Meeting.
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I for once, am bored again.
For days, for weeks. I've been watching anime series non-stop.
I haven't been enrolled for the fourth semester in our university because I wanted to rest.
Not physically, but mentally and emotionally.
I am freaking drained.
From all the troubles, frustrations and sadness inside of me.
I am really tired.
I am hopelessly tired. I wanna give up.
From all these anxieties, people, my family and this f*****g pandemic.
This ruined all, everything that I love to do.
It's been five months since the quarantine a.k.a the longest lock down in the history of earth began.
I'm losing my sanity from all the stress I've been receiving lately.
Going out, being with my friends at least helps me keep my sanity.
But with this quarantine, this stupid pandemic, the only thing that keeps my sanity is now gone.
Well, at least I have my anime and food right???
Nope. It wasn't enough.
At some point, I'll come back to my senses
Realizing I was never really okay.
I'm still not okay.
Maybe I'll just browse again on the internet, as usual.
To divert my attention.
To find memes and videos to laugh at.
In any case, I'm kind of "happy" at this way.
As I scroll down to my feed, I stumbled upon this group.
Unsubtle Boyfriend & Girlfriend Searching.
Hmm. Seems Interesting.
Joined, I clicked.
This seems to be a group for people who wants to find or get some boyfriend or girlfriend??? or in some other people, this is just a past time or what they called nowadays a"quaran-fling".
So basically, you'll talk to lots of strangers online and make a choice of who to keep as "boyfriend" or "girlfriend".
Seems fishy and dangerous.
Okay let's do this.
Hehe, just me and my decisive ass.
I know, this will get me in trouble some time in the future.
But meh, who cares anyway.
Not me.
If the world is ending soon because of this stupid pandemic, might as well take chances in finding me a person who'll listen and will probably loves me.
What could go wrong, amiright folks??
As I've read the instructions on how to find yourself a bf 'nor gf,
Basically all you have to do is to post some of your best, worst, funny, quirky, cute?? pictures of yourself and then add some descriptions to it and then boom! Viola! It's done.
And apparently after all that people will start liking your post and photos. Either they'll add you or message you first.
It depends on them.
Either they'll make the first move or it's all up to you.
After posting my entry, I went back from watching anime.
Later that night, I checked my post again.
Holy shiet—!!!!
A THOUSAND LIKES??? EIGHT HUNDRED COMMENTS ???
I MEAN, I'M NOT EVEN THE PRETTIEST AMONG THE GROUP.
EVEN MY DESCRIPTIONS SOUNDS SO FREAKING CORNY, and fishy.
What kind of sorcery is this???
After that I tried to looked at other things.
My friend requests are flooded, even my message request are also flooded.
Holy shiet part two.
I am deeply overwhelmed.
I never expected for this to blow up!
A part of me is excited, I'll talk to people again, strangers to be exact, at least with that I don't have time to be sad anymore ey??
Because that'll mean my mind will be preoccupied.
But a part of me is scared.
Really damn afraid.
What if,
I'll get attached,
And they'll leave me eventually??
What if something like that will happen??
But meh, who knows right??
If that happens,
I'll probably just wing it.
I finally opened my messenger,
Started to entertain some people, I mean, a lot of 'em.
Some are funny, some of them are really kind.
Most of them are really flirty, I would say so.
The first few minutes we're really entertaining.
I'm having fun, knowing all of their names, what they did these past few months of quarantine,
What they like in a person.
A lots of things.
I am learning a lot of things from a bunch of strangers who are probably bored or really finding,
Searching for someone.
As hours go by,
At some point,
I began to lose interest.
Meh, watching anime is a lot more entertaining, my mind tells me so.
Should I stop this or nah???
Then my indecisive ass comes in.
It's probably more worth it to finish this anime I'm watching rather than talking to a bunch of strangers who are probably just really horny or bored right now.
But a part of me wants to could this.
It's been a long time since I felt being wanted.
Even if these are just baseless feelings, at least it feels quite nice to be wanted.
So I decided to give it a one last try.
I tried to randomly pick one last message request.
As I scroll down to pick,
I saw a profile pic of a guy, in his sunglasses, underneath the warmth of the sun.
Smiling.
I don't know, it feels so weird but,
As I swipe right to see his other pictures,
The more I get this feeling that I've seen him before.
I know in my guts,
That I've seen this guy before.
He seems oddly familiar, for some stranger I met online.
The structure of his face,
The way he smile,
The way those eyes looks at me,
The way his hair falls down so majestically,
The way those lips looks like home.
Deep inside of me, I feel like I knew him
The way he feels so familiar scares me.
But at the same time, it feels like coming home.
I did not hesitate or even think twice before open his messages.
It goes,
Hello, you seem nice and cute. I'm willing to undergo trials, to know if I'm fit to be your guy??
I know right?
It's really corny, asf. Hahahaha
But I don't know.
This feels so wrong but at the same time it feels really right.
Guess what I did next?
Really? A lot of my friends thinks I'm a devil. hehe
Hahahaha, anyway, nice to meet you. I'm—
That was the start,
Of something that destroyed me.
But at the same time completed me.
****
It would have been simpler to meet you
in a world where I could wake up nestled tightly in beside you
and you could join in each adventure I took on.
But fate doesn't work that way.
Wait for me my love.
I'll be there..
Just a little bit more..
Please wait for me.
- Writer
