Lola " Are you sure this is what you want?” Mark holds my hand, and I have to make an effort not to cry. I wish I could run away, go into my room and cry until I have no more strength. But I stay strong. I know what I have to do. I've screwed up my mother's life several times. And I know that if I don't make a decision, it won't be like the other times. With Frank it's different. It started like all the others... I don't even know how the helll it started, I just know it's stronger than me. It's a need to see her suffer. Like she did with my father until he couldn't bear it anymore and ended his own life. I was never to blame. She was the traitor. She killed my father. But... but now, she's sick, and she's all I have. I can't lose her too. " Mark, I want to do this.” I sigh. " My

