Meant To Be Random

Maybe/Maybe not

I was so confused, I didn’t know what to address first. Again, I felt a sharp pain in the right side of my stomach. I wanted to say so much yet I didn’t know what to say. I just know things were not as he has narrated, not as I intended and not as I had wished it to be. I squinted my eye and shook my head in disagreement as if he was seeking my opinion to his decision. I managed to start a sentence without being sure of what to say. ‘Babe’, as I fondly call him, But..But.. I didn’t ever assume I could be pregnant. You know I had complained about unusual smell and unusual discharge from down there in the days leading to the pregnancy. I thought it was just a yeast infection or some.., he cut my words short and didn’t let me complete the sentence. ‘Oh that!, he threw his hands in the air, You even got antibiotics without my knowledge and if I hadn’t seen it, I would never have known you were doing self medication without a proper assessment from a doctor. It’s not that money is the problem here, you just choose to sit back and do whatever you like with your health. It’s not true, I had spoken to a friend who is a trained nurse about those symptoms and she wrote me a list of medicines to take. After taken them, The symptoms stopped coming but my menstrual period refused to come. I had thought, is it that serious? I remember walking into an hospital to see a gynecologist but she wasn’t on seat. The receptionist had said she is in surgery that Tuesday morning, and won’t be available to more appointments for the rest of the week and I have to come back the next Tuesday. I remember walking home sad, I can’t wait a whole week again to know what’s happening to me. I got back to my man’s apartment that day only for him to ask me why I haven’t taken a pregnancy test. I told him I wasn’t pregnant, I don’t feel pregnant, something is just wrong with me. He looked at me in a funny way and said I have been feeling too tired lately and sleep off at the slightest comfort given. I just overwork myself, that’s all. I have got loads of dresses to make at that time, hence had so many deadlines to beat. He couldn’t agree with me and asked if I had a PT strip at home. Of course, I had but I declined. I don’t know what came over me, I was just so certain I am not pregnant. Later that evening, He was able to convince me to go and run a pregnancy test at a laboratory in the neighborhood. I agreed.