I STAND OVER HER CASKET. She's still beautiful but, she's not smiling at me like she does. She's not laughing and she's not looking off into space. Her mind isn't wandering. I glance back at the room. I don't want to do this. I don't want to stand up there and look at everyone that loves Lana and I don't want to go up there and say goodbye.
“Theo." Shaina prompts. I shake my head,
Shaina nudges me forward, “this is not a good time for stage fright."
“I can't." My insides crumble. “I can't go up there and do this."
“You can." She insists. “You can do it for Lana."
“I can't." I hiss at her. She stops pushing me and looks me in the eye.
“Theo…" She trails off because, what is there to say?
“I can't go up there as if I'm never going to see her again and say goodbye because that... that
