The s*x Addicts Wife

It's Not Heart Break...It's Worse

I walk into work the next morning basically a zombie. I didn't sleep last night. I'm not one to talk about feelings, but f**k my chest hurts! Who would of thought Kandis could do so much damage.

“ Good morning.” Comes a sweet voice from behind me as I clock in. I turn around to find Victoria looking as good as ever standing behind me. She's got her hair in a bun today, my sweatshirt hanging over her arm. It looks like Johnnie came through with a bigger shirt for her. Shocker.

“Morning.” I say trying not to grumble. It's not her fault my fiancee was a w***e.

Ex-fiancee! I offer a smile I know looks forced and painful.

Her face immediately falls to concern. “Are you ok?” She asks, reaching her hand out and resting it on my bicep.

“Not really, but it'll be fine.” I reply, I didn't plan on being that honest. All I can think of is her hand on my arm. It's warm, I can feel it through my shirt.

“Oh?” She says a frown on her face. “Would a hug help?” She offers removing her hand and holding her arms out.

“Well, alright.” I say holding my arms out too and she steps into them. She squeezes me tight. And I actually feel better. Her whole body is warm. Every place our bodies meet is radiating warmth. I give her a smile as she steps back. I can't help the chill that crawls up my spine at the loss of her touch.

“So, Johnnie said Jamie called in again?” She informs me, but it sounds like a question. “He said to work with you again today.”

"Oh darn." I joke as I snap my fingers.

Her eyes go wide and she shoves my shoulder as she walks past me.

It is actually good news, I like Victoria, not only is she pretty, she's funny and smart. She can start a conversation about anything. This might not be too bad of a day. God knows I need the distraction.

“Did you get a locker?” I ask her.

“I did!” She smiles wide.

“Sweet!” I smile at her as we head for the locker room.

I help her find her locker and figure out the lock. We get our stuff put away and head for my desk. She immediately gets to work, going through the orders that have already been completed this morning. I sit at my desk and start up my computer, I have reports to file since it's Thursday.

“ I just gotta do some paper work real quick” I tell her, as I log in.

“Jude. To the office. Jude to the office.” The intercom speaker calls out.

The f**k?

“ Ok, I guess I'll be right back.” I tell Victoria as I get up and walk back to the office.

"Don't have too much fun." she teases without looking up from the stack of order forms in her hand.

Walking through the door, my eyes immediately land on Kandis standing in the office talking with Johnnie. She's wearing a mini skirt so short I can see her ass cheeks,and her shirt is so tight if she wasn't giggling I would think shes holding her breath. She's running her hand down his chest. What a w***e!

Johnnie leans over and whispers in her ear. She giggles and leans over and starts whispering into Johnnie's ear. His eyes go wide and he starts nodding.

“What the hell do you want?” I ask causing her and Johnnie to jump. I can't believe I never noticed this s**t before. The realization that I was possibly THAT desperate has me seeing red.

“Jude! There you are.” She says giving me her best bullshit smile. “I came to talk to you about last night.” She begins stepping away from Johnnie.

“Really? You're NOT here to flirt with my boss?” I say trying to sound bored and over this entire thing. but I feel like I'm going to explode.

“ Jude, how can you say that? We were just being polite.” she says looking at Johnnie to back her up. He nods his head looking at her with wide eyes.

"yeah, po-polite." Johnnie studders as he continues to nod like a dumbass.

“Mm-hmm, polite, right." I stare her down, crossing my arms,“There's nothing to talk about. We're done, the wedding is off. Have a good life Kandis. Good bye.” I say and turn around to go back to work.

“Jude!” She starts crying again, causing a scene. I squeeze my fists as she runs towards me.

“No Kandis."I yell, holding my hand up to stop her from touching me," How dare you bring this s**t to my job! Have you no discretion? Then the cherry on top, shamelessly flirting with my boss. When you came here to talk to me after I busted you cheating less than 12 hours ago?!” I'm losing my composure. I'm trying hard not to scream in her face, "Why even bother and try to salvage this? You obviously aren't interested."

I'm failing as she cowards and takes steps away from me. She's no longer crying, but her bottom lip is trembling.

“But I love you.” She says. Looking up into my face, a set of hopeful puppy dog's eyes brimmed with tears begging me.

“No you don't.” I say before storming out of the room. I'm so confused. She comes in here, pulls this bullshit and says she loves me?! I'm suddenly glad this came to light now. Rather than after the "I do's". I'd be stuck with this stupid crazy ass slut.

I head for the locker room, I'm so pissed, I need to hit something, I need to scream at the top of my lungs. I need to lose my f*****g s**t. Yup that's exactly what I need to do. Lose.My.Shit!

I make eye contact with Victoria as I walk past. She has a look of shock and concern as her eyes follow me. I just shake my head and continue walking.

Could she hear that? I wonder as I approach the locker room.

I kick the door open. I walk over to my locker. My muscles are tense and I can barely breathe. I slam my head against my locker a few times, punching the locker next to it.

My knuckles start to burn, I realize I've busted them open and now they're bleeding. Great. Taking a deep breath I walk over to the sink and wash the blood away.

I don't do feelings. I've never been this emotional in my life. It's all anger and rage. My chest is tight and my hands are shaking. I'm hurt but the embarrassment of being so f*****g stupid has me ripping my hair out as I pace the room. I'm not sad, I'm pissed. She didn't break my heart, she embarrassed me. She made me look like an i***t. She really thought I would cave and we would go forward with the wedding and s**t. She really thought I would look the other way?. Oh hell f*****g no! I huff and grunt as I storm around the locker room.

Leaning on the sink I splash cold water in my face trying to calm down. I gotta make it through today. After work I can go to the gym or a boxing ring and let the rage out but I got a full day of work to do first.

As I dry my face my eyes connect to two wide deep chocolate brown eyes.

"Victoria."