I closed my eyes, rolled on my side, and tried to stop thinking about everything missing from my life. Being around the twins caused a thousand “what if” scenarios to begin doing battle inside my head. What if I could stay here and have a stable and safe life, like the twins? What if Adrien tried to use me for my powers like everyone else? First a good scenario, followed quickly by a bad scenario, until even though I was physically rested, I mentally exhausted myself. I was and would always be alone. It was safer that way, for everyone. I yanked the carefully placed pillows out from behind me and threw them on the floor.
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I didn’t remember falling asleep. I usually have a memory of overthinking, replaying events that I can’t change. There was none of that; I must have passed out cold. I
