My Unloving Husband

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During wedding ceremony

My hands were sweating and I was so nervous at the point that I started to feel unwell. My mind was packed with so many unwanted thought that for a mere second I forgot that I was walking the isle of the church, holding on to my father’s arm and heading toward Jungkook. I couldn't see anyone but him.

He was so beautifully in his tuxedo. He looked as if he himself was an art. Jungkook caught me staring at him, so I gave him an awkward smile but he didn't smile back. I didn't think much as I thought he must be as nervous as me. Soon my father's hand which I was holding was replaced with Jungkook's one. During the Priest was making vows I couldn't look at Jungkook at all. I have never been this close with him and I was scared that I might make any wrong move.

After a while I felt a nudge by Jungkook so looked at him with my eyebrows knitted closer on my forehead. That's when I heard the priest clear his throat and said "Do you both pledge to share your lives openly with one another, and to speak the truth in love? Do you promise to honor and tenderly care for one another, cherish and encourage each other, stand together, through sorrows and joys, hardships and triumphs for all the days of your lives?"

'We do"

It seemed as if I was so engrossed with my thoughts that I didn’t hear Jungkook vow.

"You may kiss the bride now"

When the word kiss registered on my brain I panicked. Never in my life I kissed any guy and this kiss was going be my first kiss. I had to be very prudent as this would be of one of the memorable thing in my life. Again I was over thinking so much that I didn't see Jungkook imminent me and crashed his lips on mine. Before I even had the chance to feel his lips properly, he pulled back and looked away.

Everyone was hauling and screaming like lunatics out of happiness but I couldn't feel as happy as them after that kiss. It somehow felt like rejected. I didn't know but my heart hurt for sure.

Through out the whole ceremony my mood was off but I faked smile to every people who congratulated us. Jungkook looked tired as well and he seemed as if he was bothered with his thoughts. I wanted to straighten those wrinkles on his forehead for thinking too much. But I suppressed my urge and only focused on other people. I thought to myself when I go back home I could ask him what was bothering him.