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Chapter 17-18

After getting into the limo, everything started happening so quickly. It wasn't long that I was standing outside the doors of the most beautiful church. I started to feel completely nervous. My legs started to shake and my palms began to sweat. When the doors opened, we began to enter the building. There was tons of white lilies which are my favorite. As we walked in there was a long white satin stream that led up to the altar. Craig hired a flower girl and she was sprinkling rose petals as I walked. I couldn't believe he did all this for me. All I have ever wanted was a big beautiful wedding with him. It kind of made me sad that most of the people there were strangers. I wasn't going to let that ruin my day.

As I approached Craig he was standing there just looking at me. Now I don't ́t mean staring, I mean really looking at me. Like he could see into my soul. The look in his eye was pure love. I took his hand and began to shake. As the preacher started, Craig leaned in and whispered,

̈ ̈ Don't be nervous baby ̈

¨You look so beautiful ̈

¨I love you so much ̈

Just then the preacher began speaking to Craig. I know he was talking, but I was so nervous that my legs began to shake. I could barely make out what he was saying to me. Just then the preacher asked me the same question,

̈ ̈Jade, do you take this man to me your lawfully wedded husband ̈

Before he could finish I blurted out, ̈Yes I do ̈!

He then asked for the rings. ̈Wait, I don't have a ring for him ̈ I thought to myself. Just then the preacher took something from the flower girl. Craig had bought us a set. As he repeated the preacher he slide a princess cut diamond ring and band onto my finger. Then it was my turn and I slide his gold band onto his left hand. When the preacher announced us man and wife, Craig grabbed me and kissed me passionately. I was so happy! I am finally his wife! When we left there we went back to the hotel where Craig had rented out an area there so we could have cake. We sat for some time with my sister and Dr. Shapiro before headed up to their rooms and we headed to ours. This time we went back to the suite reserved for Craig. It was actually the penthouse.

Once we were in there Craig guided me towards our bedroom. He was being so sweet. He told me how beautiful I looked at my wedding dress. When we walked over to the bed he had some lingerie he bought for me to wear.

¨You want me to out that on ̈ I said sheepishly

Craig then pulled me into his chest. His shirt to his tux now unbuttoned and his tie was just loose around his neck.

¨I want you to wear whatever makes you feel comfortable Mrs. Whitman ̈

He gave me a peck on the lips then he rubbed his nose against mine.

̈ ̈Jade, you made me a happy man tonight ̈

¨You know you are mine forever now ̈

He then leaned in and gave me a much more passionate kiss. It made my whole body feel warm and tingly. Then he turned me around.

̈ ̈Let me help you unzip this ̈ he said while pulling the zipper on the back of my dress down.

As he started to slide the dress off my shoulders he gently started kissing them. He slid his hand up my neck brushing my hair to the side and kissed me some more. Before I knew it he had gently pushed me down on the bed and started to pull up my dress. He then whispered in my ear that he loved me as we began to consummate our marriage. The next morning I woke up to the rays of the morning sun. Craig was already up drinking a cup of coffee. I just admired how he looked sitting there. He was fresh out of the shower wearing his very own white bathrobe. He had room service already come up and was drinking from a white mug. Steam was rising from it as he took a sip. In front of him sat two plates with two silver lids. There were two bowls of fresh fruit and a single rose in the middle of the table.

I got up and walked over to him giving him a kiss before sitting down.

¨It smells so good Craig ̈

̈ ̈What did you order ̈?

He sat his mug down and began lifting off the lids.

̈Only your favorite ̈

¨It was eggs and biscuits ̈

I laughed. I can ́t believe here we are in this extravagant room and he ordered me eggs and biscuits. I looked up at him.

¨You know I couldn't ask for a better husband ̈ I said while stuffing my mouth full of eggs.

I looked a mess. I still had on the makeup from the night before along with the single strand of pearls that my sister bought me. I was also still wearing the blue zircon gem earrings I borrowed from Dr. Shapiro. Just then I wondered what time they were leaving. Craig told me they had already left.

̈ ̈Left, without saying goodbye ̈

I was kind of upset. Craig placed his hand on my knee and told me they had to get back.

̈ ̈Plus we leave in about two hours for our honeymoon, so you better hurry up and get ready ̈

I set my plate down in disbelief.

̈Honeymoon, really ̈

Craig then handed me a brochure. It said Bora Bora on the front. I almost spit my food out. With my hand now covering my mouth I mumbled, ̈no this is to much ̈.

̈ ̈Nothing is too much for you Jade ̈

¨I love you and I want you to have memories to look back on one day when were are old ̈

I choked down my food and gave him a kiss while throwing my arms around his neck.

¨I love you ̈

¨I really do Craig ̈

¨You really thought of everything ̈

I think that was the hundredth time that I had said that, but it was so true. He had planned out the perfect wedding surprise all for me. I couldn't help but think about the surprise waiting in store that I had for him. It was in that moment that I decided I would tell him the truth when I we get back. ̈ ̈The whole truth¨ I told myself.

The trip was amazing! I couldn't have asked for a better honeymoon. We ate so much food. Craig had booked us a private bungalow that sat on the water. The ocean was turquoise. Everyday there was so magical. We took a boat to dinner and he took me out of tours. We spent about a week there before we had to head back. Craig was already working on a legit business plan so he could bring in more money that wasn ́t just blood money. He knew he had to leave that life behind. Although, he was very well set with what he had already, he just wanted to keep himself busy while I was at my job. It took some convincing to get him to let me keep it because he didn't want me working once we were married. I could never see me just sitting at home though. Once we got back Craig had one last surprise. We were sitting in his car on our way back from the airport when he handed me something. It was an envelope.

̈ ̈What is in side ̈ I asked impatiently?

̈ ̈Open it and you ́ll find out ̈

I ripped open the paper and it was a key.

¨A key ̈

¨I don't get it ̈ I said with a puzzled look on my face.

̈ ̈Jade, that is a key to our new home as long as you want it ̈

̈Of course I want it ̈ I said while leaning in for a kiss.

We drove to the other side of town and pulled up to a beautiful house. Inside he had already decorated every room. Craig hugged me and wanted to show me around. There were these stairs that led up to the second floor and into a long hallway. The first room had a guest bathroom and the second was the guest bedroom. The third room he showed me was an office and he showed me all the plans he had drawn up for his business. Then he guided me to the next room. When I opened the door I couldn't believe my eyes. It was a nursery. I felt my body just riddled with guilt. I must of had a look of disappointment because craig quickly reassured me that we could change it. ̈ ̈Change it ̈ I thought to myself.

̈ ̈No its perfect Craig ̈

The room didn't have a whole lot of color, but it had a crib and rocking chair that sat close to the window. It had a huge stuffed bear and changing table opposite from the crib. Then in the corner was a chaise lounge with a throw going across it almost like something straight out of a magazine. I turned towards Craig with my head hung down. I couldn't look him in the eyes. I began to tell him my secret. I wanted to tell him everything! All of the dirty little details that I have been hiding for so long, but I couldn't bring myself to say them. Then I just blurted out,

̈ ̈Craig it is perfect because I am already pregnant ̈

Still not looking up at him, I started to say it again when he exclaimed,

̈ ̈Oh my gosh, you are ̈?!

He sounded so happy! I looked up at him and he grabbed my face and kissed me.

¨I am so happy Jade ̈

̈ ̈Really I am ̈

He embraced me and I knew I needed to tell him the truth, but I can ́t. Later that night while laying in bed, I couldn't help but think about what I had done. I have lead him to believe that I am pregnant with his baby. I promised myself I would tell him the whole truth, but I just clammed up! I know he deserves to know the truth, but I just can't tell him. Not yet at least.

                                                          Chapter 18

Craig and I settled into the new house. I loved it so much! It was everything I ever wanted as a kid. Actually Craig was everything I ever wanted and I was really enjoying my new life. As much as I wanted to stay working for Dr. Shapiro, Craig would not allow me to. He was pretty easy going, but this was the one subject that he refused to budge on. I spent a lot of time working on getting the house ready for the baby. I can't believe how time has just flown by. I am already six months pregnant. I look as big as a house! There is a lot of wonderful changes that happen to your body when you are pregnant, but also a lot of changes that are not so amazing as well. I tell myself as long as the baby is ok that is all that matters. Craig and I get to find out what the baby´s s*x today. Saying I am excited would be an understatement! When I got up this morning I ran into the shower and then picked out one of my maternity outfits. As I came out to take a look at myself in the mirror I heard Craig come up behind me.

̈ ̈There is my beautiful wife!¨”Craig said while standing behind me.

He propped his chin on top of my head. I felt him wrap his strong arms around me while placing his hands on my tummy. He began to rub around my very round stomach.

¨I look like a beached whale today ̈ I joked

My stomach was so hard, but if you held your hand still you can feel the baby kicking. Craig then stopped and gazed at me through the mirror.  

¨You always look gorgeous to me¨ he quickly added. 

I looked at myself in the mirror again. For a moment, I really like the way I looked with him. My hair was so long now. It was thicker than it ever was before. It fell to the middle of my back. Today, I curled the ends to give my hair a little more bounce. I decided to wear my new dark blue button down with my white pearl earrings. I paired it with my white cotton pants which were a little tight fitted. Craig actually had on almost the same thing as me, but it was totally unplanned. We looked like the perfect family. 

¨This is real, I am going to be a mom ̈ I thought to myself while placing my hands now over his. 

̈ ̈What are you smiling about Mrs. Whitman, Craig asked curiously?

̈You, I am smiling about the thought of spending the rest of my life with you ̈ I responded. 

Craig twirled me around and gave me a peck on the lips. He then told me as he does everyday that he loved me. 

¨We better head out-we don't want to be late.̈ Craig said while pulling me towards the door of our room to leave. We headed out to the car. The doctor's office was close by so it wouldn't take us too long to get there. I couldn ́t believe we were actually on our way to find out if we were having a boy or girl. I was so anxious! I hate not knowing! I wanted to do it earlier, but Craig thought it would be bad luck. It took weeks of convincing to get him to let me book this appointment. Once there I think he was now more anxious then I was about finding out the s*x. I grabbed his hand while approaching the desk to check in.

̈ ̈Hi Mrs. Whitman, just sign here- I am going to take you in the back. ̈ The receptionist said while ruffling through her papers.

¨We had a cancelation so your up next.¨ She then placed the clipboard down in front of me.

I signed my name and headed towards the back. She lead us into this small little room with only one small bed. The walls were a light yellow. There was a small stool that was near an ultrasound machine. 

¨I guess you ́re standing.¨ I chuckled

Craig was so nervous. He kept fidgeting with his shirt then he would shove his hands into his pockets. The nurse had me lay back on the bed. She then pulled up my top to uncover my growing belly. 

̈Oh that's cold!¨ I exclaimed as she sprayed some clear goop onto my stomach. 

̈ ̈Sorry!¨ she said sheepishly.

̈ ̈Oh no it's fine.¨ I reassured her as she got up to grab the wand on the side of the machine. She began moving the wand over my stomach. 

̈ ̈There!¨ she said with a grin.

It was the baby's heartbeat. Bump...bump...bump. The sound was amazing! Craig squeezed my hand. She moved it around some more then she pointed at the monitor.

̈ ̈See that, right there?¨ she pointed to the black and white distorted image on the screen.

̈ ̈See the hamburger?¨

̈ ̈That guys means you are having a little girl.¨ she said as joy filled her voice. 

̈ ̈Yes!̈ Craig said excitedly. 

All he has talked about for weeks was how he wanted a little girl. He would tell me stories about all the places he imagined taking her and I. I was so happy too! It felt so real now. Knowing my little girl is growing inside me! I am so excited that I am going to be a mommy! I can´t wait! On the way back home Craig was already on the phone finalizing the decorations for the baby shower. Sometimes it feels like he is rushing through all these moments, but I know he is just excited too. He really does want to make sure I am happy. The baby shower was in just three days. Believe it or not, I don't really know anything about the details because for the most part Craig wanted it to be a surprise. Of course, I listened in when he was on the phone so I knew a little about what he was planning. As the day approached, he was running around like a mad man. Everything had to be perfect! It was kind of funny because usually he is so calm and collective, but with our daughter he was all over the place. He called the florist, bakery, and even had his personal assistant out picking up balloons. Craig is so amazing. I know he loves her so much already that I decided that I would never tell a soul that she wasn't his. As far as I am concerned, he is her father. 

When we arrived to the reception hall Craig opened the door for me to walk inside. It was perfect! There were about fifty small tables with white and pink linens placed over them. He had these beautiful pink and purple flower centerpieces on each table. In the front of the room was a rocking chair that was also covered in pink and white fabric. He hired several waiters to serve hordors and mimosas. It was truly well planned. Half the people who came, I didn't know. I was thankful though because they all brought so much stuff. Our daughter had a wide variety of the best baby clothes, car seat, stroller and toys. We didn't need anything after the party was over. Our guest thought of everything. I was so tired when we got home that I just wanted to put my feet up. After Craig unloaded the car, he took his usual spot cradling me on the coach. I thanked him for everything that he had done to make today so special. He was truly an amazing husband so I know he is going to be an amazing dad. I am so exhausted from the party, but I couldn't help but think about how I would finish setting up the nursery. Craig knew I wanted to do it now so he suggested we go up stairs. Oddly enough, the room already had that new born baby smell to it. I reached into a bag that was sitting near the door. It had a pink blanket with butterflies on it. I pulled out several packages that contained more bedding items. Craig already had set the crib up before he even knew I was pregnant so all we had to do now was make the bed up. I attached the crib mobile to the side. Then I hooked up the monitor right next to the crib.  I didn't know it, but most of the bulkier items were delivered before we arrived. The rocking chair from the party was already sitting close to the window. I put a plushed white pillow in it. I also draped a knitted blanket over the back. Craig pulled out a handcrafted plaque and told me this was his present from him. I looked and it was airbrushed with the name Victoria. It was the name we had talked about naming our daughter. 

̈ ̈Oh my gosh-I love it!¨ I exclaimed with pure joy. 

It was perfect! Craig hung it just above the crib. It completed the room. As we finished up, Craig began gathering up the remaining bags off the hardwood floor. He placed them in her closet. It was all clothes for her. He didn't want to take the tags off because he felt it was bad luck so we decided to leave them in there until after her birth. 

That night was the beginning of many more long nights. We had so much to do to get the house in order. We planned for a home birth so we had to order a birthing tub. My doctor thought we were crazy, but I liked the idea of being at home with just the two of them. Well and the doctor. My due date was approaching quickly. I was starting to get nervous as I don ́t know if I would be a good mom. I was from a home that was full of abuse. I didn't want my daughter to ever go through the things I did when I was a child. I only wanted the best for her. Sammie visited the house many times. We offered her to come stay with us so that she could help with the Victoria once she was born. Plus she wanted to get away from our mother. She was much better now, but she was still a mom. Sammie was ready to get out of there. We gave her a room next to the nursery. It was the second largest room in the house. Craig paid to have the room decorated the way she wanted it set up. I actually loved what she did with her space. She opted for a platform bed with a hanging oval chair. There was a fluffy multicolored rug at the foot of the bed. Since her window had a built in seat she placed several cushions so she could use it as a reading nook. Our gift to her was a large selection of novels that ranged from love stories to action series. Since Craig took care of the whole expense, she took the money she had saved from working with Dr. Shapiro and bought herself a car. I was so proud of her. We sat up late and talked about the birth that is just around the corner. 

We ended up going to bed around two in the morning, but we wouldn't stay asleep for long. I woke up to the most excruciating pain. 

̈ ̈Ouch!̈ I moaned. I pulled off my covers and threw my legs off the side of the bed. I sat my hand down to brace myself. I felt the sheets were soaked, then I ran my hands over my pj pants. They were soaked as well. Just then another contraction hit me. I yelled out! 

̈ ̈Craig-Craig get up!¨ I was now trying to make my way toward the bathroom. Craig jumped up realizing that I was in labor. 

̈ ̈Jade, I am going to call Dr. Brown ́s on call number ̈ He sounded worried. We had planned for this day, but it wasn't quite what I thought it was going to be like. Craig began helping me down the hall to the birthing room we set up. Sammie was already there filling the tub. 

̈ ̈Take off your pants and get in!”She shouted!

Now I wasn't so sure I wanted to be naked in front of everyone. Craig bracing me tol dme to let him help get me out of my wet pants. Another contraction hit me just then. They were strong and coming so fast! I was starting to panic!

̈Will the doctor get here before she comes?” I began questioning as the reality was starting to set in that I may have to give birth without medical help. I was frozen in fear for a second. Then another one hit. My stomach was tightening. I could now feel a lot of pressure in my pelvic region. The pain was almost unbearable. Craig stripped off his shirt and hopped into the tub behind me. The water was so warm which felt good. He told me that everything was going to be okay. He then started reminding me to breath as they taught us in lamaze classes. Craig was being so supportive. He grabbed my now dripping wet hair and tied it up in a loose bun. He massaged my shoulders and tried to relax me. 

̈ ̈Just breathe Jade.¨ He was now rubbing my stomach. Sammie looked panicked so he told her to wait down stairs for the doctor to let him in. I was still wearing my pj top. It was soaked. It felt so heavy so Craig told me just to take it off. He pulled me against him and I could feel his chest against my back. I started to calm down. 

¨We've got this, Jade.¨

Now he was back to focusing on my breathing again. I wanted a natural birth so bad, but the pain was too much! I started to cry out, ̈ I don't think I can do this Craig!” He just kept reassuring me I could. My pain was now at a level ten. I was having a lot of pain in my back and I felt so uncomfortable. I just wanted it to be over. The pain was so unbearable. I could feel a lot of pressure in my pelvic floor and I knew the baby was coming out.

̈ ̈Craig she is coming out!¨ I shouted just as her head popped out. Craig told me it was ok to just wait until my next contraction to push again. I felt it so I have a huge push. She was out! Craig now leaning around me grabbed her from the water. I started to cry. I couldn't believe she was actually here! All of a sudden the door flew open and in came Dr. Brown. 

¨You couldn't wait for me I see!¨ He joked while coming over to take the baby from Craig. He cut the cord, then quickly began examining her. Craig helped me out of the birthing tub. He helped me put on my rob then helped me over to the day bed we had in the room. 

̈Are you ok baby?¨ I could tell he was worried about me. I am fine I told him. Dr. Brown asked him to hold our daughter so he could examine me. I laid back on the bed. I couldn't help but watch how Craig was already falling in love with our little girl. He was standing there holding her . She was swaddled in a blanket and he was just smothering her with kisses. I forgot about all the pain I just went through because I was just so happy to see the man I love already being an amazing father!