Looking for Something

Chapter 19

When you do take the home pregnancy test, it doesn't quite seem real. But when you see the baby and the heartbeat on the ultrasound, it's so incredible. -Danica McKellar

The thing that's nice about pregnancy is that in the end, you have a baby. -Ann Romney

I think that what scares me more than getting fat during pregnancy is the responsibility of a child. -Carol Alt

~~Sydney~~

"Babe, I told you to wait for me to come help you out the car. I don't want you giving my son brain damage." I smack my lips and grab his outstretched hand to help me out. He is so convinced that we are having a boy, he already calls the baby a 'he' and tells me 'be careful with my son'. I don't argue with him, because I want a boy too.

I feel his hand supporting my back as we make our way to the doctor's office building. It has been four months and we finally get to know the baby's gender. Mickie is too excited for words. He just KNOWS he is getting himself a little baby boy that he can teach to play football, and watch the games with, and blah blah blah. I am convinced we have a son too though, because this baby is heavy as hell and has my stomach leaning already and it has only been four months.

"Ugh, I need to find a bathroom, I have to pee."

"Okay, I'm going to go sign you in." I nod and then I head towards the sign that says bathroom. This baby knows he likes to sit on my bladder. I probably pee ten times per hour. I rush in and head towards the big stall. Once I use the bathroom I go wash my hands and then I head back out into the waiting room. I see Dominic standing at the counter filling out information on a clip board, so I go find me a seat. A woman is sitting beside me with a baby in her lap, probably around three and another kid sitting beside her that looks around seven. She sees me looking at her baby and smiles at me then sees my stomach.

"How far along are you?"

"Four months."

"Are you excited?" I nod my head and smile.

"Having kids is a wonderful thing. Now everyday is not a walk in the park, but at the end of the day when you see your child sleeping, and the innocence is spread across their face you'll thank God for the complexity of it all." She looks down at her son sitting in her lap who has fallen asleep on her chest now. He looks so adorable. A man walks up and picks up her other son who is sitting beside her and takes his seat, setting him onto his lap.

"Hey honey, sorry I'm late. Had to take care of something before I came. Are you feeling okay?" That must be her husband. I let them talk and I look over in Dominic's direction and he is walking towards me with the clipboard he was just writing on.

"Babe, they need your signature right here." I take the clipboard from him and sign my name, then I give it back and he gives it to the nurse behind the counter. He comes back and sits beside me, I feel his arm wrap around my shoulders. "Are you okay? Are you in pain? You need anything to drink? Eat? Bathroom?" I laugh and pat his lap to try and calm him down.

"No, I'm fine thanks for asking. Calm down. Everything is going to be fine. You thought of a name yet?" He smiles at me with that stupid grin and I laugh and shake my head. "Other than Dominic!" He rolls his eyes and kisses his teeth.

"Man, that is a bomb ass name what you don't know!" He tries to look offended and I laugh. I reach over and pinch his cheek.

"I know it is baby. I love YOUR name. And I want our baby to have his/her own name too."

"Sydney Williams." A nurse steps out of the door and calls my name. Mickie hops up and then helps me up out of the chair. He follows me to the nurse and she allows us to walk in. She leads us to Dr. Moore's room and I lay out on the table. "Dr. Moore will be in shortly."

"Okay, thank you."

"Are you nervous, I'm nervous." I lift my head up and watch Dominic pace beside the window.

"No I am not and you shouldn't be either. Come sit beside me, I want to hold your hand." I reach out for him and he pulls a chair up beside me. I intertwine my fingers with his and kiss his hand. "Why are you so nervous?"

"I don't know, I've never been pregnant before." I laugh and rub his hand.

"Me neither, but I know that everything is going to be okay. I know you took care of Hope when she was a baby sometimes, right? Plus, I have taken care of China when she was a baby. We are not going into this totally blind."

"Yea, I know...but this is different. This is my child. In my care, not my parents. What if I f**k up? What if I forget to feed him? what if he doesn't like me? What if--"

"Shut up...the baby is going to love you, and you are going to be a good father. You want to know how I know?"

"How?"

"Because I said so!" I look at him and he gives me a kiss. He shouldn't doubt himself because Dominic Adams is one of the best people God has put on this earth. Where would I be without him, I don't know. I love him to death and we have been through so much together. "Can I be honest with you?"

"Always." I feel him playing with my hair, and I watch his eyes. I always loved his eyes. They are just big and brown. Warm like melted chocolate, or a soft teddy bear.

"I thought you wouldn't want to deal with me anymore after the kidnapping." His eyes look at mine and his brow furrows.

"Why would you think that?"

"Well, you went through a lot of trouble to get me out of the house...and maybe it made you think back on all the other times you have had to save me, so it was just too much and you decided--"

"Stop stop stop, do you hear yourself Syd? I love you. You know what that means? That means I will flip this entire earth upside down to make you happy. I care about you more than I care about myself. You mean the world to me Sydney Williams and I would never leave you because I don't think I would have the strength to. EVER." He is about to make me cry. I smile at him. I lean over and kiss him, then I kiss him again before I lay back.

"You're going to make me cry. You are not supposed to make a pregnant woman cry Dominic!" I hit his arm playfully and he smirks at me.

"Well don't ever question my love for you again. Got it?" I look at him and nod my head. He leans over and kisses me again. In the middle of our kiss, Dr. Moore walks in.

"Alright you two. We have to get this baby out before you can start making another one." She winks at us and I start to blush. She comes stand beside me and feels my stomach through my shirt. "Ooo, getting firm. So, you ready to figure out the s*x of your baby?"

"Yes, I think he is the most excited."

"Please, it's a boy. I already know it is. I don't even know why we are here." Dr. Moore laughs as she lifts my shirt and starts rubbing the gel across it. She turns on the sonogram screen and rubs the monitor along it.

"Oohhh, you've gotten bigger since the last time we've seen you, eh?" I watch the little miracle sitting on the screen. I only say that because, you know, being kidnapped by Rose and all the falling and abuse I went through, my baby should have been a stillborn by now, or brain damaged in some way, but so far my baby is healthy and growing. "Your boyfriend must be a psychic. We are looking at your healthy baby boy."

"HELL YEA!" Dominic yells this, then looks at the doctor apologetically. I just laugh and so does she. His excitement is too much. "I mean, yay we are truly blessed."

"You don't have to hide your excitement. You guys thought of baby names yet?"

"Well, now that we know that we are having a boy...it will make it easier. I have no clue though. He keeps wanting to name the baby Dominic."

"Nah babe, I was kidding. I want him to have his own identity...we'll figure something out." I nod my head and smile at  him. I pull my shirt down and Dominic helps me off the table.

"Well, I will see you two next month. Make sure you take it easy. No more dancing, but of course you knew that. Try to get in some exercise every once in a while just to maintain a nice shape for when the baby has come. Drink plenty of fluids to avoid dehydration, and water would be best to avoid pregnancy diabetes. Thank you for coming, and I will see you next month, alright?" I nod my head and Dr. Moore steps out of the way for us to pass her, then she follows behind us to the door. I feel Dominic place his hand on my back again for support as we head to the car.

"Are you hungry?" I give him a sheepish grin and nod my head. He laughs and shakes his head. "Do you know what you want?"

"I have been craving pizza..."

"Alright, pizza it is."

"Don't you have afternoon practice today?"

"Yea, but I told coach I'm not coming today. Spending the day with my woman and my son." He glances at me before he looks back at the road. I just smile at him and grab his hand. His hand loosely squeezes mine. He pulls up to the pizza buffet place I like to go to and helps me out the car so that we can go in. We stand in line waiting to pay and get seated. I just hold onto his arm while we wait. "Are you okay?"

He looks down at me and I don't know what he is talking about. "What do you mean?"

"Your face you're making."

"Oh, my boob itches."

"Heheh, my twins are growing." I hit him on the arm and he starts laughing. "Do ya booty itch too?" He gives me that stupid grin and I hit his arm again. He is so nasty.

"Ew, no!"

"Good, because I was going to say you probably need to wash that shit." I start laughing.

"Shut up! You are so nasty." We finally get to the front of the line and pay, then I pile me up a plate of pizza and go sit down. He scoots in beside me in the booth. We just talk and eat, and this time I actually eat as much as he does. Then we are both full and just sit there. I lay my head on his shoulder as he wraps his arm around my shoulders.

"I want to talk to my son, come here." At first I don't understand, but then he turns me sideways and sets me in his lap. I wrap my arm around his neck and he starts rubbing my stomach. "Hey Dee Jr." I smack him upside the back of his head lightly and he laughs. "Your momma doesn't like me calling you that, but until we figure out your real name, what else am I supposed to call you?" I just laugh and shake my head.

"Call him baby."

"No, I refuse. His name will be junior until we can think of something. Isn't that right Junior?" He lies his head on my stomach as if the baby is going to talk back. "Yeeaaa, he agrees!" He smiles up at me.

"Shut up! You are so silly...but sweet." I lean down and give him a kiss.

"I love you Shorty." I grin.

"I love you too Mickie."

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That chapter was just so that I could get the baby's gender out before I switch to after college life with them.

Alright, so....I need your help.

Now that you know the gender, help me find a cute name for the baby...?

I cannot write the next update until I find a name....so drop names in your comments below please and thank you! <3 You guys are awesome!

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