Fran left for Glasgow over a month ago. I spoke to him every day but I was still really worried about him. When I spoke to Chris about it he said I had to give him space. I kept threatening to fly over to surprise him but the big man talked me out of it. He was adamant that I shouldn’t go and although Fran sounded ok on the phone I kept thinking about his little face the night that he left, he looked devastated. I finally called his mum, she was over the moon to hear from me. “Speedy how are you doll?” “Hi auntie Lorraine, I’m good how are you feeling? How’s your leg” “a lot better now, Frankie been great looking after me. He even bought me a new house I’m moving to a bigger place I can’t wait” “he’s the best son isn’t he?” “Yeah he has been great I keep telling him to go back to work but he doesn’t want to leave me, I told him I’m fine I’ve stoped drinking but you know what he’s like” Fran hadn’t mentioned her drinking any time I spoke to him and I didn’t bring it up, I knew him too well to try and get anything out of him that he didn’t want to talk about” “I just wanted to know how you are Lorraine say hi to Fran for me” “thanks for calling speedy” and she hung up the phone without another word, that must be where Fran gets it from I thought to myself. Tommy and I were having a great time together and I was happy, we spent nearly every day together as his movie had finished and he was in negotiations for his next project. It was lovely to be in such a normal relationship. When I finished my phone call with Lorraine I went outside to the pool, Tommy was already swimming. It was a lovely day and Tommy looked hot in his swim shorts, his muscles were glistening in the sunshine. “Fancy a dip princess” he said with his cheeky grin. I jumped in beside him and he grabbed me and started to throw me around in the water we were both laughing. It really turned me on that he could throw me around without any effort. After a while he started kissing my neck as we bobbed around in the pool then he started to try and undo my bikini bottoms I slapped his hand away “stop it Tommy what if someone sees us” “there’s no one about princess“ he said in a husky voice that made between my legs tingle. His hands were all over my body as I gave into him. He slowly pushed me through the water towards the side of the pool, then he quickly pulled down his shorts. And untied my bikini bottoms and I took them off as he grabbed my thighs and wrapped my legs around his waist before I knew it he was ball deep inside me. The sensation was overwhelming I let out a scream of excitement he just laughed and kissed me. He slowly moved his hips over and over. His huge d**k was rubbing my g spot.His deliciously slow speed had me panting, but I wanted him fast and hard. “f**k me harder baby” he just smiled again but he ignored me and kissed down my jaw and along my collar bone. He was breathing heavily into my neck I still had my legs wrapped around him but he was still slowly grinding into me I was practically begging him to quicken his pace. I then started to push against him quickly but he stoped me by grabbing my inner thigh and spreading my legs under the water to keep me in position. He was still kissing my neck, and I couldn’t take anymore “faster baby stop teasing me, f**k me harder” I whispered into his ear he let out a grunt of passion, then I whispered “I’m going to come I want to come give it to me, give me it” when his whole body tensed up, and he tried to suppress a loud moan and he came inside me. “f*****g hell that was amazing princess, why did you tell me to come?” He said kissing my cheek “I didn’t” I snapped “I said I was going to come” he gave me an embarrassed look “sorry princess I didn’t hear you right you know what I’m like” he looked a bit upset, “don’t be silly that was fantastic” I said kissing him. “I just hope the CCTV cameras didn’t see that” and we both laughed and he kissed me.
Another month passed and Tommy and I were blissfully happy, he was basically living with me at my house. Carmela and Chris were totally stressed out with Waterfall she was refusing to sleep at all and they were exhausted. Fran was still in Glasgow looking after his mum. I spoke to him most days but it wasn’t the same, I missed him loads. But he was coming back to LA and I was really excited to see him. It was the big mans premier of the western movie he had made and we were all going together to support him. Tommy was coming with me. It was going to be our first red carpet as a couple. We had been photographed a few times so it was known that we were a together but this was the first time we would be making it official. I was terrified, the last time I had been in a relationship in front of the media it had ended terribly and I didn’t want the attention or the pressure again but I was just a normal person that wanted to go out with my boyfriend so I had to suck it up. I decided to wear a long blue dress it was specially made for me, so it fitted to my body and hugged me in all the right places, it showed a little cleavage and had a split right up to my thigh. I thought it would be nice if I wore the necklace that Fran had given me at the wedding because I haven’t seen him in so long and I wanted to show him that I was thinking of him, and because the colour matched perfectly to my new dress. When I was ready I went into my dressing room and into my safe where I kept my best jewellery and the box with the necklace in it was gone. I was searching for it but it wasn’t there, my heart sank. Fran would kill me if I had lost it. He was always going on about how careless I was. Then Tommy came in he was wearing a suit and looked hot as hell. “Princess you look beautiful” he said “I can’t wait to show you off” he looked proud as punch. “Every guy there are going to be green with envy that your mine” he said planting a kiss on my forehead “thanks Baby you look fantastic, in fact you look like Jason Spence from London Streets and you know how much a fancy him” he gave me a big smile “yeah loads of people say I look like him” but my mind was still on Frans grans necklace it had to be somewhere, “Tommy you haven’t seen a little black box lying around have you? It’s got a white gold and blue stone pendant in it I wanted to wear it tonight” he shook his head “no I haven’t seen it” I bit my lip trying to remember the last time I had seen it “oh s**t I hope I haven’t lost it” he grabbed me close “don’t worry it will turn up” he kissed my neck “we better hurry up princess the cars waiting” I could find it later we had to go and face the press and my stomach was in knots. When we arrived on the red carpet all hell broke lose. Fans were screaming and there was flashing lights from all the cameras. Tommy had his arm around my waist as we posed for photos. I went over to a few fans and signed a couple of autographs, one guy tried to grab my hand and pull me towards the crowd but Vinnie and Harry were there and stopped him. I walked back over to Tommy and he gently kissed me “Are you ok princess?” “yeah I just got a fright” he growled into the crowd “they are all mental about you, I don’t blame them you look beautiful” then I heard a loads of girls screaming. Then one shouted “OMG it’s Fran Kavangh” when I looked around Fran was stepping out of a limo. He was wearing a dark suit and dark sunglasses and he was smiling. He looked amazing, he was tanned and clean cut hair and shaved, he looked like himself again and I was relieved he was back. He walked past the photographers without stopping and straight towards me. “Alright gorgeous” he said with a huge smile. “Oh Francis I’m so glad to see you” we hugged each other and all the fans started cheering. “Let’s get inside Fran, a guy just tried to pull me into the crowd it’s a bit to wild out here” he nodded his head and then he went over to Tommy and shook his hand “alright mate we better get her inside before this lot jump the barricades” we went inside and Chris and Carmela were already there. The five of us went through to take our seats the big man and Stacey were no where in sight. The film started and the big mans name came up on the screen and I let out a cheer but no one else did and Fran and Chris started to laugh at how stupid I was. Tommy sat next to me holding my hand through the full film. Fran was sitting next to Tommy whispering when ever the big man was on the screen and they were laughing. I wanted to punch them for taking the piss out of him. The big mans first movie had won him awards, but I had to admit that I had never watched it. Mostly because when it came out I had just split up with Tommy and couldn’t face watching him in it. now watching the big man on the screen I could see why it had been such a big hit, he was amazing. Not only because he is so good looking but he is also a good actor, who knew? When the film ended Carmela was crying, “Are you alright Carm” said Fran “yeah that was amazing” and she was right. But I could tell there was more to it. We went to the after party and the big man still wasn’t there. “Where the hell is he?” I asked Chris “he had a huge fight with Stacey and that’s why he missed it but they are on their way now” “Jesus, all they do is fight” said Tommy. Since Staceys party she had moved in with me twice, but they always patched it up. Chris looked angry “this ones too far mate, they need to call it a day, I mean to miss your own premier, it’s crazy he can’t go on like this” “stay out of it Chris it’s none of our business” said Carmela, he just ignored her and turned to me “I know it’s none of our business but I would want you to have a word with me if I wasn’t happy, he’s f*****g miserable” Chris and Carmela were being really cold to each other, I wondered what was wrong. Then the big man and Stacey walked in holding hands, “see they are fine” I said trying to break the uncomfortable silence “he’s not fine, I know him Gorgeous” the big man stopped to speak to a few of the actors from the movie and Stacey came straight over to us “hi guys” she said, I could tell she had been crying, “let’s hit the bar girls I need a drink” Carmela and I just looked at each other. We were worried about her, she wasn’t herself lately, the relationship was taking a toll on both of them. The three of us sank a few cocktails when the boys came over, the big man gave me a huge hug “what did you think of the film gorgeous?” He asked “you were amazing, I’m so proud of you” then Chris said “Gorgeous screamed at the beginning when your name came up” Fran rolled his eyes and said “everybody in the place must have thought she was a nutter” they all laughed “shut up! I was just excited” the big man gave me a huge smile, “at least I’ve got one fan” he said shooting Stacey a dirty look. After a while we all had a few drinks and were having a laugh. I was standing next to Tommy he had his hand around my waist, and I felt protected. After that guy had tried to grab me earlier I was still a little shaken. Then I heard the big man say “there he is, alright mate I’m glad you could make it” when I looked into the crowd to see who he was talking too I was shocked to see it was Michael, my Michael. I felt like I was about to faint. I had no idea he was going to be there, he came over and shook the big mans hand and Stacey screeched “oh my god Mick, how are you?” She nearly jumped onto him, “Stacey how are you? How’s your tooth? did you get to the dentist?” I took it from their conversation that they were still in contact and I wondered what she had been telling him. Stacey was still rabbiting on as he shook Chris and Frans hands, and introduced himself to Carmela, “Carmela, Hi I’m Mick, I’ve met your sister April before she’s a lovely girl” he looked good, I was actually weak in the knees. Then he turned to me “there she is my little sweetheart, you look absolutely beautiful” he kissed me on the cheek. I could smell his aftershave and feel his skin next to mine and I felt like I was going to pass out. But I had to snap myself out of it, I could feel Tommy straighten his stance beside me and I could practically hear his teeth grinding, then Michael put out his hand “hi you must be Tommy I’m Mick” they shook hands but I could tell Tommy wasn’t happy. But Mick was smiling back at him in that confident and charming way he did with everyone. “Tommy this is my date for tonight” my stomach sank, I didn’t want to look around and see some supermodel. Then out of no where I heard a voice screech behind us. “Lydia knight as I live and breath” when I looked around it was James, Michaels twin brother. I hadn’t seen him in years. We had been good friends when Michael and I were together, he used to take me to gay clubs and drag shows which I loved. He ran over and hugged me “I’ve missed you sweetheart” he said, although they were twins they looked nothing alike, they had the same build but nothing other than that “isn’t she a vision Mick? couldn’t you just take her home with you? if I was straight I would make an honest woman of you” everyone laughed Michael put his hand on his shoulder as if to calm him down then I said “James if you were straight I would leave teeth marks on you, you are just gorgeous” I said and he let out another screech. “Jesus James stop doing that you’ve been doing it all the way here, even on the plane” Michael did a high pitched screech “look Mick a cloud” screech “honestly could you be any more gay?” James rolled his eyes dramatically “Well could you be any more gay in that tie?” Michael looked down and said in a sad voice “you bought me this tie, don’t you like it?” we all laughed they were like a double act, “of course I do, you look very handsome” then he turned to me and pulled a face, then looked at Tommy. “Your Jason Spence, look Mick it’s Jason Spence, oh you are my favorite in London Streets” Tommy was laughing as he shook James by the hand “yes that’s Lydia’s boyfriend” said Michael not taking his eyes off me with a fake smile plastered on his face. I could see the look of excitement slip from James face, and turn to total boy b***h mode “aren’t you a lucky boy” he said sarcastically. “I never thought i’d see the day Lydia would date a television actor” Tommy gave me a side ways glance “whys that mate?” he asked, “actually James, Tommy is in a couple of films now” said Michael. He had obviously been looking into Tommy. I looked at Fran with a look that I wanted him to save me, he just shook his head and smiled “fancy a smoke gorgeous?” He asked and I could have kissed him. “Yeah, let’s go outside” when we got out Fran was laughing “well that was awkward” was all he could say through the giggles. “shut up Fran, is my face red?” “yeah” and he carried on giggling, “I thought James was going to b***h slap Tommy” “shut up Fran, this is serious, Tommys funny about ex boyfriends ever since his last girlfriend cheated on him with her ex” he started to calm down a bit. “Ok I’ll stop laughing” he said clearing his throat. “What if he gets all jealous? I can’t handle s**t like that, not since Stefan” his face was serious, “Stefan was a little b***h that hit girls because he wasn’t man enough to confront men when he was jealous, instead he took it out on you. Tommy’s nothing like that, and if he is, you come straight to me you understand.” He kissed my hand, “I’m glad your home Fran I’ve missed you” he look embarrassed, he put out his cigarette and said “now let’s get back in there and see if James has slapped Tommy yet.” When we went back through Stacey was going on and on talking the ear off Michael, all I could hear was him saying “what are you like Stacey, you and your decorating” he gave me a wink. Tommy and Chris were chatting beside them to James. When Fran realized everyone was getting on well he went to the bar in a huff, I think he wanted to see James b***h slap Tommy. “there she is” said Michael, “you look beautiful in that dress” he said dragging his eyes up and down my body. I felt my face turn red. My eyes darted to Tommy, I was waiting for a reaction from him but he just smiled at him and said “yeah she looks amazing” I was impressed with how laid back he was being. Then James interrupted my thoughts “let’s dance Lydia, let’s show these straight people how it’s done” he shook his hips and I laughed “I’m straight James” “yeah but your basically a gay man trapped in a straight woman’s body, you don’t mind do you Tommy?” Tommy was smiling and seemed in a good mood, I relaxed as he said “of course not, just make sure you give her back” I was so happy that he was ok with Michael being there. When James and I got onto the dance floor it was a slow song he held me close “Lydia you are so lovely, I’ve missed you” he said with an over the top petted lip “I’ve missed you too James, how long are you going to be in LA, we should meet up when your free” this was my way of finding out how long Michael was going to be around. “We’re only here until tomorrow for a meeting for Mick with some studio executive, then we are heading to Texas, he’s starting a new movie” “he works too hard you should tell him to slow down” “he has to keep busy to keep his mind off you” “don’t say that James” “my brother is miserable without you, he’s in love with you, it can’t be easy for him seeing you with your boyfriend tonight” I didn’t know what to say, even though I was with Tommy I would have died if Michael would have turned up with a girl. “I’m sorry if I’ve upset you Lydia but he’s a handsome guy and as soon as he stops working this hard and slows down a bit, some b***h is going to catch him and you will have missed your chance” his words hung in the air. He was right, but I was happy with Tommy and I couldn’t let the possibility of maybe being with Michael ruin a happy relationship with Tommy “thanks for the dance handsome I’m going to the ladies” “just think about it Lydia, he won’t wait around forever and it’s not fair to ask him to wait” I gave him a weak smile, “ he had the chance to come to LA with me before Christmas and he said no, for yet another movie. If he wanted to be with me he could have. It’s not fair to ask me to wait around for him. I’m going to touch up my make up see you soon” I rushed through to the bathroom and I took a few deep breaths to calm myself. This night was not what I thought it was going to be. As I came out the bathroom Michael was waiting for me. He was leaning against the wall we just smiled at each other and I walked over to him. “Are you ok sweetheart? the big man invited me he said he told you I would be here, but by the look on your face I could tell you were shocked” “yeah I didn’t know you would be here, but it’s good to see you and James” “what did my brother say to you, you look like you’ve seen a ghost?” “Nothing I didn’t already know” “he went from fancying your boyfriend to wanting to kill him in one second” “I take it Stacey told you about Tommy?” “Yeah she did, but don’t be angry with her. I think it was her way of telling me to back off and stop sending you flowers and stuff” in that moment I was thankful of their weird friendship, after all she was just looking out for me. “I’m not going to lie it’s not easy seeing you two together. I mean what do you see in him?” “He’s nice” “he’s baldy” “he’s not baldy” I snapped “well he doesn’t have any hair sweetheart that means he’s bald” then he gave me his devilish grin “are you bald sweetheart?” I could feel my face turning red, if any other man on the planet asked about my pubic hair or lack of I would slap them but he was something else. He moved closer to me “I love your bald little p***y on my face, you like that don’t you sweetheart, I know exactly what you like” “don’t say that Michael it’s not fair” he was whispering as people walked by “does he go down on you? Does he make you feel the way I do?” “Michael piss off” he stood up straight and said with a smile “it was worth a try, but I know your a good girl” the mix of his aftershave and his sexy Irish accent had really turned my head but then I thought about Tommy and how happy he made me. “You said in New York that you loved me” “I meant every word sweetheart” “if you loved me that much you would know better than to follow me to the bathroom and talk to me like I was a little slut that would sleep with you at the drop of a hat” “I don’t think that at all, and I do love you, please don’t forget that sweetheart, just please don’t get serious with baldy” I let out a laugh I didn’t mean to but I had to hand it to him he was funny. “Michael you always make me laugh even when I supposed to be angry with you” “come here give me a cuddle, I’m going back to the hotel before James starts coming on to the waiters” I gave him a hug, it was warm and familiar he kissed my cheek. “I hope baldy releases how lucky he is” he’s tuned my cheek and gently kissed me on the lips I gave him a weak smile and he walked away. I stood against the wall for a few minutes trying to process all that had happened when I looked up Tommy was standing, “you alright Princess?” And he had snapped me out of my Michael trance. Michael was an illusion but Tommy was real and standing in front of me, “come on princess, let’s go home I want you out of that dress and on all fours in our bed” he said with his boyish sexy grin. I loved that he said our bed.