Beloved Alpha (BWWM)

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Closing the door behind me, I was met with silence. I had left Marilyn at the pack house since she would be meeting with the alpha along with her father.

That's weird. I looked around the house. "Mom! Dad!" I said to the empty house.

My mom would normally be home by this time though.

I climb up the stairs warily and take off the articles of clothing one after the other before jumping into the shower. I let the cool water run down my back as I stare down at my feet.

Why haven't I heard her?

Yeah, I don't want the attachment to a mate but it would be nice to finally have my wolf.

I sigh and start washing my hair with the coconut scented shampoo and conditioner.

After a few minutes, I walk out and avoid using a towel on my hair, which made the process of drying up my body much harder. The water from my hair kept dripping unto the area on my back that I had just dried.

I dressed up for the night with some yoga pants and my white t-shirt with the school's logo. Walking up to my dresser, I grab an old scarf and wrap my hair in it in a gypsy style. I grab my backpack from the floor and walk towards the bed.

*ding*

I sighed and reached over to the small table besides my bed. I grabbed the phone and read the message.

[Bryce: You aren't seriously just going to do homework right now.]

I frowned.

[Peyton: Were you spying on me?]

I heard a knock on my window.

Okay, I usually get mad at the character that does this in a movie but I'm intrigued.

I wait a few minutes before hearing another knock. I get up from my bed and walk towards the window. I open it slowly and look out of it before coming face to face with Bryce. I let out a squeal and smack him on the face before retreating back into my room.

He comes in through my window, may I add, shirtless while touching his nose. "What was that for?"

"Bryce, no normal person does what you just did." I look at him while I place my hands on my waist.

"Peyton, there's nothing normal about us plus I just got here and wanted to surprise you." I raise an eyebrow at him and he brings his hands up in defense. "I promise."

He walks all the way to my bed and sat down facing me. "Come, sit down."

I shake my head as I make my way to my bed and sit down crossed legged while leaning back against the wall. "So, this is what you had in mind?"

He nods and I smile back.

He proceeds to lay down on my bed and pulls me down to his hard chest by tugging at my wrist.

I lay down with my head against his chest and hear the soft beating of his heart against my ear. I looked up at him and met his blue eyes. He gently pulls one of my curls that was sticking out of the hair wrap I made. "What would you like as your gift?"

"I don't want anything, Bryce." I start to pull away from his chest but he held me down. I stop holding back and just enjoy the feel of being against his chest.

"Imagine as if I am your genie but you only get one wish."

I slapped his chest gently. "That's not fair."

"Well, you kind of used your other two." He smirks at me.

"Which are?" I placed my palm against his chest and lay my chin on top of my hand while looking at him.

"Well, I am here right now. The second one would be not getting you a gift."

I couldn't help but chuckle. "You are so sneaky."

He stuck his tongue out at me and a calming silence fell between the two of us after that.

"So, what would you like?" I hear him say softly. I bring my eyes up to meet his blue ones. My eyes move down until they reach his lips. They were so plump and inviting. He licks his lips and I looked away as I feel myself blushing.

I feel his index and middle finger on my cheek making me look at him. I met his eyes and found him looking back at me with lustfulness as his hand that was on top of my own gave mine a light squeeze.

"Kiss me." His eyes turn a stormy blue as they kept looking at me. He turns me over and I lay there right underneath him as he hovers over me, looking at me with this intense look in his eyes, which had become progressively darker.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" He said huskily in an almost inaudible voice.

I nod my head not trusting my own. He leans down and hovers his lips over mine.

"Are you sure?" He whispers against my lips and I take in his minty breath caressing my lips. I reach up and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him down. My lips crash into his and I feel him let out a small sigh of relief. His hands give my hips a light squeeze as he inhales sharply.

I feel his tongue brush my lower lip asking me for access as he moves slowly against my core. I didn't give him access. Instead, I just pull away while blushing.

"Peyton." I hear him say and his breathe lightly touches the side of my face. I look back at him and see his eyes completely dark. His wolf might have taken over. I found that we were still in a compromising position. He was between my legs as I still had my fingers intertwine with his hair.

"You're driving my wolf crazy with that stare that you are giving us." He said with his raspy voice.

"How is that possible? Y-you haven't felt any type of indication that I am you know...your mate." I said softly.

He shook his head. "But, my wolf seems to take a liking of you and so have I."

I couldn't help but stare at him. How is that even possible?

I move from underneath him and sit up looking away from him.

"You have to go."

I heard him shuffle behind me and I find him kneeling down in front of me within a few seconds.

"I just got here. Why are you kicking me out?" I avoid his pleading look that ask me to stay just like he did once upon a time. I refuse to lead myself on.

"I know. I just rather be alone than working on an impossible. Your mate is probably out there waiting for you to-"

He stood up quickly and my eyes followed his every movement until he was gazing down at me with his.

"I don't give two shits about a mate. I know it has taken me a while to tell you this but, you, more than anyone, have to know of the way I've felt about you and I know you feel the same. Remember that night that-"

Now, it was my turn to stand up and shut him up. "That was a mistake." I said through clench teeth.

He stands and looks at me with a shock look. "I know I haven't made any advancement after that night but you know I am waiting for the right time. I can't make decisions on my own. Once you obtain your wolf and you become my Luna, no one will be able to tell me to stay away from you, not even my friends. And, you won't be thinking that it was a mistake."

"Stop thinking about the impossible." I moved away from him. "You know the chances of us being mates are very slim at this point. Yeah, we had s*x. So what? Your mate or my mate could be doing the same thing thinking that their person died or something." Both of our eyes locked for a moment before he starts to nod. "I want you just as bad as you want me but it is not as simple as you make it sound."

"But it is. If you just stop pushing me to someone else that you think is my soulmate or whatever, I know it can." He tries to come closer to me but I take a step back.

"I don't know what fantasy land you live in but I live in the now, which is reality. In this reality, you and I will never be."

He backs up a bit, nodding at me. "Okay."

He moves around me without saying another word and disappears through my window.

I let out a sigh and place my hand on my chest. It felt constricted. I wanted to cry so bad. I close my eyes as I take a deep breath. I want to run after him but I can't . I can't just insult him in such a way and then act like everything is okay. I can't be a hypocrite.

I lay down on my bed deciding to go to sleep instead of doing homework.