17 Ever was experiencing the bond that you have with your mate after you get into a relationship, sure Ever and James were strictly s****l at this point but atleast he was grovelling and making up for past mistakes. After their morning together he'd gotten her into bed one last time before they left for back home. The preparation for the carnival was in full swing and she was getting nervous by the minute. Even on the helicopter when James reassuring her that everything would be okay, her heart and mind refused to believe it. She just thought that something would happen and wash away this happiness once and for all. The tragedies of the past loomed over her and the baby's head like a death trap. She woke up sweating at night crying thinking something would go wrong. James would hold her

