The lycan loyalty

nightmare

i was running through the woods again, over the fallen logs, crying as i could hear the screams of my people.

i ran and ran till i fell over and hurt my knee, screamed and screamed and a boy no older than 14 or younger came and healed me. i know those eyes.

"are you okay" he asked as he healed me.

"no i need go" as i ran and ran i heard him shouting his name freddie.

i shot up sweating and tears running down my face, it cant be.

"love you okay" he stroked my back while i calmed down.

"you, it was you"

"what was me love"

"that boy in the woods" he looks massively confused.

"you healed me when i was little, i was running through the woods you shouted your name freddie when i ran"

realisation hits his face "that was you, i never realised i always wondered what happened to you"

"i was found by alpha dylan. my brother managed get away and not found him" i sighed he would of been 22 now. he was only 4 years older.

"what was his name, i can find him"

"daniel"

"daniel davidson" i looked at him wide eyed how does he know. oh yeah. his mum knew my mum.

"yes, freddie erm" his face lit up hearing his name.

"yes love"

"are you still, erm nevermind" i dont want ruin this.

"no ask me love"

"are you still in love with sally. i mean some part has to love her to you know" i hurt and look down feeling a tear drip from my eye.

he sighed, i knew part of him loves her, i got up and had a shower, s**t i have no clothes i mindlinked silvia to bring me my black corset and leather leggings with leather jacket and my heel boots.

it wasnt long before i heard a knock on the door and silvias voice to say they are in the walk in closet, i wrapped a towel around myself. unlocked the door and went to the walk in closet as i finished getting dressed fredrick walked in to get dressed and i went to leave.

i felt tingles up my arm and round my tummy and realised his arm is wrapped around me.

"im going be honest. part of me maybe does love her" i felt tears pricking my eyes i closed my eyes and nodded, forcing myself not to sob.

i pulled my arm away and slammed the door and went for a walk with queen claire and silvia.

"its just that"

"i know. i have been there sweet girl"

"i just, how am i supposed to handle that. part of him still loves sally. i have no hope if she still owns part of him"

"they may have been together for years but believe me he does love you"

"its the bond, the bond puts the love there, no matter how much my wolf disagrees that is the truth" i had enough of feeling less than.

"no it isnt mira" came a voice behind me. i turned to see freddie standing there.

"yes it is. otherwise why would you part of you still love her huh. why would she be here with you, why would you kiss her when you smelt me, why would you let her touch you, knowing i was right there. why would you sit there and watch while she called you her god damn f*****g FIANCE" i cant right now.

i turned and ran into the woods, i went to the lake and sat down looking at my reflection, my eyes now red from anger, my vampire side is trying to awaken. but not fully awoke yet.

i hugged my legs to my chest. begging the moon goddess for a better life, i lost so much.

i stayed there till night fall. no one came. that proves no one cares.

i lay down and watch the stars.

"you know your mate is worried my child"

i sat up and looked at a beautiful woman in a long white gown bare feet.

who is she. is she his to.

i heard her giggle "no. and i am the moon goddess"

"why would you, the moon goddess be talking to me of all people huh"

"you are stronger and more powerful than you know child, fredrick is made for you and you for him, you will have things to deal with along the way but you have to do it together, i know you lost alot, your mother and father are searching for you"

i snapped my head up, they are alive how, where are they, do they not care about me.

"they"

"yes child, they will come when its time, i have spoken to them to, they care very very much my child, give fredrick a chance, he has been waiting for you child"

"but, i"

"i know but you need believe in yourself and him, he wont hurt you intentionally, sally was pregnant but it"

"i knew it"

"sally killed it using a spray, she did not know about the baby when she used the spray"

"so she was pregnant with his child" im so confused.

"yes but the chemicals in the spray made her lose it before she got to know her child"

why am i always getting hurt, it hurts to know she was pregnant.

"i know it hurts, but you will finally be who you are meant to be" and with that the moon goddess left.

i sighed and decided walk back to the pack house.

upon getting there i was engulfed by my mate and kissed passionately i moaned into the kiss.

"hmmhmm" the king cleared his throat.

i jumped back from freddie and blushed profusely while he laughed.

i just remembered what i was told and felt a lone tear stroll down my cheek quickly wiping it away i plastered a smile on my face.

"i am sorry king killian" i bowed.

"no apologies mira, you dont need to apologise" he smiled.

"can i, go to bed please" i then looked at my mate "my own bed" his smile dropped.

i walked off and headed inside just as i was about go into my room freddie grabbed me and turned me so im facing him, back against the wall.

"why" he whispered digging his face into my neck.

"why what, your highness"

"why not my room" he whimpered.

"i need think through a few things, the moon goddess told me a few things i need think through"

"why not come with me we can talk through it"

"no" i need do this alone im still hurt.

"please"

"no, sally was pregnant with your child before using that god damn spray" he was stunned to silence staring at me.

i walked in and shut my door, sliding to the floor and finally letting my tears fall.