Green

Heart not needed?

Lia dipped her head in the curtain that separated her favorite place from the space in the second floor of the mansion. Staring at Auntie Oci who is still faithful with her freshly washed photos. She obviously could have spilled hundreds of photos taken by her own camera in a room that was also can be her office. But for Lia's sake, let the gathering table for Lia's happy little family, which she conditioned to be her work desk. Lia approached Aunt Oci then said quietly, "Auntie, sorry." Aunt Oci smiled broadly. This matter may not be as easy as turning your palms down, but what's wrong with Lia hoping. Hope everything will come back.

The sky has never denied Lia's hopes, but the sky with a million clouds moving adorn it still has a mysterious plan. That night, after finally making peace with Auntie Oci's fried rice, which she said was as delicious as her Ummi's, Lia gradually got used to her absence. Look at the 20 days since the incident that Lia was tired of remembering passed, when the final school exam was actually held. When Aunt Oci anxiously asked Lia's mental readiness, the beautiful girl actually smiled after the last day of the exam. Informing every eye that catches that smile signal or just looking at her reflection believes that the exam is not a problem for her at all.

So the question is, how simple is this affair for Lia? Unbeknownst to her during her routine visit two weeks before the exam, Lia has made an important decision in her life. Exactly, very right. Her pledge to that place, that time really saved her ultimate test. Lia is still with her savage gaze every night before the national exam, the real battle between her and two languages ​​plus math and science. Unfortunately there is something that almost everyone forgets in the 4 x 120 minute fight, namely about the heart and the condition of feelings. But that's what Lia never forgot She purposely shut herself off from the outside world, including the television and even her visits to the second-floor backyard.

So many days have passed since departure, Lia is really ready to TKO every question that tries to disperse her ambition. More savage than street thugs who effortlessly devour mobs of men. Really crazy. How not, look when the results of the exam announced this afternoon, leaks of information have indeed spread throughout the hall. Although it hasn't reached Aunt Oci's ears yet, Lia seems to be just waiting for the hall to rumble when she hears her name being called.

But that's when her heart demands place and attention. Today? Lia was suddenly surprised to see the date on her cellphone. It's been eighty days since her Abi-Umm didn't show her face in Lia's eyes. So at that moment she immediately bowed down and immediately her tears fell on Lia's red skirt. Eighty? Lia, who was born with the ability to think beyond her classmates, tries to reassemble the data she recaps randomly after the exam. The first news that afternoon, the news of the death of a pilgrim from his country. Second, Aunt Oci, who has been silent for a thousand languages ​​since Lia last asked about the condition of her Abi-Umm in the Mecca. The third and the most unbelievable fact is that Lia knows that the Hajj pilgrimage only takes a maximum of 40 days. Her mind is now only focused on one name, Aunt Oci. Her ferocious gaze pierced the retina of anyone who tried to meet eyes.

"Auntie, how is Abi-Ummi Lia now?" She asked still with the same fierce look. Aunt Oci, who originally wanted to hide the fact because she looked at Lia's eyes, seemed to have understood the scenario she had been keeping tightly closed for so long, suddenly failed. Her eyes twinkled, starting to get wet with tears. But it's not that easy to be honest.

“Ladies and gentlemen, it is time to announce the best students of the greatest elementary school in this city. And we will proudly announce the best National Examination participants in the province. Also the winner of the highest school final exam scores in this school. And she is… Greenilia Amanda.” Without command the entire hall cheered and applauded. Which parent would not be proud to have a child like Lia? But wait, why would someone who deserved to be the happiest queen in this hall stand on the podium of honor with puffy eyes? The whole hall was certainly curious, just as curious as the famous moderator of the Capital, who every single year leading the graduation announcement event (heard it's because she is the alumni of the school).

Lia was reluctant to speak a word, even only being on stage for half a minute. Ignoring the face of the moderator who when curious looked like the face of a city native. Just as she was about to open her mouth, Lia hastily left to avoid the question. Because she knew wouldn't be strong enough to answer even if it was just a nod or a shake. Aunt Oci then took her hand in front of the door, taking her away.

Lia is no longer able to use her intelligent mind to think. She perfectly dissolves in emotions and emotional stress. And the place where Aunt Oci went right was the cemetery. There were too many explanations that Lia couldn't understand. Why a funeral, why no news, why? However, Aunt Oci has actually been putting it together word for word since Lia joined the podim earlier. Now she just had to be brave enough to start.

"Lia, I'm sorry Darling. It's not that i don't want to tell you about something this big, I is just waiting for right time. I don't want to bring the corpse back home, because i am aware that it will hit your heart hard. I immediately buried them when the organizers informed me of their arrival. After you finish your exam, i am really determined to say it. But Lia, forgive my cowardice. Sorry, i am too afraid to move my tongue. I just cant, you are my lovely daughter now and you know i dont want to see you cry." Aunt Oci's light was full of regret. But Lia did not budge from her angry gaze. “Aunt, Lia is so tired of persuading this heart to be patient, Aunt. So tired. You knew when Lia's last visit to that place. Lia promised, Auntie. Lia promised Lia's little heart to finish the National Examination whatever the disturbance. Lia managed to make it relent. But today, Auntie, the day Lia's heart is tired of carrying a big question mark regarding the condition of Lia's parents, when Lia's expectations have also completely undermined Lia's feelings that they hope that they will come to give a surprise on this sunny day. But.." Lia's sentence was cut off, a low, muffled voice sounded full of respect. Not hate, just disappointed. Really just a disappointment.

So a big deal was struck that day. Shades of sorrowful sadness. Lia must go, not really. But seeing the deep wound that railed against her feelings, she had to move on. Aunt Oci, who had begun to be able to control her feelings, just nodded slowly. Thankfully, someone who was almost like her own child didn't hate her.

Sweet memories are beautifully printed on a sheet of colored paper. A story about superiority and superiority, because this affair (the exams) doesn't need a heart like a story of endless longing that may not really be anchored.

And the transfer process finally happened two weeks later, Aunt Oci also never asked if Lia was sure. It was clear from the look on her face that she really wanted to leave those memories behind. Go to the Capital's most popular Middle School. Settled in a big house with eleven other people. People call it kos (although it's not a standard word in the KBBI). Aunt Oci cried in a farewell hug. This place is quite far from the big house that Oci would have lived in after Lia left. "Lia will come at the end of every month Auntie," coaxed the beautiful girl trying to comfort Oci who looked so sad. Many times sadder even than Lia who should be the one who is the saddest. And that day Lia's life entered a new chapter.