Vindicated

Waves Crashing Down

"You f*****g dirty little slut. How f*****g dare you embarrass me like that. I saw the way you looked at that stupid f*****g asshole. No one will have you. No one will want you. You are mine. You are damaged. No one wants a damaged damsel in distress . You think he wants you b***h?"

I looked down, trying not to cry. He was right no one would ever want someone like me. 

"Answer me when I'm talking to you b***h," he slapped me so hard I fell down. 

"No I don't want anyone else. He doesn't want me. No one wants me. I'm yours. I'm damaged. No one could ever love me."

"Learn your place b***h. You are mine to love, to f**k, to put in line, to use however I like. Better figure that out real f*****g quick," He snapped kicking me in the stomach. I whimpered. I f*****g hate him. I wish he would just f*****g die so I wouldn't have to deal with this s**t anymore. 

He picked me up and pinned me up against the wall. I wanted to vomit. He started kissing me fiercly. As if I would ever get wet for someone who makes me want to vomit just looking at him. He pulled my dress up and pushed my panties to the side. He pushed himself inside me. I became numb. I am picturing a different life as we speak. The beach, a man that loves me. 

"You are mine, don't you ever forget it." He marked my neck. When he was finally finished I adjusted myself. 

"Now go find something to do that doesn't involve being a f*****g w***e. My dessert is on it's way here. So unless you want to hear her scream my name, you might want to go find something to do."

I head to my room and hear him say, "and don't think about running, you know I'll find you. I always do."

I nodded wanting to shout f**k you at the top of my lungs but I didn't dare. I got dressed in a one piece covering up the bruise that he had left on me. I put a bathing suit cover on top of of my swimsuit. This will cover my bruises. 

I grab a sun hat and make my way out of the room. I can hear them laughing already. God he is disgusting. She's glaring at me touching every inch of his body smirking like she is proud of what she's doing. Who would be proud to be with that piece of s**t? She starts going down on him. I run to the door but before I do I want to make it well known that she's tasting a part of me. 

"Have fun with my sloppy seconds Stella. By the way how does my bud taste? I said smirking. Mitch looked like he was gonna kill me. I knew I'd pay for this. But I didn't care it was so worth the look on her face.  I ran out of the room and a wall. 

Wait, that wasn't a wall. Walls don't have heartbeats. I look up and see him. 

"D-Derrrekk,"I managed to stutter.

"Mariah, you look stunning."

"umm no I don't. I'm nothing special. But thanks I guess. I gotta go. If Mitch sees me talking to you..." I stop. He knows already. 

"Well I'm about to change that my beautiful warrior. Is he in?"

"If you mean in Stella, the yes." Oops. Did I just say that? Oh well. It was the truth. Mitch may have taken every inch of my body and destroyed but he wasn't going to take everything. I wouldn't allow it.

"Are you serious? Well let me see if I can change that. I love ruining nights for people," he smiled.

"Good luck, I'm going to the beach before Mitch changes his mind. Have fun." I said but before I could walk away he grabbed me and hugged me. It felt like he would never let go. God, I wish he wouldn't. He smelled so good. My body was aching for someone like him. A real man. I quick pulled away and ran to the elevator. He didn't keep his eyes off me. I looked back a smiled for the first time in years. He was my superhero. He would save me from the hell that has become life. 

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The ocean is so beautiful. It’s a force to be wreckin with. The smell of the salt water, the waves crashing onto shore, it’s soothing. It’s healing my broken soul. I needed this. This is the first time I’ve ever gotten to leave a hotel room whenever I am to travel with Mitch. I can’t believe it. I needed to listen because I didn’t want it to be the last. I could escape right now but where would I go? I have no money of my own. I have no job, no home. He took everything away from me. 

I sighed, dipping my feet into the water. I closed my eyes and let the waves hit me. It felt so good to forget my life for a mere second. The further I inched in the harder the waves got. I close my eyes again. I am nothing. No one would ever want me. They’d just pity me. I am not worth anything. A wave hits me, knocking me out of my thoughts. It takes me under. I can feel the ocean pull me under. Even now I have no control. I’ll never have control. I’ll never be anything. f**k this I will be something. You can’t control me ocean. You can’t control me Mitch. I will control myself. I pulled myself up to the top of the water. 

I immediately started laughing. I saved myself. Maybe I could be my own hero. I swam to shore laughing. Once I hit the sand I laid down letting the waves hitting me. I couldn’t stop laughing. f**k there is something morbidly wrong with me. Almost dying in the ocean, getting the life beat of me by Mitch. But yet still here I am surviving this like a damn champ. 

I opened my eyes and gasped. I saw Derek standing above me. Holy s**t. I immediately froze. What the f**k is he doing here. Mitch is going to kill me. My laugh quickly faded.

“Hmm, my beautiful warrior, you are quite the bad ass. Nice to see you smile and laugh.”

“Ummm… Oh God that’s embarrassing. You saw the wave take me out…”

“Well I was gonna come save you but looks like you saved yourself. Just when I think I couldn’t be more intrigued by you, you surprise me,” he said smiling. 

“I am not a badass, I am nothhh..” Before I could finish, Derek laid down beside me on the shore and put his finger to my mouth. 

“You are not nothing my beautiful warrior. You are everything. You deserve the world. Not the one that has been dealt to you. I could give you that. Just say the words and I can take you away from all this”

A wave hits us. He laughs. I sit up, “You can’t save me. No one can. He will kill me if I leave. I can’t run. I can’t hide. He’ll find me. He always does, “ I said looking down quickly hiding my tears.

“Well I have a plan darling, he isn’t going to turn down. In fact, we discussed it when I interrupted his f**k session with that slut.  He didn’t object. So trust darling. You’re freedom is coming soon,” Derek said lifting my chin up so he could see my eyes. 

“Okay. I hope you’re right. I cannot bear another day of this Derek. I would rather die than go through this anymore. I am living in purgatory. My own personal hell. I better get back, he’s gonna be mad already.”

Derek grabbed me by my waist. He felt so good, so right. But I couldn’t drag him into this. He grabbed my face and he kissed me. I kissed him back. Afraid of what punishment I faced I stopped.

“I gott-a go. This was a bad idea. Mitch is…,” without finishing my sentence I ran. Ran as fast I could. It was dark now. Mitch would already be pissed that I had been gone this long. I don’t understand why he even cares.  He’s probably f*****g the ever living s**t out of Stella. If she only knew what he was capable of...then maybe..ugh