For I have called you blessed
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For I have called you blessed
I have been, lately, asking God questions because even though I already know the answers which seem silent at this time will come and that I know them for the most part. I keep getting the answer “For I have called you blessed”. I’m not sure how, I think this, everytime I get that answer. I have always longed for certain things to happen in my life, I put off so much of those hopes and dreams to do what I was called to do take care of family of friends all as we are told to as Christians. This has to be one of the hardest “blogs” I’ve written. Not because of the content but because I have a hard time admitting this, that as a Christian I don’t always feel blessed. . . I have been going through some tough trials lately in life. I keep forgetting who’s in my corner and missing the mark or so I feel. I need to keep reminding myself BUT GOD! If I ever were to write a book about my life that would so be the title BUT GOD because by myself I can not do it alone. I find it humorous when Paul writes he counts it all (the being jailed whipped tormented and abused all of it) joy. . . I wouldn’t use that word per say but what he meant was that people were noticing him and how he was different especially those who knew him as Saul.
Can I sit here and count it all joy all the heartache I’ve gone through all the stress and anxiety all of the not knowing which I still don’t know where I’m going to be living once the house I’m living in sells BUT GOD. As I step out into all this I realize Jesus has me out on the water and even though I feel like I’m drowning far under I’m actually walking sometimes slipping down but God’s hand is always right there to pick me up and set me back on course. Two years ago if you told me I’d be an orphan and living what I’m going through I’d have laughed I still might laugh. . . but here I am an orphan my grandmother passing 2019 and then mom 2021 and her sister the one I was living with not long after her sister at the very beginning of 2022.
But God has blessed me tremendously in that time as well. I have a service dog I’m working on training for myself that is amazing; she does and alerts to things she was never trained to do. I have a connection with family that I haven’t in YEARS and I am truly blessed to my core over that. I had started reaching out to my father’s side of the family to let them know I know they are my family though after losing my aunt I’ll have to admit that took a back seat. God takes ours worst nightmares and turns them around to stand a testimony for himself of his faithfulness in the muck and crazy. What we see as chaos he turns around and makes one beautiful picture with. I still have a long way to go. . . so very long way. . . but I know God works all things out. . . ALWAYS. . . Do I always feel blessed Capital N to the O. But God has called me that so I must keep pressing on in that knowledge.
Stay blessed and remember to bless others hands to the plow and don’t look back or you too may become a pillar of salt. . . maybe. . . I don’t know
- Writer
