Unconditional Love With My Conditional Boyfriend

Beyond The Surprise

Am I dreaming? Maybe my mind is struck up with unwanted stress due to this shifting last night. How come I dream about Ashwin on my terrace? I'm not sure. Let me touch him as if it is my dream or atleast let me confirm it.

I started approaching him very slowly. He is kind of exercising with his headphones on. I love to interrupt this guy, at least in my dream. However, it is not directly possible. So I will enjoy this moment. I thought of just touching his shoulder, but now I changed my mind.

I can do whatever I want in my dream. So let me finish off my grudge at him. I think that will be crazy. I almost reached him. I made my fist and gave a damn shot at his back and immediately grabbed his neck with my arms around it. But I could really feel his physicalness. Wait a moment, is it real? I did not give it any second chance and turned around and tried to move away from there. But, I got struck. I could not move forward because he was holding my neck. He just grabbed my neck and reached in front of me. I closed my eyes because I was left with no other option. I'm totally a fool today.

"Could you please open your eyes?", he asked me.

"I'm really sorry, Ashwin. I did not expect you here", I started the conversation.

"So who are you expecting here to get a great act from you happened just now?", he sounded may be kind of jealous.

"I'm not expecting anyone over here. I assumed that it was in my dream, so I acted kind of crazy", I replied.

"Why do you want to make an excuse in the name of a dream? You can tell me directly that you want to get close with me", he exaggerated.

"That's in your dream", I replied angrily.

"But, however, it is happening in your dream, right?"

Now I'm totally frustrated.

"Tell me, how come you are here?", I asked Ashwin.

"This is actually my question. Now, will you please tell me what exactly you are doing here?", he asked curiously.

"I don't have to answer you and I don't want to know why you are here too, Mr. Ashwin", I replied.

I was about to move away from there but his words at last stopped me from moving forward.

He said that it's his home. I could not utter a word but I owed him an apology. I could not even face him because of my arrogance.

I turned back and bowed in front of him and left from there without looking at him.

I left with no expression. Why is my life turning around him? I think I should keep my distance from him and let me not mess up with him.

The very first day in this house started with great surprise. I need to get ready for college. I want to cook breakfast but I haven't bought groceries yet. So, I will eat from outside. I took a bath and was choosy about my dress and gave a little make-up. I feel like getting ready well. While I was putting on eye make-up, I remembered the girl yesterday with Ashwin. I don't feel so good about it.

Oh no, why do I even care about it? She might be his friend. But I have never seen her on the campus. WHO IS SHE?

I finished my things and was about to leave the room and opened the door and searched for the keys inside. I got my keys and bag and was about to step outside, but there he was again in front of my room, leaning against the wall. I guess he is looking for me. I did not step outside of my room and stare at him. He took his shower and hasn't combed his hair. He seemed so fresh and fragrant that I couldn't resist myself from sniffing his smell. He looks totally different and attractive. I really want to ask the secret behind his fragrance but yeah, it's a boy thing. But I believe he is staring at me strangely. I guess he did fall for my looks today.

I asked him what and why he was staring at me. But his reply totally irritated me. He approached me very closely and asked me what was wrong with my face and the dress colour. He held my hand and dragged me inside. He asked me to open my ward-robe. I hesitated and said no. But he tried to open it by himself. I stopped him and stood in front of the ward-robe and said, " Ashwin, this is not at all fair. I'm a girl. Atleast respect my privacy".

He said, " I want no privacy kind of things between us", he moved me out of the way and opened my wardrobe. I blushed.He saw how messed up my wardrobe was and out of that he chose a white dress and asked me to change my dress and remove the make-up.

Wait, why do I have to remove my make-up? I asked him, "what's wrong with my looks today"? He said that he was uncomfortable with my looks. I replied that I'm comfortable and you have no right to ask me to get ready according to your preferences. He finally said something that made my heart flutter. That is, " your looks are grabbing my attention and I don't want to see other men with the same feeling", he said when coming closer to me.

I couldn't control his approach and I turned my head and said "okay. I'll change". I don't know how he minds about me and his inner feelings. Sometimes, he acts rough and sometimes caring and a few times loving, but he was with some other girl the other day.

Before he left the room, he said that his mom asked me to come over to have breakfast with them. He actually came to invite me for breakfast.

His looks are attracting too, but did I ask him to change? Of course, that's his natural looks. Still, he shouldn't have been controlling the way I look.

I'm not angry but want to pretend to be.

I changed into his preferred clothes but did not remove my make-up because I didn't want to be completely under his control.

I locked the room and went downstairs and entered their house. His mom welcomed me and I greeted her. She asked me to join them for breakfast as it was my first day as their tenant. I happened to see the lady the other day with Ashwin,in their dining hall.

She is sitting next to Ashwin and serving him the food. Ashwin is very close to her. It just seems that I assume, but I don't know what exactly is happening between them.

I reached the table and was about to take a seat. Ashwin is glaring at me with an excited but arrogant look. I want to ask them about her but it will reveal my heavy interest in her. Whatever it is, let me pass it. I'm not jealous. I guess I'm, but why? I finished my breakfast just a few seconds before Ashwin did. I went to wash my hands and I did and Ashwin immediately followed me and asked me to open the tap, meanwhile asking me angrily why didn't I remove my make-up. I said, "It looks natural, not heavy, right? It is very simple compared to that lady's make-up", I pointed to that girl beside him just before.

He looked at me strangely with a curious face. He asked me," Don't you want to know who she is?"

I said, " Why do I care?" I guess he found my jealousy.

He asked me, " What's wrong with you today, Ayesha? You seem to be in a different mood which I never knew before".

"First of all, fix your own attitude towards me. I am confused", I said fiercely.