Life

I’ve got my first vaccine

Dear diary,

I actually want to apologise I thought I could right in you everyday but even now during a lockdown, well actually level 3. I’m still not available to write in you every day. I’m not going to promise an entry every day but I will try to do at least once a week, maybe twice a month. I swear I am trying.

So once again a lot has happened, I wish I could say I got all the answers but I only got an article in the local newspaper and a small protest in town set up.

What really sucks though is my dad is very sick, he has been for along time. That much I’m used to it but what really sucks is the fact that his doctor said I couldn’t see him till I get a vaccine. Which means I couldn’t continue my petition or getting any proper answers because my dad means the world to me and if I kept going and took the vaccine I would of been a hypocrite. And morally I would never be able to that one thing I hate in this world is tooth-faced people and I will never be one of them.

So I had to make a decision that right for my family and more so my dad. So I did it I got my vaccine and it’s was horrible I walked into the doctors with an ambulance outside for a person who was on the ground and the secretary saw me and expressed my concerns by saying “don’t worry Emily you have own room with a bed “ which kinda scared my more if I’m being honest.

Now I don’t do injections, I’ve got tattoos and piercings all over my body but I physically can’t do needles. Like I faint at the sight of them. And I did I passed out, twice before and after it was awful. Once I got home I passed out for the day on very bad fever. Now obviously I live with two housemates who pay me their share of rent and bills and they literally are never around lately because they are back to work and I’m still waiting the pub to open back up. So I was on my own just in out of consciousnesses from a fever. Which was the worst I’ve never been sick sick on my own before even during quarantine I had people around me making sure I had food and some entertainment, I mean they were checking in on me through closed doors, text messages and even FaceTime every 30 mins. I was never truly alone, but I was when I got the vaccine. It was one the worst days and I know what hour thinking with what you have been through how is that possibly be one of the worst but I can only recall two days on my life I was truly alone and that was one of those days. And this is why it was possible the absolute worst day for me and I honestly never want to have to deal with it again.