Her misery
1164 Words
Ishani's P. O. V.
I woke up breathing heavy, I had that dream again....
" shani? Shani are you okay? " nisha asked, I nodded as I closed my eyes and wiped sweat from my forehead.
Nisha handed me a glass of water which I took gladly and gluped in one go.
" what actually happened to me this time? " I asked.
" I don't know when I found you your friend had already taken you to the infirmary and that idiotic doctor wasn't allowing me to give you injection...fucking i***t but your friend he actually helped " she explained, I closed my eyes in pain not physical pain but the pain in my heart.
That name was enough to get me panic attacks and this mental condition of mine isn't helping me.
" shani? Do you remember what happened to you any of it " she asked tensed.
" I remember everything I asked him his name... " I couldn't say a word more, it was difficult for me, my truma was triggered again.
" what's his name? " she asked looking at me with worried face.
" vansh " I whispered as she grasped.
" Shani, why don't you start the counseling sessions again " she suggested.
I chuckled bitterly " don't you remember when I tried last time, I end up on hospital and you had to lie to mom and dad that I was gone back to London " I said.
Her face grew guilty, she knew it wasn't easy for me.
" may God send someone who can take your pain away " she wished.
" me and you, both of us know that it's not easy and I don't trust " I said and got up from the bed and moved to the balcony area.
I brought this apartment an year back, when I came back to India and my attacks were getting hard to hide. My parents don't know about this penthouse nor my heath condition not that I'm telling them.
Everytime I want to give up every thing dad's words stop me
" why dad, why you accepted me? " I said.
" you're a part of my ishq and that was enough for me to accept you my princess" dad replied.
" but dad --" I said.
" you called me your father even before I met ishq and you are my daughter. End of discussion shani! " dad ordered .
That day I vowed that I won't be like him ever, I am mumma and daddy's daughter not his... What ever happened was in past but that thing hasn't left my mind from the age of 6. My family is the only reason of my sanity.
I love them too much to give them pain.
" Shani, coffee " nisha handed me a mug of coffee. Yeah whenever all this things make me sad she always made me coffee not my usual black coffee but her special coffee.
I don't know what I will do without her.
" by the way who was that Doctor Who dare to mess with you " I said distracting her.
" oh that idiotic stupid face, I am gonna kill that i***t you know what he stopped me from giving you injection " she said.
" oh yeah? " I said.
" hmm... That stupid " she made an angry face as I laughed..
" he may be handsome for you " I commented.
" shani please, that kind of idiotic person and handsome "she said trying to look cool but her red cheeks were stating a different story.
" you always wish someone for me but you never do for yourself " I stated.
" I don't want someone in my life, men can't stay loyal ( I glared at her) okay not every one is as good and loving as vihan uncle " she said. I finished my coffee as we both moved back inside.
" Nish you got to come out of past your father was like that not Every men is like him " I said but whom am I kidding, if I can't come out of my truma then who am I to suggest her to forget about her father's betrayal.
" I know and I have seen uncle and aunty's love, I believe in love but Shani is there anyone who can love me that madly " she said.
" I think so " I said as we both smiled knowing the reality still we try to escape the reality that loving someone is hard...
My phone rang as I knew who it was.
" hey dad " I said faking excitement.
" hey princess are you okay? " dad asked. I bite my tongue, I still can't lie to him even after all these years.
" I'm fine dad " I said as I heard him sigh.
" be home on time okay? " dad said.
" OK dad bye " I said as I hung up quickly.
" uncle? " nisha asked referring to the call I nodded.
" do you think they know something? " I asked.
" we hide each and everything from them how can they know anything Shani " she reasoned.
" but I have this feeling eveytime " I said.
" it's fine shani, you're just scared that's it" she said I nodded.
College hours were over not in that I wanted to get back there but I had to tommorow.
I picked a white bodycon dress and heels as I got ready for office. I can't let my work and my company suffer because of me.
" nisha, get ready in five " I said from the room.
" I'm ready already " she said.
I smiled as I Fixed my dress.
Here comes the ruthless cold ishani.
***
Vihan's P. O. V.
I hung up the call as I held my forehead.
" she lied right? " ishq said as she sat beside me.
" yeah " I said as I put my head on her lap.
" vihan, she'll be fine she's our daughter " ishq said as she caressed my hair.
" I'm worried about her ishq, let me keep a bodyguard for her " I said.
" vihan let her fall, when she'll fall we will be there to hold her but let her grow up " she said, I always think how can she be so confident about it every time.
" it's just I don't want our princess hurt " I said.
" she will not and I know she's is hiding something from us from a long time but she's too good at hiding it that's why we weren't able to find anything " ishq said no stated.
" yeah she got traits from you " I said making her smile.
" she'll be fine vihan " she said. I closed my eyes wishing for the same.
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