PSYCHODRAMA

HIM

I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET MYSELF GET MY HOPES UP BECAUSE IN THE END HOPE IS THE ONE WHO SCREWS YOU OVER. IT GIVES YOU ALL THESE DREAMS OF HOW THINGS COULD BE, AND THEN JUST LIKE THAT THEY GET TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU. YES HOPE IS THE REAL CAUSE OF ALL MY HEARTBREAK ?.

LOVING HIM WAS

THE MOST

EXQUISITE FORM

OF MY SELF

DESTRUCTION.

I just love him so much, I'm in love with every single thing about him. Hearing his voice makes me feel happy in seconds, hearing his laugh makes me smile no matter how hard I try not to. When he smiles at me, my heart goes all crazy and I get butterflies, and when he hugs me and holds me in his arms I don't care about anything else except me and him "us", he's just so important to me. He's my best friend and literally my everything, he's just so goddamn perfect everything about him is perfect. He knows me better than anyone else, he knows when I'm sad and how to cheer me up, and he always manage to cheer me up. He literally writes me me paras just because he wants to, can it get any more perfect than that I don't think it feels amazing for the person you love more than anything in the world to love you back. It's the best feeling in the world, he might not be perfect to other people but he's perfect to me and that's all that matters. That's what I thought but all was a lie.

After getting into New York state university I wanted exploring my options and be optimistic about the school life and all, my siblings everybody wanted me to go to oxford but I knew I couldn't be myself there and I just wanted a simple life so I chose NYU. I fell in love with art and fashion even though I was a science student ,my parents dream was for me to became an engineer but I chose not to,it seem not a place for me and seeing myself in the next ten years was not an engineer. I walked into the large school compound it was like a world on its own.

Carl Sagan once said that human beings are like butterflies who flutter for a day and think it's forever, 13.8 billion years ago the bug bang theory gave the stars,planets,galaxies observable facts, rational thoughts,pure science perfect. The big bang also led to my home New York city filled with humanity,dreams,lust,love, the choice we make ,the path we choose. I always believe it will take a life time to understand the human heart in the end all it took was a single day which was the day I met HIM.