Journey Into The Light

new beginnings

NEW BEGININGS

I stayed at my mother's house a couple more days and had an urge to move some things out of there and settle into a small motel room a few blocks away in the oldest motel in town because it was the cheapest that I could afford.

There was no TV and it just had the basics, 2 beds, bathroom, fridge, stove and WIFI. After a few days of being in the motel I still had that feeling of euphoria and happiness with lots of love. I got closer to God by watching Saddleback Church episodes on my laptop and watching as many movies about Jesus as I could fit into my day, also listening to a lot of Christian music. I had never felt so good in my life.

I am certain I made the right choice for once because my life seems so much better and the world with all its corruption seems like small potatoes now. I am no longer worried or afraid and I live my life for the lord. I then felt compelled to write this story for the second time in my life.

I did end up having more difficulty, My life was not finished with the ups and downs. I moved back to Calgary with girl I new for a few years. Her name is Angela and she takes very good care of me. most of all she can handle my mental illness and has my back 100%.

I spent the next couple years in fear for my life because of a delusion that was not real but felt very real. basically I became very paranoid about being spayed on and the people spying wanted me dead. but like I said it was all a delusion. It took quite a while to get past that one but eventually I did.

On a happier note, Angela and I have decided to stay together. We really only have each other.

Looking back at my life, I now see that god was there since the very beginning. Some might call it luck however; I believe god was there to pick me up every time I fell down and stop me from doing really stupid things just as a loving father would. Or perhaps all of these experiences were meant to happen with the intent of shaping me into who I am now. All I know is, I now see God's workings in my life, I have heard his words and I feel his love everywhere I go. Sometimes when I stare at the cross on my wall and take my vision out of focus, I can see a white aura around it and it reassures me that he is in the room with me. My life is now on track, I don't think about drugs or alcohol and I am no longer depressed. I maintain a humble and simple lifestyle; I have everything I need and I am so thankful. Best part of all this is that there is no longer a black cloud following me. Finally, I am able to live as God intended me to.

It is my hope and prayer that my story reaches as many people as possible and helps them understand that God is real and he does love us. All we have to do is believe in him and trust that he will look out for us no matter the storm! Don't give up, keep strong and be patient. God has a plan for each and every one of us. Thank you for reading.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL