Renée's POV: I sat in the tub for quite some time thinking about what I had just done. I was mad at myself for allowing my body and s****l desire to take over. The fact that I just did that out of lust and not for love sickens me. I broke my personal sacred rule and threw my innocence away and now I can never get it back. Now he's going to expect me to do it again and again. On top of that I did it with out protection and now I could be lined up for all kinds of consequences. I could get pregnant or he could be diseased or worse, both! What if I got pregnant and he gave me something! Does that mean the baby would have it too! I try to shake the thoughts from my head. I've been sitting here in the tub with the water getting cold just think