Just a ghost girl

New Schedule

Matteo had scheduled my whole day. There was chest playing early in the morning. Then there was language school were to learn a new language. Afternoon there was the base sightseeing tour with a history guide. Next should have been ballet but I had refused that one. I could understand that learning a new language and the base history would be beneficial, but since I didn't have a body pretending to dance was silly. I didnät have muscles so it wouldn't remain in my muscle memory even if  I would have learned to be good at dancing. Matteo had agreed with that and couldn't come up with anything else to fill the hole in my schedule so I had two hours of free time before movie night. 

I was in my room wondering how long should I follow the new schedule of mine. I did like games if they were fun. Chess was Ok but at some point, I would get tired of losing all the time. I hadn't been even close to winning. But I knew if I quit chess then they would suggest checkers, backgammon and who knew how many old-time games there was. Card games would have been fun, but since I couldn't hold cards it was quite difficult.

I sighed heavily. It was about 11 more months like this. And then it would be a year or two of physical therapy to gain back the muscles my body lost during this time. How long it would take before I turned insane. I had tried to keep myself busy planning stuff (pranks) but now I was supposed to be good for Matteo. I didn't want to disappoint him but I kind of started to think shutting down wasn't that bad of an option.

It couldn't be that bad to lose a year. Nothing ever happened in the base anyway so I didn't believe I would miss that much. If I had had some close friends to hang with the situation would be different but there was only Matteo and he was busy most of the time. Or it was even possible that he was avoiding me on purpose. It was quite different to hang out with a real person than with a hologram. Maybe he thought it was better to keep his distance since he was the future leader and I was a rebel. 

Even though everyone kept telling me I was a rebel and I had done a lot of pranks presently, I still didn't feel that I was that kind of girl who would run away. First of all who had those other runaways been? Since Matteo was my only good friend, had I just run away with the punch of strangers. It didn't add up. Had someone forced me to go with them since I had been really scared. But then why would they cross the high way without me if I had been their hostage or some. And why had I eventually followed them if I had a chance to turn back?

If Matteo had been there everything would have made sense, since I would follow him where ever he was going. We had always been very close. Almost every memory of my childhood contained him. He had always been there for me. Protected me from bullies and helped me with school and life problems. He was like a big brother to me since I didn't have any siblings.

I looked at myself from the mirror. They said that the hologram was made from a picture taken just a day before the accident. I had brown hair that reached my shoulders. My eyes colour were a mixture of blue and green. I was quite short otherwise tiny but I had muscular legs since I had always liked short distance running. I didn't have much stamina but I was quite fast. Fastest of the girls, second fastest on the Base, only Matteo could run faster than I. 

Running was probably what I missed the most. Especially racing against Matteo trying to win him. He was just so wast. I always ended up looking at his back and couldn't even reach it. He was so much better than me so I thought me lucky that he had always wanted to hang out with me. Everyone wanted to be friends with Matteo. Guys wanted to be like him and girls wanted to be with him. 

Even though Matteo was very popular with girls he hadn't ever had a girlfriend as far as I knew and I knew almost everything about him. He was a gentleman to every girl. I wondered what was his type. We hardly ever talked about romance stuff. It's not that I was ugly or anything, maybe it was because I was still quite young but I hadn't been that much interested in guys. So I had never been on a date before. I wondered if I would ever be. 

I wondered how my body would turn out to be. The most important thing was of course could I walk normally, could I ever run again. But I was also interested in how would I look. Would I be pretty enough for someone to have a crush on me? Would someone date me? Since I was now feeling very alone I didnät like the idea of being alone the rest of my life.

I looked at the clock and sighed. The movie night was about to begin. I should be going so that the only friend I had wouldn't get angry at me. I went through the door to the corridor. Yes, I needed to go through corridors at least for now. It was really boring. I could do some space jumps, but if I just appeared in front of someone suddenly they would be scared and I needed to stay out of trouble. It was the first day. I could walk for one day.

I hadn't gotten far when red lights started to  link all over the place and then there was an announcement:

"There is an intruder in the base, everyone please go to the nearest safe place and wait for instructors."

It was Friday in the middle of the month so this wasn't a drill since we only had drills first Thursday of every other month. Even though I didn't have a real stomach I felt butterflies all over mine. Something was happening at the base, something interesting.

I heard the doors clicking all over me. They locked people inside to be safe. But I was a hologram, I had nothing to worry about.  I could go there where the intruders were. I could see some real action much better than any old stupid movie. I was so excited and first time happy about the fact that I was a hologram. I had a good feeling that this was going to be fun.