Meant To Be Random

Blame

‘Yes, I don’t get it please. What happened? Where are all these coming from?’, I pleaded. He looked up into the roof, moved his eyes towards my phone as it beeped on a notification from Snapchat. One of my Snapchat friends had sent me a streak. They keep sending them in daily even though I have never opened it neither have I ever sent my streak back to them. He moved his eyes away then walked towards the door, ran his palm over his head for a while then placed his two hands akimbo. I sat there watching, so many things running through my mind. I love this man, it’s been 10 months together, and I keep seeing reasons to love him much and more with each passing day. I haven’t done anything to jeopardize his love for me, at least, none that I know of. I have been so committed in our relationship that I do not envision my future without seeing him in it. What has he discovered? I have never seen him like this. Then he went,’ I think you are just here to play games. You missed your period for a month before taking a pregnancy test. I am the one who even pushed you to do it, you are so nonchalant and fail to give attention to what is ought to be attended to. Now after all of this, after everything you’ve been going through these past few days, none of your family members has come to check you. Not even your mum despite the fact that we live in the same state, under the same local government. What kind of a family hears their daughter is in pain and finds it difficult to come check on her. Aside that, I have spoken to you countless time about your career. Setting your business up is not the problem, come up with a plan, I want to see you become successful. I desire to see you win, I have been trying to awaken the industrious part of you but you have chosen to be comfortable with your situation. I provide everything you need and you see no need to help yourself stand independent. These are not encouraging signs. I doubt if you or your family ever loves me. You do not take yourself serious, you do not take what we have between us serious, and even your family do not take you serious. Please, I am giving you some days to recover fully, then you can pick your things and stay back at your parents house. I need a rethink about this relationship, it feels like I am taking a wrong step. I just need to be sure I am not walking right into what I have been trying to evade these past years. You are proving not to be my kind of woman, not the one I dream of spending the rest of my life with.