He Called Me Princess. Disaster Engagement Series Book 3 Lynn Smith

Episode 17

Fran left for his travels a month ago and I missed him like mad. We had been apart for long periods before but that was different, when he was in Glasgow with his mum I could call or FaceTime but he didn’t have his phone with him so I couldn’t speak to him I just received two emails from him since he left one to say he was ok and not to worry, and one to say he was writing songs on the beach and he was having a nice time. I was devastated when he left it was like a break up Tommy was so sweet to me he understood that I was grieving the band, but I got the impression that he was secretly happy. I decided that I wasn’t going to sit around waiting for Fran to come back that I was going to take the love songs that I had written and release my own solo album. Chris said I was doing the right thing that he thought the songs were amazing and that i would do really well as a solo artist but I was terrified at the thought of doing it without the boys. It was Tommys last day of filming and the cast and crew were having a party in the city. It was at the directors house up in the hills. Tommy was as proud as punch as he introduced me to everyone he had been working with “this is my princess” he said as I shock their hands. It was the usual Hollywood types there, and I couldn’t be any less interested. I was sick of being in LA and I wanted to go home, and I didn’t mean to my house at the beach but back to Britain. Being in America didn’t feel the same since Fran had left and because I was hardly speaking to the big man. I felt home sick but now looking back I realize that I just missed Fran and the Big Man loads. I didn’t have the heart to tell Tommy I wasn’t happy there but I knew if I didn’t say anything soon it was going to come spilling out, he seemed to fit into this scene and I didn’t. I hated being fake and kissing peoples arses. I hated pretending to be someone I wasn’t. I hated people looking at me and Tommy and being jealous and smiling to our faces. This wasn’t the life I had signed up for, and I knew it. I just had to convince Tommy this wasn’t him either, at the end of the day he was a boy from the east end of London that had made it big but he didn’t need to spend his life with these people. He wasn’t pretentious, he could be an actor and leave this behind in between movies. That night I decided to talk about how I felt. “Tommy that party tonight was s**t” he let out a huge laugh “yeah I know, I hate all this LA bullshit, why is there never any food at these parties I’m starving” I was so glad he felt the same way as me. “Would you mind if we went back to London for a while?” I asked his face dropped “I’m sorry princess I’ve already signed the contract on my next movie we start filming in a few weeks time, but I promise as soon as we are done we can go back for a while” “why have you taken on another job without speaking to me?” “I’m sorry I wasn’t thinking, come here princess” he grabbed me onto his knee. “I’m just trying to work extra hard just now while the work is rolling in, I can’t afford to be fussy yet. I just want to give you everything you want” “I want you Tommy” “it won’t be as bad this time we can move back home it’s closer to filming. You’ll feel better being close to your friends again and back in the studio properly” “your right Tommy. I’m just a bit home sick, but promise me when your done with this film you will have a break” “I promise princess, I want to spend all my time with you” I was scared he was going to be like Michael jumping from one film set to another but I was so relieved he was on the same page as me. he kissed me gently on the lips and moved his hands over my body, I let out a groan against his mouth “you feel so good princess, I want you right now” I straddled him as the bubbles danced around us I put my hand under the water and felt his huge hard on, he gave me the biggest dirtiest grin “I want you to bounce on my d**k until you come princess” the filthy demand made me giggle and I continued to glide my hand up and down his manhood. I sat up just above his c**k and let it slowly slip inside me a little at a time, I felt like I had devoured the whole thing I started to move up and down my t**s where just at his eye level. He grabbed both my breasts and stroked my n*****s with his thumbs, “that’s it keep going princess, you know you love it” and he was right, it felt fantastic. I quickened my pace and threw my head back in pure exhilaration. He began licking each n****e at a time “Jesus princess that’s it, god your the best keep going” I was lost in his touch and the fullness of him inside me, “come for me princess” he turned me on so much his d**k was stroking my g spot. I couldn’t say anything back I was lost and breathless. “Come for me princess come on be a good girl” and with that I felt myself let go, I was pulsating around his huge c**k and I slumped on his chest. After a second or two I finally looked at him he was giving me that dirty grin again “I love it when you come you’re so sexy” I kissed him as I tried to catch my breath. “Do you know how much of a turn on you are with your t**s bouncing in the water, I can’t get enough of you princess” he picked me up without any effort and stood with his huge d**k still inside me he placed me on the window ledge and began to drive hard into me, the act alone made me scream with excitement “you love it when I call you a good girl don’t you?” I let out another little swirl of excitement “yes baby” I managed to say, he lifted both my legs by my ankles up over my head and spread my legs apart as he continued to f**k me at rapid pace, “what if I told you you were a bad girl, what if I told you dirty girl would you like that?” He asked, I just shook my head, he gave me a sexy smile “why not, you are a bad girl, look at you you love getting f****d hard I can feel how wet you are, your a dirty girl” “Tommy stop” “I’m sorry princess did I hurt your legs?” He kissed my face gently, “no it’s not that, don’t call me dirty again” I jumped down from the window ledge. And grabbed a towel. “I’m sorry, come here I didn’t mean it” “no piss off, don’t call me dirty again” he grabbed me into a hug and kissed my forehead. “I’m sorry I love you so much I didn’t mean it like that, I’ll never say that again” we stood cuddling each other for a few minutes in silence. He didn’t ask why I didn’t like that and I didn’t tell him why, but I had to ask myself why I couldn’t open up to the man I loved.

The next night was going to be our last night in the hotel, I was really pleased to be finally going home to my own bed but I was going to miss being in the city. Tommy and I decided to go down stairs to the hotel restaurant for our last meal and a few drinks before I had to pack up the last of our stuff. We shared a bottle of champagne, well actually he had one glass and I drank the rest of it. Then I had a few cocktails after dinner and Tommy ordered a large whiskey for himself. Harry came over and said he had to run a few errands but would be back soon. I said I would be fine to take his time, I always felt safe when I was with Tommy. Tommy and I sat across the table holding hands talking about the future. I was telling him about the plans I had for my solo album and he seemed pleased for me at first then he became quiet as I explained my plans to release it in Europe and then America. He had a sad look on his face and said “when do you think we will fit the wedding in amongst all this?” I noticed he was slurring his words. His eyes were blood shot but also full of concern, he looked hurt that I hadn’t mentioned the wedding. To tell you the truth it was the furthest thing from my mind. I decided to swerve the subject he looked a little drunk and I didn’t want to argue with him if he had a lot to drink. “We can think about that nearer the time baby” I said with a huge smile I rubbed his forearm and he gave me a dirty grin. “You’re so sexy princess” he said, the two women at the next table shot me a dirty look. Tommy obviously didn’t know how loud he was being. He rubbed his forehead “I’m bloody drunk princess I better get up to bed” I let out a little chuckle, it wasn’t like him to be drunk, and he hadn’t had any where near as much to drink as me and I was fine “you sound a bit pissed” I laughed, we got up and headed to the elevator just in time to see Harry arrive back through the front entrance of the hotel. I had to put my arm around Tommy to steady him on his feet. “My god Tommy you are drunk, and you weigh a ton” Harry rushed towards us and stepped into the elevator after us and hit the floor number “ when I get you up stairs you you’re in for the night of your life princess” he slurred into my ear. He thought he was whispering but Harry turned around and gave him a funny look. I playfully slapped his arm, “shut up your going straight to bed you light weight” he was drunkenly swaying beside me “yeah I’m taking you straight to bed” he said trying to be sexy but in his drunken state he could only open one eye. Harry helped me through our hotel suite door and through to the bedroom, we both lay Tommy on the bed, he grabbed me on top of him, I let out a giggle “Tommy stop it go to sleep” I stood up and took off his shoes “thanks for helping me Harry” I said. Harry had a worried look on his face “are you going to be alright being alone with him?” He asked, I knew he was just being protective because of what happened with Stefan, but Tommy was nothing like him. “of course I’ll be ok, you’ve got nothing to worry about Harry. He’s just had too much to drink” Harry left but I could tell he wasn’t happy. Tommy was smiling as and he kept trying to grab me. I just shock my head, as if he was going to get lucky in his state. I took off my dress and put on my pjs “your so sexy come here” he said trying to sit up “no baby go to sleep, you will feel better in the morning” he was quiet for a few minutes and I thought he had drifted off so I started to pack some of his gym gear into a bag at the bottom of the bed then I heard his voice ring out “ why are you packing princess are you leaving me?” He sounded panicked, when I looked at him his eyes where wide with terror. “don’t be silly, we’re going home remember” I said but he tried to get up “no your leaving me” he said again, I felt awful that he was so insecure in our relationship. Why would he ever think I would leave him. I stoped what I was doing and went over to him, I sat next to him on the bed and stroked his face. “I’m not leaving you I love you, Im packing our stuff to go home to our house remember? I would never leave you baby” I kissed him softly on the lips. He looked so sad, I felt dreadful that he thought I could leave him. The memories of his mum leaving him at a young age must have haunted him. Then he said “you’re leaving me to go and be with Fran, aren’t you” I could feel myself getting annoyed but I didn’t want to argue with him in his drunken state. “Of course not, I love you” he smiled “I love you princess” he said as if he was fighting sleep, “shut your eyes baby” I said gently. “You should be with Fran if that’s what you want and stop leading me on, pretending you want to marry me when your packing to run away I ain’t stupid I can see your packing to leave me again” I stood up and walked over to his suit case and turned it to show him “look I’m packing your stuff for us to go home” he shook his head “if it’s not him you’re leaving me for it must be the big man” I was starting to lose my patience with him. “Why would I leave you for anyone I love you Tommy” I was so frustrated with him but this must be what he worry’s about every day it’s just took for him to be drunk to admit it to me. “They fight over you and you love it” he said with an aggressive tone. “How can you think that?” I snapped. I was hurt that he thought I was the type of girl that would want two guys fighting over her, didn’t he know me at all? He shrugged his shoulders and wouldn’t answer me, “I asked you how can you think that I would want guys fighting over me when I’m engaged to you?” He shrugged his shoulders again “answer me Tommy” “because you love it, you love playing them off each other. Sometimes I think you’re just with me to piss them off” he was beginning to sound just like Stefan. This was something that Stefan had accused me of and I had told Tommy in confidence and now he was throwing Stefan’s words in my face. I didn’t have the energy to defend myself any longer, the big man and I hadn’t spoke in weeks and Fran was in another country with the only way of contacting him was an email address and I was still being accused of being with them by yet another fiancée. “Go to sleep Tommy, you’re drunk. And you’re going to say something you will regret” “I don’t want to lose you princess” he almost whispered as he drifted off to sleep. I stood with my hands clenched at my sides I decided there and then that as soon as he woke up the next day I was going to tell him everything he had said and ask for an explanation, I refused to live with him if he was going to act just like Stefan, I had made that mistake before and it wasn’t going to happen again. I finished packing and slept in the living room on the sofa. I was so infuriated by what he had said I didn’t want to be anywhere near him. I woke up early and had a shower and got dressed. I text Harry to ask him to drive me to the little beauty salon that I knew opened early. I looked at Tommy sleeping he was out cold, I looked at his handsome face and although he had upset me I didn’t want him to wake up and see that I was gone. The way his mum left him had left lasting damage and although he was happy to hurt me I didn’t want to hurt him. I wrote a little note saying I would be back soon and that I loved him. I met Harry in the hotel lobby, “miss knight the hotel reception said that your check out is at 12 but the maid will need to gain access before then as they have an important guest checking in soon after 12. I said they could get in early and start cleaning the living room and kitchen area if that ok” if I had my way we would be checking out right now but I wasn’t ready to speak to Tommy yet. “yeah we should be out of their way by then” I said, “are you alright miss knight” he asked, I knew that I must have looked like death warmed up as I had hardly slept a wink, but I decided to shrug it off “Of course lets go” i said with a fake smile . I went to the beauty salon and had my nails done, I then decided to have a full body message, my back was in agony trying to get comfy in that tiny sofa all night. I then had my hair blow dried I was just trying to put off seeing Tommy until a little later, I didn’t want an argument but I couldn’t let him speak to me like that. I thought if I looked better I would feel better but by the time the girls in the salon had done their magic I felt worse. By the time I was done and got back to the hotel it was nearly 11.30am as I travelled up in the elevator with Harry I checked my phone and I had no missed calls or text messages from Tommy. He couldn’t still be sleeping I thought to myself, so he must have woken up noticed I wasn’t there and didn’t even bother to call. I felt so low that he hadn’t even bothered to contact me. When I got into the suite the maid trolly was already there. I made my way across the suit towards the bedroom and I stopped in my tracks as I noticed a maids outfit laying at the bedroom door. My heart sank, what the hell was going on. I gently opened the door and Tommy was laying face down on the bed and at his side there was a naked girl with long red hair sleeping. I felt like I was going to faint. My legs felt like jelly, I held onto the door handle to steady myself. How could this be happening, it felt like a bad dream. I stood staring at them for a few moments trying to take in exactly what I was seeing. The man I was going to marry, my Tommy in bed with some slut. Expect it wasn’t her fault it was my fault. I should never have trusted him, I should have listened to my friends, I was such an i***t. I went around to him and picked up the glass of water I had left out for him and threw it all over the pair of them. Tommy woke up with a fright “what the f**k are you doing princess?” he said “what the f**k am I doing!!!!” I screamed at him, he wiped the water off his face and he looked terrified . “I go out for a couple of hours and you shag a f*****g maid” I shouted. Harry came through to the bedroom and stoped at the door when he realised what was happening “what are talking about?” Asked Tommy then the girl stood up covered in a sheet he turned to look at her and got a fright as if he didn’t know she was still there. They must have fell asleep before she had the chance to sneak out. The girl started to cry “I’m sorry he said you two had split up” Tommy looked at her and shook his head “who the f**k is she?” he shouted, he looked genuinely confused but I had fallen for his bull-s**t before like the time he said he hurt his hand and the time he said he was unwell so I had to go to his hotel room, well he couldn’t act his way out of this one “that’s the maid you just banged you piece of s**t” the girl grabbed her cloths and ran out past Harry. “Honestly princess I’ve never seen her before in my life, the last thing I remember was you taking my shoes off last night” “I’ve just caught you red handed Tommy, the big man was right I should have stayed away from you” he stood up and tried to grab me “princess please I haven’t done anything wrong” i just laughed “you can’t lie your way out of this Tommy, I never want to see you again” Harry stood forward and said “miss knight I will take you home”. He grabbed my suit case beside the door and headed outside. Harry turned to Tommy “it was nice knowing you mate, but stay the f**k away from her” I was shocked because Harry was usually so formal, but I think he could see how devastated I was and I was glad he was there. We got into the elevator and I could hear Tommy shouting “Lydia don’t go I mean it we need to talk” but I didn’t have anything to say. Harry turned to me when the doors closed, he put his arms out for a cuddle and I hugged him for a moment “thanks Harry, I really needed that” he gave me a little smile “any time miss knight” I put on my dark sunglasss and went into my handbag and put on my red lipstick I needed my war paint, I couldn’t face the people in the hotel without it. When I stepped out of the elevator doors there was a young woman with a little girl “oh my god your Lydia Knight can I have a photo with you” Harry was about to tell her no, but I stepped forward and put on my fake smile “of course” i said but I was dying inside. I smiled as the woman took a photo of me and her little girl. The little girl looked up at me and said “I want to be just like you when I grow up” I didn’t have the heart to tell her that my life looked great but it was actually really s**t. When I got into the car Harry asked “where too miss knight?” I took a deep breath “London Harry and step on it” he let out a laugh “sure thing miss knight”