If It's the End

Chapter 8: PARTY

Zach and Fenella were clearly excited because Fenella came to my house early so she could give me a make-over which she was really good at. She picked out a plain black dress from my cupboard and made me, sorry, forced me to wear heels and then we were ready to go. We had to pick Zach first.

I stopped the car in front of Melina's house, more like a freaking mansion. I could hear the music as I parked the car in the driveway. I felt my heart sinking but I composed myself.

"This is going to be awesome." Zach sang excitedly.

We got out of the car and went towards Melina's house.

"I don't like it here." I mumbled stepping inside the mansion looking at the surroundings. It was crowded. People were dancing, drinking, making out. Everybody seemed drunk to me. I felt pools of memories coming in my mind.

'So bold of you come here." They snickered.

"It seems like the last humiliation wasn't enough."

"Are you coming Andra?" Fenella said shaking me a little before I could go deeper in my past. I walked inside. The music was loud, way too loud for my liking. I could see people making out on the couches like nobody was watching them.

"You want something to drink?" Zach asked leaning closer because of the music.

It took me a while to answer that. I mean I used to drink but after everything I stopped and since I am supposed to drive them home I don't think I should drink.

Fenella made her way towards the bar ordering drinks for herself. I told Zach to go after her. He was hesitant to leave me but went anyway when I told him not to worry about me.

I could feel my palm sweating as I started feeling anxious. I started walking down to one of the empty couch but before I could actually sit, some couple occupied it with their PDA s**t. I quickly turned around and saw Fenella making her way towards me.

"Have some drink," She said handling me a red cup in which there was whiskey and coke. I refused.

"How much did you drink?" I asked.

"Not much," Her words slurped a little. I chuckled, clearly not believing her.

"Is that Jude?" She said and I turned to look towards where she was looking and instantly my eyes landed on him. His hair all damp and he was wearing white V-neck plain T-shirt and black jeans. He was looking hot even in casuals. He was talking to his friends whom I know now because we all bonded during detention.

He looked up and our eyes met. My breath hitched as I saw him smirk. He winked and I looked away.

"He winked at you." Fenella said smiling like a kid and wriggled her eyebrows and added, "You were acting like a creep."

"What do you mean?"

"You were staring."

"You are drunk." I scoffed.

"You're not," She chuckled at her own joke and then dragged me towards the dance floor but along the way we separated because of the crowd. I started making my way out of the crowd but then an unfamiliar hand wrapped around my waist pulling me to a strong chest.

"Hey there pretty lady," His words slurped and his breath was reeking of alcohol. I tried to get out of his hold but he was strong.

"What the f**k!" I yelled at him when he forcefully turned me towards him so that I could see his face. I never seen this guy but he was about my age only or older. Nobody was even paying attention to us since they all were drunk and nobody could hear us over the music.

"Come on, dance with me." He said pulling me closer. His right hand was now on my ass and I tried to push him but in vain.

"f**k off." I yelled hitting his chest which I think made him angry because he squeezed my ass tightly and I winced in pain. Tears were welling up but I didn't let them fall in front of this bastard. He started kissing my neck and I felt my body getting numb. It was happening all over again.

"I'll show you some good time honey." He said tightly holding my waist.

"No!" I screamed.

"Don't be shy, you know you want it." He said making me look away from him.

"Let me go please." I started crying.

"Don't act all innocent." His friends said coming from behind a little too close and ran a hand on my back. "Be a good slut."

"Hey! Get the f**k away from her." I came out from the past as I felt a warm hand pulling me towards him. My cheek came in contact with a hard chest. I looked up to see Jude all angry.

"We were just having fun." The guy stumbled. My body was trembling from the shock. I am strong, I can get through this. I repeated the chant over and over again. Jude's hands came protectively around my waist and It felt familiar and warm.

"I am going to kill you." He said in his deadly tone which made me nervous.

"Don't," I said quietly shaking my head. I don't want to create a scene. The guy went away with fear in his eyes.

"Andra?" He said cupping my face, "Did he hurt you?"

My heart started beating rapidly by seeing his concerned eyes.

"It's okay now."

He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear while I just stared at him.

"I saw Fenella dragging you and I was coming here to talk to you then I saw that bastard forcing himself on you." He clenched his jaw.

I noticed how close we were standing. I could feel his breath on my face.

"Do you want me to drop you home?" He asked

I nodded meekly, "I have to inform Fenella or Zach."

"I'll tell Chris to inform them about you."

I believed what he said and walked with him outside, finally some fresh air. We walked quietly towards his car and sat inside. I sighed closing my eyes for a few seconds.

Jude started driving and I looked out of the window looking at the trees passing by. Why can't I let go of all those horrible memories? My fears are making me weak and I can never move on if I will keep thinking about the past. I have to stop feeling weak everytime.

I felt Jude's hand on my bare thigh and I jumped a little looking at him a bit startled but his eyes were straight on the road.

"Don't shake your legs." He ordered and removed his hands. I didn't even realize I was doing that.

"Thank you." I said after a while, realizing that I didn't really thank him for what he did.

"You are thanking me for saving you from that fucker?" He chuckled briefly looking at me, "You're unbelievable, and I wasn't just going to let him harass you,"

"Still, thank you."

The car came to a halt and I looked outside the window confused.

"This is not home." I announced giving him a confused glance.

"I know," He rubbed the back of his neck, "I thought maybe we could walk by the beach."

I smiled softly, "I would love that."

I took off my heels as we both stepped out of the car and started walking on the sand. It felt so nice to walk bare feet on the sand.

After walking for a while we sat side by side on the beach watching the ocean. I took a deep breath inhaling the smell of wet sand, immediately relaxing.

"Feeling better?" Jude asked. I smiled nodding my head.

"Why did you bring me here?" I asked curiously.

"I don't know," He shrugged, "I just thought maybe you needed quiet for a bit."

"So the bad boy cares." I smirked teasing him a bit.

"Don't bet on it." He rolled his eyes with a smile on his face but then his face turned serious, "You were pretty shaken, you can talk to me if you want."

I looked away feeling the light breeze touching my face, "He was drunk." I muttered quietly.

"Doesn't give him the right to do what he did."

"You're right." I just wish someone like Jude was there that time when I was vulnerable. I blinked away the tears that were threatening to come out. I am doing it again, thinking about the past.

My phone lit, it was a text message from Zach.

Zach: urr dafe rgt?

I chuckled, he is so drunk. I think he meant 'you're safe right?' He was concerned even in his drunken state. I wondered if I even deserved them, they know nothing about me.

Me: Yes, I am safe. Go to sleep.

Zach: Nigrll.

He meant 'Night girl'. I put the phone down and turned to look at Jude who was smiling. He must have read the messages.

"You know, when we were little as in my friends and I." He muttered quietly, I wouldn't have heard him if it wasn't this quiet. "We used to sneak at night and come here."

"You all were badasses even when you were kids." I snickered.

"Yeah, you could say that. We used to swim in the cold ocean. Chris is the craziest among us coming up with such absurd ideas." He laughed remembering a happy memory.

"I am pretty sure I would die if I ever come here at night alone." I faked a shiver.

"Sacred of the dark are we?" He smirked.

"No." I lied quickly looking at him

"Then you wouldn't mind going home alone from here. It's not that far." He shrugged pretending to get up.

I pushed him a little and he fell putting his weight on his left hand and then he started laughing, "You are such a jerk." I glared at him.

"I was kidding." He chuckled, "What kind of a man I'd be if I leave a girl alone here at night especially when she is afraid of the dark."

"If you'll tell anyone I will chop you into pieces."

My threats clearly didn't work on him because he started laughing again.

"Yeah and dump my body parts in the broad daylight?" He chuckled.

I rolled my eyes, he wasn't going to let this go but I smiled anyway and soon we both started laughing and it was amazing. For a second I forgot about all the pains and horrible memories and it felt good.