Surface Resistivity

Chapter 1

"Gamma, let's go. What are you waiting for?" I sighed when I heard her voice.

I never thought I did accept her proposal to make the girls around me stop pestering me. It annoys how much she wants to do stuff that couples often do.

"Can we talk for a second, Lux?" I looked at her.

She gave me a warm smile and sat on the chair near the door where she stood earlier. I walk towards her and sat in front of her. I hold her hand and implanted a kiss on it. She began giggling and reached out for my face and kissed me on my lips. Before she stopped, she bit my lower lip and looked at me in the eyes.

"Let's break up," I uttered.

"What the hell, Gamma? I just kissed you and you wanted to break up all of a sudden?" she stood up while slamming the table in front of both of us.

I slightly nodded at her. She glared at me yet I saw water in her eyes, forming to bawled out from it any moment.

"Where did I go wrong, Gamma?" she asked me. 

She can't contain the tears forming from her eyes and let it down from her cheeks and began to cry. I stood up and reaches for her face but she shoved my hand away.

"I'm sorry, Lux," I said to her.

"Sorry for what, Gamma? Do you feel pity for me? f**k Gamma. I've been saving your ass for almost 2 years." she stated.

"No. I don't pity you, Lux. I know, you've been a big help to me." I clarified.

"Then f*****g why? Why do we need to break up?" she asked me, looking me in the eyes with the emotions forming inside it.

"It's my fault," I said.

I can't tell her how much I am going through with the relationship of ours. She made me happy, I made her happy. But now, I feel like I am being imprisoned in a house that no one can find me. I feel suffocated with the relationship of both of us.

"Gamma, we've been friends for almost 9 years. I offered you the last two years when we were 15 that I should be your girlfriend to make them stop fantasizing about you because I know that annoys you the most," she commented while punching my chest.

I grabbed her arms and pulled her. I let her rest in my chest while wrapping my hands around her. I kissed the top of her head, which made her cry even more. 

"I fell out of love, Lux. I mean I don't want to hurt you, I know that you gave me the best that you can. I tried to love you more than you could love me but I can't do it anymore and it sucks. It really sucks seeing you hurt like this." I whispered.

"You don't need to love me, Gamma. Just let me love you, please. Don't break up with me." I sighed at what she said.

I let out of our hug and reached out for her chin and lift her faced up so that I can see her eyes. Her eyes are honest, it is heartwarming to just looking at her eyes. I smiled at her.

"You deserve the love in the world, Lux. I am sorry to say, I cannot give you the love that you truly deserve." I kissed her forehead as a sign of farewell for both of us.

I started to walk out of our room so that I can not see her eyes that made me back out from what I've decided at the last minute. Summer break starts tomorrow and I think that was a better idea, to go off our relationship. I never think of her as a best friend, not more than that. But I guess, our friendship ends there too.