Married to my baby's dad

Chapter 2.Almost losing myself

Two years later 

Avery POV 

       I was sitted on a chair looking through the window of our little apartment how some kids were playing outside still remembering the darkest day of my life 

   Flashback 

   Avery POV 

After have cried for what seems to be an hour in my mom's hospital room ,I gathered myself and called lilly making sure she is far away from my brother and announced her .I didn't knew any other person than her and her brother I wasn't that social my mom neither who had only a friend of which I didn't knew the numbers to call 

'' know I'm talking of my mom in the past '' I told to myself as some tears escaped my eyes.

 Lilly came to réconfort me with her brother . Kassim nearly arranged everything for my mom to be burried the following day since we had no other person to wait for. 

I went back home that afternoon around 2pm I got very frightened to open the door and see all those pictures of us and broke again infront of my younger brother .I needed and had to be courageous to tell him as he will be môre broken than I. 

As I entered our appartement that evening,I still remember how cold,deserted and frightful it was to me I was so afraid to come over my mom's picture when I looked around it ''our appartement was a small one with 2 rooms ,a small living room with blue long curtains and some furnitures in the middle ,one bathroom and a kitchen .

It was descent painted white except my shared room with my brother that was painted blue on his demand I love making him happy so didn't objected ''.

 As I sat down I burried my hands in my palms after some minutes Lilly entered with my brother .Both of them didn't looked really nice to see , it seems to me as he suspected something he came to me running I took him inside my arms and he asked ''Avery where is mom is she fine'', tears filled my eyes at his gently voice but I hold up so badly .I wanted to burst crying but had to tell him I looked at Lilly as she gave me a re-assuring nod I took in some air and started 

  Ayan mommy she ,she went to the sky to see God she said she loves you and that you can see her and talk to her each time you want to by just closing your eyes and thinking very hard of her she also said she will always be with us and that we should not forget about her '' his face darkened as I took him in my arms he was very intelligent.

 We cried together like for hours and I felt relieved as I kissed him in the forehead while placing him in his bed and left I said my goodbyes to my bestie and went to sleep .

As I got up in the morning everything went so fast we burried her in Lilly's family cemetery near my dad and we went back home silently .

Still Two years later 

     Two years have passed and I'm still that broken . Looking through the window I saw my brother bullied by some other kids .