I threw the bag with Carmela’s Vail into the bottom of my wardrobe and opened all the windows to air the place out. Then I quickly went over to the honeymoon suite. April was standing with her head down and her mum was shouting at her. "What's going on" I asked and Carmela looked a little upset "April has lost my veil" oh no I couldn't let her take the blame. "No it's not Aprils fault" "it doesn't matter, I'm getting married"
We went down stairs and Waterfall was asleep. I wanted to wake her and tell her that her mummy and daddy were getting married. Then the bagpipes started, Carmela took her mums arm at one side and Aprils arm at the other. The doors flew open and Stacey went first, she slowly walked up the aisle as if it was her wedding day. Then it was my turn and everyone turned to face me and I felt totally uncomfortable. I had performed in front of thousands of fans but this room full of people seemed overwhelming. I got to the alter and Chris looked the happiest I've ever seen him. He was beaming with pride. I gave Fran a big smile. He looked so handsome. Then I looked at the big man, he was gorgeous and he just gave me a sexy wink and seductively looked me up and down. I just shock my head because even with everyone watching he was always a flirt and Fran elbowed him in the ribs. Stacey didn't look happy either, they had split up again after he got home from the stag do a couple of weeks before with loads of girls phone numbers in his phone and probably Chlamydia. Then Carmela and her mum and April walked down the aisle. She was beautiful and she was pushing little waterfall in her pram. As the ceremony began I couldn't take my eyes off Carmela and Chris, they were perfect for each other I wondered if I would ever find that kind of love. I started to look around the room there was so many familiar faces. Lots of people from Glasgow that I hadn't my seen in years, some friends from London. I was glad Michael couldn't make it. I missed him alot but it wasn’t the right time for us. I had told him that night in New York was special but I couldn’t hang around in case I bumped into him again. But he kept sending me flowers. Although it was a fantastic night I wasn't ready for a relationship I was actually really happy on my own. Then I spotted Frans mum Lorraine. I gave her a little wave. Lorraine and Fran were starting to get on better lately but she was clearly still drinking. She looked half pissed already. Fran would definitely have something to say about that. Poor Fran. I looked around the rows of people and spotted Tommy. My ex Thomas Taylor. What the f**k was he doing here? I had been thinking about him a lot recently because my favourite programme London Streets had started playing on BBC America and I had been watching all the old episodes. And here he was, but he wasn't looking at me thank god. I had forgot how huge he was. Images of him f*****g me wildly entered my mind. I took a deep breath and turned my attention back to the ceremony just in time to hear "you may kiss the bride" they tenderly kissed each other and it was so sweet. Everyone in the place stood up and clapped and cheered. I turned to Stacey and we hugged each other and then I turned to April and she hugged me, picked me up off my feet then shook Stacey's hand. I looked at Fran and he was pissing himself laughing. The wedding was lovely then it was the boring part. I said I wouldn't drink so I could help look after Waterfall and because Chris had asked all three of us if we wouldn't drink to support him as he was really feeling the pressure of staying sober. We had the photos outside then it was time for the speeches, we all sat at the top table. Fran and I had to sit between Stacey and the big man. Fran stood up and said the most heartwarming tribute to the happy couple. Some people were crying because it was so moving. Then the big man stood up and told a few drunken stories about Chris and a few dirty jokes. We ate dinner and discussed who would dance with who for the first dance. Fran wasn't happy he had to dance with Stacey, she wanted to kill the big man, so it was better to keep them apart. Even though he was acting as if she wasn't even there. Then Fran asked April "who are you going to dance with?" "I was thinking I could maybe dance with Lydia if that's alright with her" "hey that's not fair, no offense April but I’m one of the best men and I want to dance with a bridesmaid and shes top of my list" said the big man. "April I would love to dance with you" I said she looked rather pleased. "What am I supposed to do? I'm the best man?" You can dance with the flower girl if she ever wakes up or Carmela's mum" he screwed his face up and sat back in his chair with a pout. It was time for the first dance, we all went onto the dance floor as Frank Sinatra the way you look tonight played, Fran was laughing and pulling faces behind April as she grabbed my hand before the big man could. The big man wasn't happy as he had to dance with Carmela's mum. He politely smiled at her but I could tell he was livid. Fran and Stacey were dancing together and he had his face screwed up as she was going on about something into his ear. Fran really didn't like Stacey. He had never came out and said it, but it was obvious. Every time anyone mentioned her name he made a face. I can only imagine that she was talking about the big man because she was shooting him daggers the entire time. Chris and Carmela were looking into each other's eyes as they danced, they looked so in love. And here I was single, in an ugly dress and dancing with a girl. April was a lot taller than me even in my heels, she was looking at me with a huge smile on her face. She looked like she wanted to tell me something "your a good dancer April" I said "thanks Lydia" "I wish Carmela would have let me wear a suit, you look great" her face burned red. "April I need to speak to you about.." she immediately interrupted me "Carmela's veil...I seen it in your handbag, did you damage it" she asked with a smile "yes...well Waterfall actually damaged it" she let out a laugh "yeah yeah blame the baby" I was confused "Why didn't you tell your mum that I had the vail?" "Because I didn't want her to shout at you" "thank you. But I don't want you to take blame, so I will go over right now and tell her what happened" when I turned to find her Carmela's mum was practically melting in the big mans arms. She was fanning her face and batting her eyelashes as he was whispering into her ear. Jesus that boy didn't know when to stop. I wondered what he said to these woman that made them go weak in the knees. The song ended and I was pleased I hated all these people staring at me. A few songs later I was standing with Frans Mum and she was drunk. Which wasn’t unusual. I was trying my best to get her up stairs to her room before he noticed because I didn't want it to ruin his night. I gave her a glass of water and we stood away from everyone next to the open window. Just then someone taped my shoulder. It was Tommy "alright Princess" he said with a smile. He looked me up and down "you look amazing" he was the same old handsome Tommy. Stubble, shaved head and a filthy grin. "Thanks Tommy you look great" I suddenly felt shy. I could picture all the dirty things that we had done together and I could feel myself getting hot. "this is my auntie Lorraine, Frans mum, this is Tommy he’s Frans mate from London” “Oh hello son, my god your a big boy, look at those big muscles" she said squeezing his arm he gave me a smile. "Your friendly ain't ya?” he said looking at me with his cheeky grin "are you a cockney son?" "Yeah why?" "That is such a sexy accent don't you think speedy?” “Yeah”I said with a laugh "why do you call her speedy?" "Because when Lydia was young she used to run everywhere. Every time you seen her she was running somewhere" "that's really sweet, where's your mum Princess?" He asked looking around "oh god she's not here is she?" Asked Lorraine in a panic "no don't worry she's not here, my dad hurt his back remember? he can't fly" "oh yes thank god shes not here. But speedy's dad is a saint" she was right "yeah he's the best dad" Tommy smiled "I can just picture little Speedy running around, you’re adorable princess" I hadn’t seen him in just over a year but it felt like no time had passed at all, he was the exact same Tommy and I had missed him. "Doesn't Lydia look lovely" he said to Lorraine "Speedy always looks lovely I can't wait to see you on your wedding day darling, when you finally marry my son" she said proudly. I had been hearing this since I was a kid and it was boring. Tommy’s smile turned into a firm straight line and his eyebrows were down which only happened when he was angry. "I'm already married to your son" I said. Why did I say that? Tommy didn't look at all pleased and Lorraine was grinning like a Cheshire Cat "Oh that's right Speedy I forgot about that,look Tommy Lydia is wearing my mothers pendant. My mum left it to Fran and he gave it to Lydia that's true love" Tommy looked at the pendant then back up to meet my eyes and gave me a fake smile "it's lovely" he said through gritted teeth. I had wore the diamond pendent that he had bought me in Vegas every day but I took it off as soon as we had split up. He looked away from me and looked around the ballroom and I could tell he wasn’t happy so I tried to change the subject, Lorraine was swaying from side to side "Lorraine have a wee seat your feet must be killing you" she hiccuped and looked around the room and said "actually I'm going to pop to the ladies" this was my way to get away from Tommy "I'll come with you" I felt Tommy watching us as I took her by the arm out of the reception. I managed to get Lorraine out of the bathroom and back into the wedding without Fran noticing. I sat her down beside Stacey and told her to look after her. Stacey rolled her eyes. I was making my way over to check on Waterfall in her pram when I noticed Fran was speaking to Tommy and he called me over. "Hi" I said sheepishly, Fran was grinning he was actually enjoying watching me squirm. But Tommy didn't care. Why was I worried? He didn't love me anymore so he wouldn’t care about anything I do. "So princess why were you left to dance with the lesbian bridesmaid?" Fran let out a laugh "her names April" I said to Tommy ignoring Fran laughing at me "I could either dance with the big man or her and I choose her" they both laughed "she likes you gorgeous" said Fran. I just rolled my eyes, "as if she could get a bird like you" said Tommy. A young girl that worked for the hotel stood by the three of us as she collected some glasses. She let out a yelp, and older waiter came over to help her and he made a comment too and they were both giggling like a pair of school girls. I looked around to see what they were giggling about, "is everything ok?” asked Fran and the young girl pointed to the dance floor. It was the big man and he was dancing with little waterfall. He was holding her up and she was laughing and it was the cutest thing I had ever seen in my life. "OH MY GOD" was all I could say "what?” Asked Fran with a confused look on his face, the waiter grabbed onto the seat next to me and the waitress said "I think I'm going to faint, he's so hot" I couldn't keep my eyes off him because he was so sweet cradling her and waterfall had her tiny hand around his huge finger. He was so handsome and he looked protective over her. The young girl was drooling by this time and she said "he's amazing" as she clutched her chest “whats going on?” asked Tommy, when we looked around the room loads of woman of all ages were mesmerized watching the big man slowly sway to the music as if no one else was there. Carmela's mum was standing next to him on the dance floor like she was about to pounce on him."It's the big man" I explained "When a hot guy carries a cute baby it turns woman on, oh my god I think my biological clock just started ticking" I said rubbing my stomach, Tommy let out a huge laugh. "What so you fancy the big man?" asked Fran and he looked pissed off "no, it's just a thing that happens, it's like when you see a hot girl in sexy undies" they both looked at each other like they knew what I was saying. The waiter interrupted us "as if you don't fancy him. Look at him" I shook my head "no I can't see it honestly. Obviously right now I want to dry ride him into next week but I don't think I could actually throw the dog a bone" the waiter thought it was the funniest thing he had ever heard "what about you? I bet you could would” I asked "your not kidding darling" He looked at the big man and licked his lips. A few minutes later Lorraine came over to the three of us, Tommy looked embarrassed because she kept winking at him. She stopped in front of Fran "there he his my, special wee boy" she grabbed Frans face and I let out a laugh "wee Frankie " I said and made kissing noises. I could tell he was suppressing a smile. "Mum piss off" he said and pushed her hand away. She looked at him as if he was her whole world, I knew she loved him and that she just had a messed up start in life. She hadn’t always been the best Mum but now they were getting on better I had seen a huge change in Fran. He wasn’t walking around as if he had the whole world on his shoulders. I was loving this new Fran, he was a lot more fun. Lorraine interrupted my thoughts “Speedy did you see big Jamie with Chris's little girl" she let out a huge over the top sigh "yes I did, wow" I let out a giggle "I nearly asked him to buy me a drink" Tommy and I both laughed but Fran looked disgusted with his Mum. "Anyway, I wonder who he did that for" I said looking around the guests trying to spot his next victim “what do you mean" asked Lorraine "I mean that is for someone's benefit. He's after someone and he's putting the moves in them” “What he's got actual moves” asked Tommy. Fran and I looked at each other and laughed. Usually woman threw themselves at the big man but every now and then he would meet some model or pop star that had heard of his reputation and would fight his advances. Then he would use his moves on them. Fran and I had seen it in action a million times. "He’s trying to lure the poor girl in. Then he asks them to dance so he can rub up against them. Then he whispers dirty stuff in their ear, and I mean really dirty stuff. Then he try's to get them on their own, and that's when he try's it on. Same old moves every time" "how do you know about these moves?" Asked Tommy "because he tries them on me all the time. in fact here he comes now. “I wonder who it could be that he’s trying to get with” Fran said with a sarcastic tone. The big man swaggered over to us and took my hand "fancy a dance gorgeous and then after will you come up stairs with me so we can decorate the honeymoon suite for them as a surprise” Fran shot him a dirty look, I shrugged my shoulders "see I told you same old moves every time" "you better not be putting any moves on her big man" said Fran. The big man put his arm around my waist "I'm always putting the moves on her mate" he dragged me onto the dance floor and it was a slow song. "You look like you needed to be saved gorgeous. Standing with your ex boyfriend and A drunk Lorraine isn't my idea of a good night I hope you don't mind me dragging you away" he said dipping me back and I felt bad because I had just been saying how much of a ladies man he was when actually he was doing me a favor. "Let me guess what they were saying 'when are you going to marry my son' he said in a high pitched drunk voice. "And did Tommy say 'you look beautiful Princess" he said in a cockney accent. "How did you know?" "This wedding is totally boring gorgeous I know we said we wouldn't drink but the nanny has took Waterfall up stairs for the night and I don't think Chris will notice, lets get pissed" I shook my head “no big man we promised" he smiled and said “ok your right I love that your such a good girl" the mix of watching him with waterfall and him in his suit and now he was saying I was a good girl, I was actually a little turned on. Stacey pushed her way through the dance floor like a raging bull "hi Lydia, hi dickhead, just to let you know we have put some rose petals and champagne in the honeymoon suite" he didn’t look happy, this was the first time they had spoke all day “I was supposed to do that, Lydia was going to help me" his eyebrows were down and he didn’t looked mad, the last thing I wanted was for those two to kick off in the middle of the dance floor then Stacey snapped at him "well you can't be trusted to do anything right, in fact you just can't be trusted" and she stormed away. I shook my head “what is going on with you two? This has been going on for a while now. you guys would usually be back together by now" he shrugged his shoulders "she wants us to get back together but I just don't want her" I was surprised he was being so honest “Why were you with her to start with?" He looked totally deflated “It's a long story gorgeous, fancy a few cheeky shots?" I felt bad for him “Yeah let's do it" I said and he dragged me over to the bar.
The rest of the night went by pretty fast because The big man and I were on the dance floor the whole night. Stacey ended up drunk and sitting on Chris cousins knee and kissing him in front of everyone. Her lipstick was all over his face. I knew she would live to regret it the next day. Not only would she feel embarrassed in front of Chris and Carmela's family but I knew how much she loved the big man, and wouldn't want to do anything to make him totally want to end things with her. However The big man thought her drunkenly kissing Chris's cousin in front of everyone was hilarious. Tommy and Fran stood at the bar or out on the balcony smoking all night. It was nice to see them being friends again. After Tommy and I split up Fran had distanced himself from Tommy, which was sweet that he was loyal to me but they had been friends for a long time before I came along. Carmela threw the bouquet and all the woman surrounded her but I wasn't interested. Then Chris lifted her up and took her up the grand stair case as everyone cheered. They were so happy and I had a little pang of jealousy. The party was still going on when Fran came over "I need to take my mum up to bed gorgeous, she's just been sick outside in front of Carmela's friends I'm going to kill her" he was really angry. "That's a shame Fran, just try and calm down, its not worth arguing with her about it" his jaw was clenched I thought he was going to start shouting at me “it's the story of her life gorgeous" he looked exhausted "see you in the morning” he said and gave me a kiss on the cheek “I'm heading up soon too honey, night night" I hadn't touched dinner because I was so nervous about getting caught with Carmela’s veil and now I was starving. I decided to go up to my room and order some room service in bed. I finished my drink and said good night to Chris’s mum and dad. As I walked out into the hallway Tommy walked up behind me. "Where are you sneaking off to princess" "I'm tired and starving I'm going up stairs to order room service" "come on stay for a while, I wanted to speak to you" "why what about" I asked “I wanted to say sorry for how things ended with us. It was a bit s**t me asking if you slept with your ex, I see that now. But at the time I was angry. Anyway I'm sorry" "it's ok I was so angry with you at the time that's why I acted like a b***h. But I would love it if we could be friends" "yeah that would be great princess. Because I'm living in LA now. It would be great to see you when we get back" "yeah why don't we all go out to dinner" "yeah ok" "I better get up to bed honey it was nice to see you" He gave me a kiss on the cheek. He smelled incredible, it felt familiar and safe in his arms. "See you at breakfast honey. Night night" I said and quickly went upstairs. I got to my room and I was glad for the piece and quiet. I called down for room service and the kitchen was closed so I decided to raid the mini bar. They had the loveliest little strawberries covered in hard candy and they were Devine. I put on my pjs and lay on the bed with a large vodka and finished off the strawberries. I was gutted when I had finished them and I was desperate for some more but I didn't want to wake Fran, he was in a bad enough mood and I had a sneaky suspicion that Stacey would be in Chris's cousins room with him. I decided to knock on the big mans door to see in I could steal the ones in his fridge. I grabbed my key and and headed next door. I gently knocked on the door and he opened it in just his tight boxers. "Hiya gorgeous" "hi honey I don't want to bother you if your here with someone but can I steal the strawberries from your minibar. They are amazing and I've ate all mines" "im not here with anyone gorgeous come in" "what? I expected you to have some girl tied to your bed" "don't be daft, I came up here for room service but the kitchens closed" "me too I'm starving" "fancy a drink too" "yeah go on I'll have a vodka" he opened four small bottles and poured two into each glass and we sat on the bed eating chocolate from the fridge. "You looked beautiful today gorgeous" "thanks so did you" he let out a chuckle "I can't believe he's married, it's mental" he said "I know we are so grown up. It will be you and Stacey next" "no it won't, she's a nightmare" he constantly said he didn't like her and down played their relationship it was strange. "What about Tommy?" "What about him?" "He was nervous as f**k about seeing you today, I think he was scared you told him to f**k off" "I feel terrible if he was nervous it's probably because I was such a b***h when we stopped seeing each other. But I was all bruised and battered and he was asking me if I had shagged Stefan and if that was why he was in my flat that night. I didn't take kindly to being basically called a slag so I dumped him and told him I thought he was a prick" "no wonder he was shitting himself today" "you know what I'm like big man. I couldn't get up and run away from him so I could calm down, so I just snapped. It was a bit cold the way I did it" "he's a big boy and anyway who accuses someone of cheating when they are lied up with a black eye and broken ribs. Your too good for him" "thanks honey. I told him tonight it would be good if we could all be friends now we have cleared the air" "ohhhh he won't be happy about that. He gave me the impression that he wanted to start things up with you again" "what? Why? What did he say?" "Well at the stag do he was asking loads of questions about you. Asking if you were dating anybody. He Wanted to know where you live in LA and if you ever Asked about him. Stuff like that. Then last night he arrived at the hotel late I met him in the bar, he wanted your room number. I told him to f**k off" "thanks honey I would have died if he would have showed up" "I told him to calm down play it cool but he was desperate to see you, he said he wanted you back and that he would do anything to try and win you over. Then I told him you might not be too happy about seeing him considering that you two had split up a year ago and you never told me why or even mentioned him since and it was probably because you hated him" "big man tell me you didn't say that" "yes I said that, I know you and if your not happy with someone you just run away and they are the last person you want to speak to" "that is true but I'm not angry with him anymore and I don't hate him he is a nice guy and we had a great time when we were together it just didn't work out" "well he was nervous as hell tonight, he kept going over to speak to you then walking away again. Me and Fran were watching him from the top table, we were killing our selves laughing" "that's a shame big man. I want you guys to be friends with him again and I do enjoy his company. As a friend obviously" "I told you when you first started seeing him you need to keep an eye on that one. He likes the chase, then once he gets the bird that's played hard to get he doesn't want her anymore. I've seen him doing it loads." "let's forget about him. What do you make of Stacey with Chris's little cousin" "she's an i***t gorgeous" "she's hurt and trying to make you jealous, I feel bad for her" He shook his head “don't feel bad for her. she's not a nice person" "don't say that.. Big man can I ask you why did you start seeing her to begin with if you don't like her this much" "I first met her when I started therapy. I tried to go cold turkey no s*x do you remember, but it was murder. Then I started just having s*x with her because she lived upstairs with you and I'll be honest it was convenient and easy. I wouldn't call her for a week after then she would sleep with me again no questions asked. It meant I wasn't out shagging about any more" "did you start to have feelings for her?" He screwed up his face "no.