What Am I Feeling?
1197 Words
We were all dancing, laughing and just goofing around. It was the best night of my life. Jennifer kept having some of the older men, some widowed, some just single, trying to dance with her. After the first 3 of her brushing them off, she just said the hell with it and danced with them. I loved seeing my best friend laugh and enjoy herself. I had never seen her have so much fun. I think that is why I let loose and had fun as well.
She always found a way to get me out of my shell and have fun, no matter if others were around. She is such an amazing person. She is beautiful and smart. She has always been truthful and honest, even if she thought my feelings would get hurt. In all words, I am so glad I called her after my last party. She may not be blood, but she is family, and no matter what, I will always protect her and help her.
Leo was having a good time as well. He loosened up a bit and was laughing and having a good time like me and Jennifer. I guess her energy just incased us both. Leo stood by me on the dance floor. Other females came up to him trying to grind and dance on him but he ignored them and just got closer to me. By a couple of songs, we were just dancing together just inches from one another. But the whole time he did not grope me or make any type of gestures or rub and grind. He was a complete gentleman, even on the dance floor. Every so often, doing some type of crazy dance just to get me and Jennifer to laugh at him.
Suddenly, a slow dance came on. I look at Jennifer and a guy in his late 60s. I have to admit he was one of those old men you just think is adorable makes his way to Jennifer and asks her to dance. It was so adorable, as he was so much smaller than she is, he could barely walk. His glasses looked like bottle caps as they made his eyes triple the normal size. He was absolutely adorable. Jennifer accepted his dance. I believe she probably made his day and the rest of the year.
I turn around to walk off the dance floor to go back to the table when I felt a hand on my arm.
" Where are you going?" Leo says and smiles "May I have this dance, Ms. Valentine?"
How could I say no? I walked to him and stood in front of him.
" Of course." I say looking into his beautiful blue eyes.
It felt as if I could not look away. I was captivated by their beauty. He held me close to him. This is actually the closest we have been to one another and the most physical contact we have had with one another. I could tell he is as nervous as I am. His hand on my lower back and holding my hand in his other hand. I place my free hand gently on his chest.
" Is this OK?" I ask, as I can feel myself watching my hand as I place it on his chest.
" Of course." He says " Thank you for having this dance with me."
"Your welcome. Thank you for asking, even though I am a little jealous of Jennifer with that adorable man." I say jokingly and smiling.
" Well, I guess I'm going to have to watch him then." we both giggled a little. " You do look absolutely beautiful tonight."
" Thank you. You look very handsome tonight as well."
" I am glad I tried on about 6 suits until I found this one." I could feel him laugh through my hand on his chest
" I want to thank you."
" For what?"
" After our visit at the stables today, I realized how much I truly do love horses. I have decided I want to start a horse rescue."
He looked at me with so much passion in his face and eyes and I could tell it meant a lot to him, but I didn't know why.
" Thats amazing. I believe you would be the most perfect person to do that."
" Really? Thank you."
" Your very welcome. Honestly, I feel like I didn't do anything specifically. I just thought you were so beautiful and had so much love for them. I seen it all over you. Well, I guess you can teach me to ride and what I can do to help."
" You would do that?"
" Of course. I enjoyed seeing you smile and the way you looked at them. I would like to help you."
We got a little closer together. I could feel his chin against the side of my forehead. He smelled so good. His body felt so right, so close to mine. His warmth was just the amount of warmth a female needs. I slowly move my hand over his chest and glide it against his shoulder onto his neck and rest my hand against the back of his neck. He pulled me closer. My head was now against his shoulder and his neck.
I can hear his heart beating faster. My heart was doing the same. He rests the side of his face against my head. A few silent minutes later, both of us just enjoying each other's company. Enjoying the closeness of one another. The song comes to a stop and another faster pace one begins. I raised my head off of his body and for a moment we just looked at each other, still close to one another, our hands placed in the same location as we were dancing. For that moment, I didn't care that others were in the room. I was focused on this man in front of me, one that I wanted to share everything with. One that I wanted so badly to kiss, but it was too soon.
" We should..." I whispered
"What?" he says in a whisper back I could tell he wanted to kiss me as badly as I did him.
" We should..." I whispered again. It felt like I was in a trance as we just stared at one another. I couldnt find any words. I couldnt stop staring at him.
" Just kiss already." Jennifer says behind me
She startled us both. I guess there were others in the room besides me and him. I pulled a little further away.
" I am going to go sit down." I said nervous even though I tried to hide it.
I walked off the dance floor to the drinking station, got a sweet tea and sat at the table. What am I doing? What is he doing? What is wrong with me? He smelled so good. His body was so perfect with mine. Oh my god, snap out of it. As I sat sipping my tea, trying to pull myself away from the thoughts I was having.
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