the b***h down. 'If she grabs you you're done, you are exhausting yourself.' My father said to me, He truly did not know me. Now that I was close enough. I stood before her and held my hand out.

"Noah!" Zion yelled as Leilani grabbed her chest. I did a side kick and followed up with two jabs and an uppercut. Without even being signaled by their Alpha two of Mystic Moon's warriors came to aid their Luna. I could hear Chandler, "Oh boy,"

Zion could have easily stopped this but he did not. He would always be loyal to his mate. It was his job to protect her, understandably. At the same time he was in his feelings I think he wanted to see her get broken down. His wish, my command. My people were waiting for a cue but I told them to stand down. As I broke the warriors down. Leilani came charging at me but this time she did a roundhouse kick. She had finally said to hell with her power and was resulting back to the form of fighting she was accustomed to. As much as I hated to admit it, b***h had skills. As we went back and forth I caught a glimpse of Quamir, his eyes were glazed over. He was coaching her. Apparently she was a quick learner, now I could have squeezed her heart again but what fun would that be. My head was f****d up I wanted to feel the pain. She took a bolt and threw it at me and this time exhausted I scrambled to get out the way. "Okay" Zion went to intervene, but my father put his arm out. He wanted me to learn a lesson, I see, I thought a lesson in humility. He had always said my stubbornness was my weakness. I wouldn't give up I held my hand up refusing to allow my people to assist me. It was not her moves that were weakening me, it was the power behind the hit. "Bow down," she demanded of me.

Zion again tried to step in and again my father refused to allow him to. "BOW THE FREAK DOWN!" I did not have to look behind to know half the people, over half had bowed down. This b***h was insane if she thought I would ever submit to her. She was wearing a smirk now. I was bleeding from my mouth and nose. The sting to my heart when I realized she was going to whip my ass. My pride would not allow me to quit. I tried to get up and stumbled but still I wouldn't go down. "What are you trying to prove?" I heard Zion ask my dad

"What is she trying to prove?" He responded. I felt it, a buzzing I screamed grabbing my head. What the f**k! The pain was invasive, excruciating. It was like electricity went through me, almost like the sensation you got from a mate but different. I snarled as I held my head, then I felt it, the most nauseating feeling, I growled. I looked around anxiously no one else was experiencing what I was. Suddenly I felt a surge of power go through me, 'Where are you?'

'What the f**k, Blaine!'