-Eleazar-
I couldn't even complain about the shattering pain. It was close to when Damara died. Yet, on both occasions, I stood strong. The first time I held it in because I was King, and my weakness meant the doom of my Kingdom, Andre was too young and too passionate to lead; this time, pretending to be unaffected when feeling your heart ripped out from your chest, worsened the pain.
Regardless, I embraced the pain because it was my punishment for my negligence, my stupidity, and my blindness...
I'd favored Cara and her family for years because I was drowning in guilt. I dishonored her at Damara's funeral, under a spell. Yes. But it was my fault I opened the door that day, it was my fault I found comfort in another female to numb my pain... I didn't even try to refuse her advances.
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