Unconditional Love With My Conditional Boyfriend

His Curiosity

I heard his voice whispering in to my ear. I want to know what exactly is happening here. Why is he curious about me? My brain is filled with this question because he is the top student in the college and obviously he is the heart-throb to many girls over the campus. It seems like Mr. Handsome is interested in me. I don’t know, whatever it is, let’s find it. I slowly turned my head towards Ashwin while thinking about his peculiarity.

His face is very close to mine. I couldn’t blink my eyes at all. Wow, his face is very clean and clear. How come the face of a man is so clear. Maybe he is using a good face wash. He continuously stared at my lips followed by my eyes. Seems like he is going to kiss me but yeah that’s not happening right now. Whatever, I rolled my eyes and re-turned my face to the table because I’m getting more excited with his looks.

I didn’t say a word because his eyes made me quiet.

“You are stinking of sweat, hope you had enough walk to this bar. Do you want me to drop you at your place?”, he whispered again.

I did not feel embarrassed because I already faced enough situations at the campus but I’m done with him now and I slowly sniffed my T-shirt. I know am stinking of sweat but when he said that I am unable to raise my head.

I’m already angry with him and another embarrassment made to burst out.

“ Ashwin, there are lot of girls out there who are very much interested in you. I am not the one who can fall for you”, I said.

Why are you not attracted to me? Am I really not bewitching?, he asked me in return.

“ Ashwin, you have very much enchanting looks, there is no doubt about it but only looks can not define your attractive personality. Of course, I am not attracted to you. So, please stop making fun and leave me alone”, I replied.

“ But Ayesha, you are so attractive to me right now”, he said.

“ What do you mean right now! I am attractive all the time, at least I am not as rude as you. I maintain my manners”, I replied.

Actually, I am rude to him too but yes, I want to protect my self-respect. I can’t fall for him so easily like others do. He did not say anything but staring at me.

“ I didn’t like you since the day one we met and also, you have no right to involve in my life. Why do you care what I eat or what I do?”, I asked.

He took a moment and left the snack bar without conveying a word.

My brain asks me to stop him but why do I want to stop him. Why do he think I’m different. Did anyone experienced two feelings simultaneously, the anger and flattered. I am in such a state of mind right now. Does he interested in me?

May be he felt attracted towards me. I’m really exhausted with his thoughts, I placed my hand on my heart and consoled myself. If he likes me, why do he leave me here alone? He doesn’t have proper communicating ability. He always leaves me with a question mark. This meeting is also a coincidence.

I finished my drink and leaving the bar. I started walking because I don’t want to take a cab. At least a walk may helps me to forget this exhaustive day for a while.

Suddenly a bike stopped beside me. I wondered who it is. I turned to my right side to see who is that. To my curiosity, it is Ashwin again. I just rolled my eyes and said, “ Ashwin, please not again”. He just scowled at me and asked me to get on the bike.

I didn’t say anything. I don’t know why, when he scowled at me, I couldn’t argue anything and got on his bike. Is it because I got scared of his glare or did I get excited or felt happy ! I don’t know that I couldn’t definite my emotion right now.

Though I don’t like him much, I feel like a princess to have a ride with him. Of course, it’s a dream to many girls. I grabbed the chance. But this opportunity has no meaning because I have already faced enough embarrassment and I’m totally angry with him. I took a wrong step to get on his bike. I hate him. Now, I really want to get off his bike. I asked him to stop the bike immediately but he did not respond to my request. I screamed to stop it but still he did not stop. So, I have decided to take a brave act to get off his bike. Yes, I am ready to do it. I don’t know the consequences after doing this act but whatever might happen, I am ready to face it. Alright, I’m doing it. I slowly raised my right hand and gave a hard strike on his head. He stopped the bike suddenly and turned back at me. His eyes are showing me his surprise along with anger. After looking into his eyes, I am not courageous enough to look at his face. So, I closed my eyes forcefully. He poked my forehead with his index finger. I did not open my eyes and turned my head to my right slightly and he followed the same along with me that he is almost near to my face and staring at me. So, I have no choice but to open my eyes and convey my request that I want to get off his bike immediately.

I slowly opened my eyes and glaring at him without saying a word.

“What?”, he asked me.

I just stepped out of his bike and replied,

“I don’t want to come with you. So I asked you to stop the bike but you didn’t. That is why, I took the step to strike on your head. I’m sorry. It is just a sudden thought. I’m leaving from here. Bye”, I am about to go away but

he suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. My eyes are watching him surprisingly but I couldn’t act anything right now, I don’t know why because I am having a different feel right now which is more like attraction or love or just an enthusiasm that Ashwin is holding my hand and just an inch difference from his body. I am more like surrendering to him but not right away. What am I supposed to do now? I have no idea but just staring into his eyes.

“ What’s your problem, Ayesha? Why do you act so insolent. Do you have any complaint about my manners?”, he asked me arrogantly.

But now, I just liked his arrogance all of sudden. I didn’t reply him and continuously looking in to his eyes. I could feel a different atmosphere between us. He suddenly pushed me slowly. I am holding my hand where Ashwin got the hold on and rubbing it gently. I am unable to scold him though my hand is paining with his grip. I remained silent without speaking a single word at all.

He got on his bike and started it. He gave me a look which seems to be emotionally disturbed but the external picture shows anger. He left me alone and moved away. I am not bothered that he left me alone but I’m worried about my feelings, it’s completely different that I never experienced in my whole life. I feel happy, worried and my heart gives me a different sign just like a pain but feels like a sweet pain. I started smiling all of sudden and worried too abruptly.

I don’t know, is it love or an attraction towards his cold personality? But I didn’t like his attitude at first. Why do I feel that I like his cold behaviour too apart from his looks. I’m confused.

I was walking on the road and suddenly I have seen Ashwin on the pavement. He parked his bike to a side and standing lonely. I want to smile at him but my inner feelings are stopping me to do it. I walked straight towards him and asked,

“ shall we go? ”

He have shown me his curiosity in his eyes. He just smiled with his eyes and started the bike. I got on to his bike and placed my left hand on his left shoulder. He didn’t say anything about it. He is behaving casually but I could sense his feel too. We can hide our emotions without showing them on our face but we can not hide them from revealing in the eyes.

We reached the hostel. I got off his bike and walking slowly. I turned back and looked at Ashwin. He just folded his hands and watching me going inside. I don’t want to miss his sight. I want to walk towards him but it might be that I am going over-broad. He is about to leave the place. I want to stop him.

“Ashwin?”, I called him and walked towards him. He didn’t say anything.

“ I’m sorry for before, I was not in right mindset”, I said.

“ Yeah, you have to apologize”, he replied.

Basically, I get angry after hearing his reply but I’m not. I sense some other feel. Suddenly, I like his attitude now but he is different with me compared to other girls he use to behave with generally. I was thinking about it and standing steadily.

Abruptly, he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. I am looking in to his eyes, couldn’t control my strange feel to appear in my eyes. He is also looking sharply in to my eyes. I can feel a different emotion in his eyes. He is bothered about something.

“ I respect your emotions Ayesha but if they are not appropriate, I will meddle”, he said strangely and left the place.

Why do he want to interfere with my business? I was turning back and front because my feelings are not stable too. I moved in to my room and looking myself in the mirror. I imagined the scene just now happened.

Wait, is he loving me already?