Hilary Joyce

Chapter 2 - Manifestation of perfect

Sebastian

"I believe we need to do some usefull stuff for the last week of your vacation. Total naman pinayagan ka na ng dad mo to take a break even just a week before the start again of the semester."

That's jim, kasamahan ko sa tae kwon do at kababata na rin. He's also here in Laguna at nagbabakasyon.

"So what do you propose?"

Tanong ko since the word give up does'nt exist in his vocabulary. Malamang sa malamang hindi niya ako tatantanan.

"Just a simple trip to palawan. Oh, by the way before I forgot, the whole troups want to join. Would you mind?"

Pansamantala akong nanahimik at nag-isip.

"oh come on dude! It's just a sort of having fun time. Dont stress yourself that much."

Binuntutan niya pa iyon ng tawa.

"Tsk. Okay, okay. Just make sure wala iyang halong kalokohan. I know you from the very beginning De dyos. I dont want to clean any trash of you again. Are we clear here?"

"Okay copy that. I'll just text you the exact details when we finalise it today. Thanks dude!"

Pinutol ko ang tawag after he thank me. If i know, this is his own way of giving me headache. Wala talagang magawa.

"Aalis ka na agad? Im still not satisfied. I want more babe. I want more of you."

Mapang-akit na sabi nito sa kabila ng patuloy na paghabol sa hininga habang nakahiga sa kama. Walang maski anong saplot ang katawan, nakabuka ang mga hita at inilalabas ang aking similya.

Im now here in Palawan and enjoying my last days before going back to school. Ang babaeng nasa kama ngayon ang pansamantala kong pinaglibangan habang hindi pa rin bumabalik sina jim mula sa kaniya-kaniya rin nilang libangan. Mas maigi na ito kaysa kung ano pang kalokohan ang maisip ng ugok na iyon at madamay na naman ako. Tiyak na tataas na naman ang presyon ni dad kapag nagkataon.

"Dont get me wrong miss--" The hell, I don't remember her name anymore. "What happened between the two of us right now is just a plain s*x. Nothing more and nothing less. Nangailangan ako ng katawang pagpaparausan and since you volunteered yourself kaya tayo nauwi sa ganito. Im done with you and thanks for the fuck."

Pansamantalang nanigas ang babae sa pagkabigla at ito ang ginamit kong pagkakataon upang makaalis sa kuwartong iyon.

Yeah, im this bastard. I threw girls just like I throw a piece of junk pagkatapos ko silang gamitin. Ginusto naman nila iyon so why put the blame on me? Kung nasasaktan man sila it's  their fault, not mine.

If you would ask me why im like this, simply because I dont believe na may natitira pang babae sa mundo na karapat-dapat igalang, ingatan at alagaan. Well except my mom because she's my mother.

Hindi lang ito basta nanggaling sa opinyon ko, it's base on my experience also.

Katulad din naman ako ng ibang kaedad ko na minsang nagmahal. Honestly, I do girlfriends before but none of them last. Reason? Dahil wala sa kanilang matino.

They all cheated on me. Kaya heto, wala na ako maski sino sa kanilang siniseryoso. Hindi na ako kailanman pumasok sa relasyon at kapag naman kailangan kong i-satisfy ang needs ko bilang isang lalaki, ganito ang ginagawa ko.

This is how i live now and maybe, this is how I'm going to live for the rest of my life.

I am Sebastian Briner Saavedra. Nineteen years old. Fourth year college at Saint Angelus University taking Bachelor of Science in Business Administration.

Every people around me are saying that I am the living manifestation of the word 'perfect'. I have good looks and a body to die for. Exceptional intelligence and talent.

Plus the factor that I came into a rich and well known family in the society.

Things that somehow I hate. Reason why I only have limited friends with me. Bakit ko kakailanganin ang madami kung lahat naman sila kinakaibigan lang ako ng dahil lang doon. Mailap at masungit ako sa mga tao, I admit that. Ito ang paraan ko para sila na mismo ang lumayo sa akin at hindi na ako mahirapan pa sa pagtataboy sa kanila.

I am having a quiet and peacefull living and everything's fine with me without knowing na may darating palang manggugulo sa buhay ko at maghahatid ng pagbabago.