A peek into past
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"Jude? ", Lav asked in a low voice.
" Are you serious right now? Like the Jude who studied with u from kindergarten? The one who's Lav's neighbor? ", Aniya's mouth was wide open. Others were confused by their reaction.
" You guys know him? How???? " Others started questioning.
I sighed realizing that it's going to be a lot of work to say about him as some of my cousins already know him well.
"Stop arguing and listen if u want, otherwise I'll go to my brothers.. " , saying it I tried to stand up but they all forced me to sit again and decided to be obedient ones.
"As Aniya said, Jude studied with me from kindergarten onwards until 10th grade. And he's Lav's neighbor. So basically my dad and mom knows about him well and they were always liked him. He was a great kid. I always admired his talents. We used to be best friends in KG, not just me and Jude. We were a small gang of four. Jude, Neil, Ana and me, we were really close and really popular at that age itself. I know it might seem like am bragging about it, but it's true. Our gang was well known because we all were toppers and excelled in arts and sports. So kinda the teacher's pets too. But our gang didn't last forever actually, Neil had to change his school. When he went away onwards we all became distant. Me and Ana chose to stay as best friends but it wasn't the case for Jude, he slowly separated from us even though we were all in same class. His friends circle changed and also grew big actually. It happened so quickly and I wasn't surprised much, cause many people loved his character and also he was good at mostly everything... "
"That's actually really true. I always wondered if there's anything he can't do!!! ", Lav asked mostly to herself. She knew him for years and always considered him as a big brother.
" Yes there's something he can't do... And I'll tell it last, okay? " I paused and saw everyone nodding at me, so I continued "So basically I saw him becoming the most popular guy in my school, saw girls running behind him and boys envying him but also want to stay in his friend's circle. Slowly slowly I realized something... My feelings for him. It wasn't just a friendly one, it ran deep in me. I didn't know it when he was always with me, but when he drifted apart I started knowing how I felt for him. But me being me, refused to accept that feelings. I buried them inside me where no one could see it.
Days passed, months and years.. I always told myself that my feelings for Jude will go away. It's just some childish thoughts. But one day, I came to know a news. That news was spreading fast. Before I could get a hold of it, it was known by everyone. Jude is in love with someone. "
"OHHH DAMMMMNN", one of my little cousins yelled impulsively. " Why did he do that? Ohh my poor sister... ", I can see the sadness on her face.
" Don't be so sad dear. The one who he was in love with was me itself. " I heard surprised gasps from them. I giggled a little and resumed my story, "yeah it was me. And everyone was coming to me and asking about it. They all wanted to know when did he proposed me and how it happened and all.. And I stood there completely clueless. Jude was in love with me ? And he just told everyone about it? But not to me?? It should have been a happy moment but you guys know that am the master of fu*king things up. So yeah I did it. I fu*ked it up badly. I thought my image of a good girl got ruined by this and started crying. I can still see my younger self crying in the corridor of my class and running towards teacher's room. "
"Ohhhh no no no. Please don't do this Ash.. Please don't... ", Aniya literally face palmed herself imagining what I might have done.
" I wish to erase it all but it's already happened. Am helpless... So I ran towards my class teacher and told her about Jude trying to ruining my goodwill by spreading rumors. Ohhh Gosh how helpless I was back then... Running towards teacher for a such matter and complaining... I don't even want to think all these... Still yeah it happened already, so nothing can be done now to undo it all. And you guys can think what might have happened later. Teacher scolded him and his friends. I saw him getting scolded , he turned his head and saw me watching. Without any reaction, he turned away from me. Only at that moment I realized how much of a mistake I made. I shouldn't have done any of those. I liked him and when I got such an opportunity, I ruined it. Like what kind of an i***t I was!!!! I still don't understand yaar. "
Hearing my self accusations my cousins chuckled. But didn't make any remarks. Good for them.
"Then what happened? Did u talk to him? Did you apologize? What was his reaction? "
"His reaction... He avoided me like I was some infection. If he saw me coming , then he would choose the opposite way to go. His friends didn't talk to me at all. Which means most of the boys, stopped talking to me as I have hurt their hero/leader. Which I actually didn't care. But him avoiding me was really hurtful but I never showed it out. I always played the 'I don't care about such nonsense' kind of attitude. But actually inside I was burning. See am a good actress... "
"Of course you are... You have won several awards for acting... ", my innocent little cousin smiled at me.
" So he doesn't talk to you still? ", another one asked.
" You guys are friends now.. I have seen it. How did that happen? ", Lav asked and I passed a quick smile ...
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