Desperate love

The schizophrenic illusion.

It was a fine morning of September . The sun was shining brightly and it was about 8 O'clock of the morning . Although it was late but it's OK to be late on Sunday because you don't have to worry about the work , school the other responsibility you have to complete. finally she got up and after getting up ,the first thing was to search for the newspaper because without newspaper morning tea seems tasteless . On usual days , it would have been the time of leaving the home to get the school bus .

"Eat your breakfast !

" give me the comb"

" you Always misplace your shoes "

" Oh no ! This girl, here is your home work note book " everyone seems to be in a hurry but there was someone who was not even little interested on all these things. So, how does it matter? Why should she do when there is no one to share feelings? No one is there to wait for you, no friend ? Only scolding and insulting behaviour of teachers and also from the family .No one was there to tell " yes! you are important ." You are just a part of a routine and you have to follow it" no seriously this is not the life. Although there was no word to speak about but there was no need to run with all .There was a world of thoughts , of imagination ,of illusion which was more fantastic ,more entertaining and more beautiful than the real world and Lavanya decided to stay there.

"Are you listening to me ?" her mother shouted . Although she knew that her daughter could not listen most of the part But out of habit she uttered .

I not go " The girl said .

listen !! I am not at home to take care of you . just take the bag and get lost " her mother pushed her .

No !! No !! No !! " she continued crying but no was there to understand why a 11 th standard girl was behaving as a pre nursery girl . No one was even interested to know .

What will you do if you don't study ? Even a peon needs some basic education . you neither have talent nor ability to hear or speak properly " she shouted " why has God sent you in my life? "

Lavanya couldn't understand the whole thing but she could do lip reading and judged her mother's body language . She was about to slap her . So she just took her bag and left for the school . She couldn't stop hear tears but couldn't afford to show them . Who was there to wipe away her tears ?

She was declared as a mentally retired girl in school who could write but couldn't understand a word .She had never spoke a word to anyone .The teachers didn't bother to talk ,teach or connect her .They were getting the fee and she was given a seat to sit .But they were their to beat and insult her .The girl couldn't dare to make eye contact or cry due to lack of confidence.she always thought what would others say or call her .Every laugh or smile made her thought as if they Laughing at her .

The previous day ,her history teacher took a test and the results were to be declared. As declared, she got a zero . Everyone was laughing at her. on that day class was divided into two parts, the brilliant and the stupids .she was declared the monitor of the stupids . seats were changed and they were given different homework also. for everyone else, it was just a change but for her ,it was a great insult. Next period was of English where they had to tell answers. But the teacher didn't even think of asking the question. she just told her to stand , again the defaulters were punished with the scale .

The general idea of people about her was that she couldn't understand anything .School was just for spending the time so that parents could earn money . Her siblings were also busy talk with each other they were brilliant students. they had a lot of things to discuss about science, maths and New adventure of their friendship Everything was shared but not with her .If she tried to ask anything from them they would just rebuke her and keep going on their discussion . sometimes she talked with her mother but she didn't also pay much attention .

after returning from the school , she was sitting in her room. her books was in front of her , but she was not even looking in them. she was thinking about the incident which happened in the class laughing of the girls and the cruel eyes of the teacher were in front of her eyes but no-one was again and cry with her she just kept thinking till she did not sleep.

at night , she just listend some whispering sound .The sound was very clear to her and it was the first time she had heard something that much clear . she woke up from her bad check what was it she turned her face and saw a girl who was smiling at her but who the girl could be . she just stood up " how the girl entered and She was not for any good .she tried to run away but she had hold her hand tightly . she couldn't move herself. The girl held her hand and was laughing loudly. surprised why other members of the family didn't woke up as they were also sleeping in the same room she tried to touch her mother's feet but I couldn't reach to her girl ride to press Lavanya,s neck . she belt she was about to die but the girl left her and gave a push .she fell on the ground but as she looked at the girl she couldn't see her anymore. the girl had vanished there was no sign of hear . was it a dream aur reality ?what was that?she was thinking about her. she stood up and woke her mother up. She short her hand to her mother which was it due to the hard pressing. but the mother who was in her sleep just told her to sleep as it was 1:30 p.m. she told her not to create the drama as she had already done enough of it in the morning she allowed her to sit sleep with on the same bed .the mother slept soundly but the girl was not even wink her eyes. she was afraid of the incident and was worried what if the girls return she hold her mother's hand and kept weeping silently. the greatest misery what's that she didn't have word to express what was she feeling.

the next morning she woke up at 6 o clock and went to take the bath. in the bathroom heard the same sound she had last night she was trembling with fear. She thought the girl was there and as she was taking bath the girl could watch her naked. she didn't complete her bath just came out uniform and was crying and trembling The girl was understood stupid girl .her mother thought she was crying because she didn't want to go to school. she rolling pin and hit her on her shoulder warning her that she was not going to tolerate all this anymore. Lavanya didn't have any choice. she didn't eat or drink anything left for the school and the same thing happened there . the girl was sitting on her bench with her and was continuously disturbing her. normally she was quite girl she never created any problem in the class. but today she was smiling and talking with someone. some girls noticed her doing this but didn't affect them much .They again became busy with their work . she was not alone anymore but she was not happy also. it was a problem and she had to deal with it but how the girl was torturing her .