The Switch Up

22

February 17, 2016

"Where are you going?" Harry asks as I pack up my things from my desk. I was taking a half day since I had gotten an appointment with my doctor, I had barely gotten any sleep since I took those home tests.

"I have a doctors appointment scheduled so I'm leaving a little early today," I tell Harry doing what I can to act completely normal. I didn't want to make this appointment a big deal, all I wanted was to lay low.

"Are you still sick?" Harry stands up as I swing my bag over my shoulder. His expression is full of worry and he had been constantly calling me to see if there was anything he could do for me when he learned I was puking my brains out.

"No, just my annual check up," I calm his worries even though mine is heightening at an alarming rate. No one knew about any of this, I was keeping everything a secret and I have never been a great secret keeper. I always ended up telling Talia or my mother if I was pressured enough to do so, and it didn't take much on their part to pressure me.

"Are you sure? There's nothing I need to know about?" Harry asks once again still worried I am not being one hundred percent truthful with him, and he was right. Before I even told him however I needed to know if this was a reality.

"No I am just going in for a wellness check, it's nothing serious." I lie and feel all that much worse about myself. I didn't like lying to Harry especially when he just wants to know if I am okay. Not to mention he had no clue about my history and current relationship with Zayn, I had to sign those papers. Hopefully, Zayn had signed the papers Liam drew up and I was the last person to seal the deal.

"Okay, call me after and let me know how everything went." He encourages engulfing me into a hug and my eyes widen with anxiety. I embrace him back and hope for the best for myself as well as everyone that could potentially be affected by this situation.

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I sit nervously as a few women with swollen bellies busily read pre-natal packets and brochures. My stomach is twisting at the sight of it all and I am feeling extremely overwhelmed even though nothing has even happened yet. I take deep breaths and do what I can to think about the bright side of things, it helped to ease my anxiety.

I stare at the ceiling and try to form images out of the paint indents in the walls overhead. I had to distract myself since I was hearing even the littlest of sounds. The sound of a turning page, someone scratching the back of their necks, the tapping of a pencil from the receptionist. My guess this was the effect of my nervousness and sick feeling stomach. I shake my legs to try and disperse the nervousness that's running wild in my mind. My mind felt like Spongebob's when he forgot his name and there were mini Spongebob's in his head racing around and panicking.

"Madeline Vega?" A nurse with a short bob came out from the office with her clipboard in hand. My eyes avert up and I stand to walk towards her, I give her a nervous smile and let her lead me back inside the private practice.

I do the standard procedures like taking my height and weight which I internally cringe at. I should really hit the gym but knowing myself it's probably not going to happen. I was convinced I wasn't cut out for physical activities, not only was I not good at them but I didn't enjoy them either.

My blood pressure is taken along with everything else and the nurse who introduced herself as Lizzy set me up with my room. I sat on the exam table where I saw the stirrups set up on the chair. Dear lord did I hate just looking at them.

"Dr. Tomlinson will be with you shortly," Lizzy told me opening up the door and exiting. Leaving me alone once again to my own thoughts. I did the breathing exercises my mother had taught me, she taught me to do deep breathing to calm my anxiety and when done correctly it actually helped.

"Everything is going to be fine, you are fine. There's no point in even worrying." I tell myself doing deep breathing that is beginning to help. I feel a little more calmed but can't fully bring myself to chill out. I still feel a fair amount of anxiety as I wait for Dr. Tomlinson to confirm or deny my pregnancy results.

I fiddle with my hands just as I hear the door open, I see those friendly blue eyes and my smile lights up my face. I hadn't seen Louis in quite sometime and despite the odd circumstance, I was glad to see him.

"Louis!" I greet getting up to hug him. It had been awhile since I last saw Louis and I had missed him. Yes, he was my doctor but he was also a family friend due to Cody and Gabe.

"Madeline! It's been some time, how are you and your family?" He asks we as I take a seat back on the exam chair table thing. He sits on his rolling stool and gives me his famous smile, Louis was always so kind.

"They are great, same old same old," I tell Louis as he sets his clipboard down on his lap. "What about you, how have you been?"

"I'm great, I'm actually getting engaged here soon so that's really exciting," Louis says as I drop my jaw at his new. My attention was completely focused on Louis and his fiance now, it's like I had forgotten why I was here in the first place.

"Louis that's so amazing! She's a really lucky girl, I'm so happy for you!" I gush with my chin in the palm of my hand.

"Thank you, anyways enough about me! This is about you, I see you ordered a pregnancy test. I didn't know you were serious let alone married! I'm offended I didn't get invited to the wedding!" Louis tells me with a little smirk as he looks over my charts.

"I'm not married, it's kinda a long complicated story but I may have been a little reckless and I'm just wanting to confirm that this isn't a thing. Those at home tests aren't always accurate and I just wanted to be sure." I explain to Louis in short. I lie about the married part since I don't consider myself married to Zayn but that's beside the point.

"You aren't the careless type Mads I'm surprised!" Louis starts standing up to retrieve what he was looking for in the cabinets. He pulls out a little cup with a blue lid and hands it to me. "All you have to do is pee in here and then I will do the rest. There is a bathroom down the hall to the right."

"Okay, and for the record... I'm not careless. I guess I just made a little mistake." I shrug getting up and opening the door. Louis nods and gives me a warm smile as I exit and walk to the long hall with a cup in my hand.

The bathroom felt so far away I felt as though I was doing the walk of shame. I imagined everyone's eyes staring at me even though I knew they weren't and they had better things to do.

"Madeline?" Someone calls from behind me and it sounds very familiar. Did I start running? Do I turn around to see who it was? Did I pretend like I didn't hear it?

"Madeline!" I stop and turn to see Gemma pacing towards me with a smile. I swirl around and put the cup behind my back to hide it from her.

"Gemma! What are you doing here?" I ask with a nervous fake smile plastered on my face. This was the last place I would expect to find anyone I knew, it's a smaller world then I thought.

"Just getting my yearly done with Dr. Tomlinson, he's the only one I trust! What about you?" Gemma asks hugging me as I embrace her back. My eyes bulging as I begin to worry even more. I was face to face with Harry's sister which made this all ten times worse.

"I um... same I'm getting my yearly done!" I tell her hoping that I sounded convincing enough. I hadn't expected to see Gemma of all people here.

"What is that cup for?" She asks as I forget to hide it once again. This is all not ideal and I curse to myself, hopefully, I'm not visibly showing how afraid I am at this point.

"I umm.... I," I stutter trying to formulate what to say. "I think I might have a UTI! Yeah, Dr. Tomlinson wanted to make sure everything is okay while I was here."

"Aw UTI's are the absolute worst! Hopefully, that's not what it is." Gemma puts her hand on my shoulder and gives me understanding eyes.

"Yeah, tell me about it!" I agree with her and then decide to wrap up the conversation. I couldn't stand to wait any longer for my results and the sooner I could pee into the cup the sooner I would have my results.

Gemma and I say our goodbyes and I find myself in the white bathroom a few minutes later. I sit comfortably on the sanitary seat and relax all my muscles until I release my urine. It's a weird thought having to pee into a cup, not only that but some people's jobs are based on urine. Could you imagine going to work every day to examine people's warm ass pee?

I take the little cup to Louis who tells me to sit and relax and that he would be back with the results in a few minutes. I again fiddle with my fingers and I think about the possibility of the results really coming back positive. Who was the father? How would Harry and Zayn react? Harry and Zayn didn't even know about each other, what was I supposed to do with that?

Things could have the potential to get a whole lot more complicated. I had really screwed up this time. Well, not yet there was a possibility that my results could come back negative and life would go back as usual. Except for the fact that Harry and I next time would always make sure to use protection.

Advice of the day, use protection kids!

The door opens again and Louis is holding a thin strip of paper that has a little pink coloring at the tip of it. My heartbeat quickens at the anticipation I am feeling seeing that long strip of paper in his hand.

I look up at Louis who gives me a light smile and part of me already knows what my results are.

"Pink means pregnant! Congratulations Madeline you are 4 weeks along!"

N. Things are about to get a whole lot more complicated! Btw Louis as a doctor is hot af