Fran called me on the Saturday to see how the new songs were coming along but my head was in the clouds because I had spent the whole day thinking about Tommy and writing soppy lyrics about love. Even I was starting to feel a bit sick at how lovey dovey they were. Fran kept asking questions about Tommy and was surprised to hear the big man and Stacey were away. "So the big man has left you on your own? With no one looking after you?" He said and I couldn’t help but miss him even though he could be a little controlling “Stop being overprotective Francis, I'm fine I have loads of security and Chris is home today so they are coming over later with the baby" he seemed to calm down "ok call me later" was all he said and he hung up. He could be so bossy sometimes. Chris Carmela and Waterfall came over for dinner the three of them had a lovely time in Canada for their honeymoon but I got the impression they couldn't wait to get rid of little waterfall. I told them about my date with Tommy and Carmela didn't look happy. "So you guys are back together just like that" she snapped "no we are just spending some time together see how it goes" I felt like I was talking to the dragon "Carmela stay out of it" said Chris. He didn't look happy with her "it's none of your business who Lydia dates" "well all I know is Fran won't be happy" I was sick of Carmela going on and on about me and Fran it was getting on my nerves especially because he couldn't care less. We were only friends but she wasn't convinced. I had to nip it on the bud before Tommy got wind of her ideas that Fran and I should be a couple. "Carmela do you have a problem with Tommy?" "No I just think your better suited to someone else" "well I'm not suited to anyone else, I don't exactly have guys banging down the door to take me out" they both gave each other a funny look "and I get lonely in this big house on my own I deserve someone nice that will treat me right. I want what you both have" Chris gave me a cuddle "anyway me and Tommy aren't getting married we are just seeing how things go" "ok Lydia but as I say Fran won't be happy" "Frans just overprotective he will be fine" but of course he wasn't.
Carmela and Chris asked me to take waterfall over night so they could have a bit of time to themselves. She was a nightmare she was up all night crying because of her teeth, and I ended up taking her into bed with me. She woke me up first thing in the morning absolutely starving. I quickly made her breakfast and put on her little pink swimsuit and sun hat and tiny sunglasses and we went for a swim in the pool. She loved the water and was giggling every time I splashed her. Tommy arrived early and came out to the pool. He looked so relaxed in his shorts and tshirt. That was the thing about Tommy he looked great suited and booted but I loved him just in his casual stuff. I used to love waking up to him getting ready for the gym. I think it was because of his shaved head and stubble. His rugged good looks suited being dressed down but when he wore a suit I always just thought of him as Jason in London Streets not my Tommy. “I hope you don't mind me coming straight through your house princess but your security let me in" his cockney accent and cocky attitude always made me want him more. But I had to give myself a talking too, although I wanted to jump him i had promised myself that I wasn’t jumping into bed with him so quickly this time. That was partly because I wanted our fresh start to be a bit more romantic this time around. Don’t get me wrong our relationship had been lovely, but because I had still been with Stefan we didn’t really go out as a couple or do the things couples do. But this time was going to be different. And also to tell you the truth I didn’t want to have s*x right away because I was scared of his huge d**k. I remember the first time we had s*x and it had hurt, big time. But when I got used to it the s*x was incredible. I just had to get past it but the thought scared me. “You look so handsome Tommy. why don't you come in join us, in the pool” I was half hoping he didn’t have any swim stuff with him, I loved to see him naked he had the best arse I had ever seen, he slipped his t-shirt off over his head and I was fixated on his muscles, I had forgot how incredible his body was especially with his tanned skin. He took his shorts down and he had swim shorts underneath and jumped in beside us. "How are you? You are the most beautiful girl in the world” He said in a cute voice Waterfall was splashing in my arms and I had almost forgot she was there “she's having fun" I said giving her a big smile “I wasn't talking to her" then he gave me a kiss on the cheek. “I'm tired Tommy, this little lady has had me up all night" he gave me a filthy grin “I love having you up all night princess" my cheeks were starting to burn with pure lust “not in front of the baby Thomas" Waterfall put her arms out to him and he took her from me. It was so sweet watching them together. She really liked him. He splashed the water and she was giggling. "Stacey is going to pop round later her and the big man went to Vegas for a couple of days and they had a huge fight so she came home early, I hope that's ok?" I know this wasn’t exactly as romantic a date as the other night, but it kind of suited me to have other people around so that I didn’t end up taking him up stairs and f*****g him all day and night. “Yeah that’s good Staceys coming over. I'd like to get to know her better, and Carmela” My heart melted for him. The fact that he wanted to get to know my friends better just showed how dedicated he was to making our relationship work this time. I just hoped that Carmela was going to be nice to him, and forget about trying to set me and Fran up to be a couple. I think she was only doing it so that we could double date with her and Chris. We played around in the pool with little waterfall but after a while it was getting too hot for her out in the sun "let's go inside and I will make us some lunch" I got out and wrapped a towel around her. But she was starting to get a bit fussy, she kept slapping my hand away then she stared crying "oh are you too hot little Waterfall? Actually Tommy I should give her a quick feed and a bath, and put her down for a nap she must be shattered. The heat must be getting to her”. I was standing holding her in just my bikini. “You look hot princess” I started to fan myself "it's like a million degrees out here" he gave me a sexy wink “no I mean you look hot" he said with a dirty grin. "Thomas" was all I said "oh Thomas is it! I love you giving me into trouble princess” I just shook my head and laughed, he was such a flirt “will you be ok down here on your own for a while, I will try and put her down for a nap?" He got out the pool and came towards me “I can give you a hand if you like?” He was being so sweet, “no just you relax honey” he looked a little relieved “ok but give me a shout if you need anything, I need to make a few phone calls so take your time" he gave Waterfall a kiss on the forehead and she stopped crying. “Look Tommy your a natural, girls of all ages love you” He gave me a weak smile. As I walked away I felt bad. Why did I always have to insinuate that he was a ladies man. I know the big man had put it into my head. But I really don’t think that it’s true. Here he was helping me with Waterfall and wanting to get to know my friends and I was making sarcastic comments. I decided there and then that I was going to stop listening to other people’s opinions and trust my gut. When I came back down stairs Tommy was lying out in the sun, he had his sunglasses on and looked like a male underwear model “There you are princess, is she ok?" I went over and lay on the sun longer next to him “Yes she's finally asleep, fancy some lunch honey?” He put his arm around me “I fancy you princess" I let out a little giggle “you are so cheeky” I said and he stroked my face and held my chin and kissed me on the mouth. The kiss between us was lustful but I had to pull away before I mounted him. He had no idea the affect he had on me. “let's sit in the kitchen, I can't take this heat" I said breathlessly and he slowly nodded his head in agreement. He was just as turned on as I was but he had promised that he would take it slow this time and I appreciated that he wasn’t trying to hump me with the baby sleeping upstairs. We wondered through and he sat at the table staring at my arse the whole time. He wasn't very good at hiding the fact that he was drooling over me in my bikini. I made us a salad and sat across from him. He looked at my t**s the whole time he was eating. Then Stacey ran through into the kitchen crying. She had her suitcases with her. I looked at Tommy he didn’t look impressed. “Lyds I’m so angry with him I swear to god this time it’s finished” she sat down at the table and let out a big sob. Then she said “Oh hi Tommy” shooting him her super smile as if that was her just noticing him in the room. “Keep it down Stacey little waterfall is sleeping” I said in a hushed voice. “What’s happened this time honey” I had heard it all before, she had moved in with me at least four times since we moved to LA. She took a deep breath and started to tell us all about it “well he took me to Vegas as a surprise and I was so happy he was finally showing a bit of interest. Then I went up to the hotel room to get changed for dinner and he came back in a bad mood, he had an argument with Fran on the phone or something so he was taking it out on me, so I threw him out and he didn’t come back all night” she let out another sob. I got up and gave her a cuddle “I was so upset this morning that I jumped on the first flight home. I can’t believe him Lydia he’s so selfish” I didn’t say anything I knew better than to get involved but then Tommy said “Stacey don’t be upset girl, it was just a silly disagreement” she was still crying “why did he stay out all night?” She asked. Then Tommy said “you did tell him to leave so that’s probably why he stayed away” was he getting at me I thought to myself, my blood was starting to boil. “well maybe she just needed to calm down for a minute and she didn’t mean for him to leave all night and stay god knows where with god knows who” Stacey let out a yelp as if she was in pain “oh no do you guys think he was with a girl?” Tommy and I just looked at each other. We both knew exactly what the big man was like, but neither of us had the heart to break it to her that he was probably with at least three girls. “No sorry honey, I didn’t mean that. I just think if someone tells you to f**k off they might just be angry. And that it shouldn’t be taken literally, and they might just need a bit of space” Tommy’s eyebrows were down as if he was pissed off at me “ I think if someone tells you to f**k off they mean it” He was getting at me. When was he going to let it go? I thought this was a fresh start. Stacey looked at us both as if we were nuts and said “what are you two going on about?” It was quiet for a minute as Tommy and I stared each other out, the atmosphere had turned quickly but Stacey didn’t seem to take any notice, then she said “anyway he stayed out all night, and left me on my own and I’m ragging with him, so I’ve decided I’m leaving him this time for good. Can I stay here with you Lyds?” I had heard this a million times “Yeah of course honey” I gave her another cuddle this was none of my business and they were both my friends, I didn’t want to be involved in their drama again. Then Tommy took her hand “Stacey love, you should think about all this before you break up with him. He must be worried sick about you” a huge smile broke out onto her face “do you really think so Tommy?” Stacey loved the thought of the big man giving her any kind of attention “yeah he’ll be worried, especially if you just got a flight home and he doesn’t know where you are. He loves you, you should go and speak to him before you make any big decisions” she wiped the tears away from her eyes “your right Tommy, he does love me. thanks for being here, your the best” she stretched across the table and hugged him. Tommy looked pleased with himself for helping her, but I knew her too well. She loved the drama too much to let the big man away with staying out all night and ruining their trip. He would need to pay for it one way or another. I could hear waterfall crying from the living room “I better go and see her” by the time I got back Stacey was flicking her hair and rubbing Tommy’s arm and fake laughing. I thought she was heartbroken she seemed to get over that one quick. I wasn’t annoyed with her for being flirty, that was just the way she was there wasn’t anything in it. And apart from anything Tommy looked pretty uncomfortable which I thought was hilarious. “Is little waterfall ok” asked Tommy. Stacey gave her a little smile “yeah she’s fine” “Good” he said rubbing waterfalls cheeks “it alright if I have a shower princess?” He said standing up from the table, Stacey’s mouth fell open when she seen his six pack, I gave her a look of warning, then turned my attention back to Tommy “Yeah of course, you can use my shower, Stacey take the baby for a minute” I put waterfall on her knee “oh really she hates me” she looked at me like a had handed her a grenade. Tommy let out a laugh “no she doesn’t Stacey, follow me Tommy I’ll show you up stairs” he gave me a cheeky smile “I’ve been waiting all day for you to say that princess” Stacey let out a huge over the top laugh. I walked up stairs first, when I looked back Tommy was staring at my arse, “thanks for calming her down Tommy” I said, I was grateful that he had managed to talk Stacey into giving the big man a chance to explain and so that they didn’t split up before the party “it’s alright, she’s a cute little thing?” “Oh right” I was a little bit jealous that he thought Stacey was cute “she’s just missing her Mum” he said “Yeah...wait are you talking about Waterfall I was talking about Stacey” he let out a laugh “oh her, she’s just a spoiled brat, I feel a bit bad for the big man. I know he’s not an angel, but he’s got a lot on his plate with that one” I wondered what was said when I wasn’t there. “Is this your bedroom princess it’s massive. I’d love to see you in that four poster bed” I slapped his arm “heres a towel honey it’s just through here” the ensuite was just as big it had a huge jacuzzi bath and a separate shower. “The shower is in here honey” I opened the door for him, he leaned in and kissed me gently on the lips “I wish you would come in and scrub my back for me princess” I went up onto my tiptoes and kissed him back “why baby? are you a dirty boy?” and I kissed him but this time he grabbed me and kissed me hard “I love it when you call me baby” he kissed me again. This time he ran his hands over my whole body and I was breathless with lust. He stoped at my bikini top and tried to untie it at the top then quickly stoped and pulled away. I wasn’t ready for him to stop but I was grateful that he did because I wanted him badly, but one of us had to put a stop to it before it went to far. “f*****g hell princess your going to be the death of me, I’m trying my best to keep my hands off you and your wondering about in that bikini. I better have a cold shower at this rate” I gently kissed him “all good things come to those who wait” I had to get away before I jumped him. As I quickly walked into the other room he slapped my arse “do me a favor princess, put some clothes on will ya. I’m a desperate man here” I let out a giggle. I went into my dressing room and put on a summer dress and wedges. I went straight down stairs to make sure Waterfall and Stacey were ok. Waterfall was screaming her head off and Stacey looked on the verge of tears “come here little waterfall” I said and took her from Stacey I think they were both relieved to see me. “Tommy is so hot isn’t he Lydia?” said Stacey with an excited look on her face “are you two having wild s*x again” I gave her the look of death “god Lydia why are you so funny talking about s*x but as soon as you have a few drinks and go all mega Scottish you spill all the sexy details” she was right, I had become so private over the years I was just always anxious someone would sell a story on me. Although I could totally trust Stacey I still felt uncomfortable “well you will just need to wait until I’m drunk won’t you. Anyway we aren’t having s*x. He made me a romantic meal the other night and then popped round here today for lunch that’s it” she looked at me all confused “but you guys are perfect together. I really like him and he’s crazy about you. Why aren’t you up there right now going to town on him?” I let out a giggle “ok I will tell you the truth, I really want to take it slow this time I don’t want to rush in again” she took my hand and said “is it because of what happened the last time.....with the baby?” My blood ran cold, Stacey was the only other person that knew I was pregnant because she was there when I took the test and I had never told her that it was Frans. When Stefan had attacked me again and I miscarried I just told her that it was for the best and that Tommy and I had split up. I didn’t want anyone to know about me and Fran. I was scared she wouldn’t understand “No it’s not that, it’s just that I’m a bit scared” she looked confused again “why are you scared Lydia. I know you guys split up before, but it’s not as if he dumped you, and broke your heart, why are you scared to go back there with him?” “that’s not what I’m scared of Stacey” “what is it? Is he into crazy stuff in bed? Does he like it when you kick the s**t out of him and stuff?” What the hell was she talking about? “No Stacey, don’t be stupid, it’s just that he’s really big” her eyes shot open “wow how big?” I looked around to make sure he couldn’t hear me, then I whispered “He’s f*****g huge” she put her hand over her mouth to stop a scream. “Your a lucky b***h Lydia” we both giggled. Little waterfall started laughing. “Oh s**t Stacey I totally forgot she was here” I gave her a big cuddle “don’t be daft Lyds she doesn’t know what we are talking about, what’s all that noice” she asked. I could hear shouting from the front of the house it sounded like the big man. I was still holding waterfall and I walked through to the large hall and the big man was standing at the bottom of the stairs. He looked furious, his hands were clenched into fists at his side and his face was bright red. He was shouting up the stairs “get down here you f*****g snake, I told you to stay away from her, I’m going to f*****g kill you you cockney prick” I was in shock when I looked up the stairs Tommy was standing in just a towel. With a cocky look on his face “Calm down mate I’m just using her shower” the steam was coming out of the big mans ears and little waterfall started to cry. “Big man what are you playing at, your frightening the baby” when he looked over and spotted me, Waterfall and Stacey he looked like he had seen a ghost. “What’s going on gorgeous?” Me and Stacey looked at each other. Why was he asking us what we were doing when he was the one acting like a crazy man. “Nothing big man, I’m looking after Waterfall and Tommy and Stacey poped by for lunch, why are you shouting?” He looked relieved “I’m sorry I didn’t realize wee Waterfall was here, ehh I was just ehhh” Stacey interrupted him “oh Jamie I’m sorry about our fight, I feel terrible, you must have been worried sick about me. You are so sweet to come straight here to find me” she ran up and threw her arms around his neck and started to kiss his face but he was still staring up at Tommy. “Tommy was having a shower he was in the pool with the baby, I’ll grab your clothes Tommy they are outside” he came down stairs and him and the big man stared at each other like a pair of alpha males about to attack. Stacey didn’t seem to notice the atmosphere between them and she just kept kissing the big mans face. Tommy and I walked out to the pool and Tommy had his swim shorts on under his towel he then put his T-shirt and shorts back on. He looked angry. “Tommy what was all that about with the big man?” He turned around with a big smile in his face and kissed the top of my head then kissed Waterfall on the top of hers “I don’t know princess you will need to ask him. I better go before I go back in there and knock him out” I started to shack with nerves, “please don’t be like that, I’m sorry about him, I’ll talk to him find out what his problem is” he rubbed my chin “don’t worry about it princess, I’ll call you later if that’s ok?” He then grabbed his phone and car keys and went through the house out to the drive way. I heard Stacey shouting goodbye but I was still outside with waterfall by the pool totally confused. What the hell had just happened. The big man came outside “alright gorgeous?” “No im not alright, what was that all about? Why were you shouting at Tommy?” “Listen I’m sorry gorgeous I didn’t realize waterfall and Stacey were here, it’s just that I warned Tommy to stay away from you. And when I seen him half naked in your house I put two and two together and came up with five, I’m so sorry gorgeous” “wait hang on a minute why would you tell him to stay away from me?” “Because I know what he’s like and I’ve seen him in action gorgeous he’s nearly as bad as me. He would just end up hurting you” “big man stay out of it” “I’m only trying to protect you after the last time” “I know honey and I do appreciate it but Tommy is nothing like Stefan” “so you are sleeping with him?” “No im not sleeping with him. We had dinner the other night and lunch today, I hate it when you make out as if I’m some little slut” “I didn’t mean that gorgeous I just want to know if you guys are seeing each other because I think he’s a ladies man that’s all” “don’t say that big man, yeah we are seeing how things go between us” “well don’t say I didn’t warn you gorgeous” I just rolled my eyes “big man don’t worry I know what I’m doing, just let me get on with it” “ok I will stay out of it gorgeous I’m sorry it won’t happen again but if he hurts you he’s a dead man”