Asmo's Love

Somehow

And no way, is he going to keep me hanging like this anymore. He just made me feel more irritated and antsy.

"What is left there that I must give now?" I demanded with vehement agitation. "What do you want me to do?"

The annoying specimen just gave me a conceited smirk, not even daring to speak.

I swear the very menacing deception he just lured me into had me insufferably commit to something I have yet to know and it’s infuriating. And now, getting an unsatisfying result from his own mouth, I'm beginning to really see a different perspective of how bad my dreams are turning out. I'm starting to really get much edgier and more desperate just to level with his growing indefinite standards. Maybe he has been just toying with me all this time and I was only, to some degree, just another victim to his mere enjoyment. But considering it true, I still would never back down now like some total fool only to let him get away from this unreasonable agreement unless I finally get something valuable in return.

And for that matter, disparaging everything else for something I can hold onto as reassurance will be of no sweat as long as it gets me somewhere. I had already signed up for this, long before it had even become inexplicably absurd with him, and I don't have any plans to turn my back from this anymore.

I need to do something.

"Hard work," Leo just repeated back as I confidently met his intense gaze. "Figure out how to work on your patience. Maybe that could finally work something out."

"Fine. I'm on it," I agreed with a huff, taking anything I could ever get at this point. I can work the patience if that's what he's asking. And again, I don't really have any plans to surrender now.

"What's the plan then?" I asked instead, with eagerness.

"Seduce your clients," he frankly cited. It didn't even faze me at all.

"Who exactly are we talking about here?"

I was already prepared to wherever this was heading. I no longer feel any hesitations reproaching me. I kept my eyes straight towards his in a steady feud. He equated the feeling as the heat rose up into the atmosphere between us.

"Saturday, seven pm. A private party at Red Diamond," he confirmed, "Wear my brand and be my plus one. We'll fish for a bigger port. And that will only follow through if you are still on with this."

"I already said it," I spoke in strong affirmation, "There's nothing keeping me back. I'll be there with you."

"Good."

As soon as we closed the deal on that note, the photoshoot was finally over for the day. I immediately left the mansion, taking a cab back home while still thinking about the conversation with Leo. I knew I was treading towards an even more dangerous path now but I still kept a blind eye from it for the promising possibility that my ambitions will soon finally meet positive results. My selfishness has begun its control over my irrational conclusion and I no longer feel any guilt from it.

For some reason, it's starting to turn into a much more complicated situation. And as if on cue, my phone started vibrating within my hold with Colin's name flashing on my screen. I almost hesitated to answer but still picked my it up against my ear and took the call just after the second ring.

"Hey," his voice welcomed me in a warm fuzzing comfort from the other end and I try to let it drive the aggravating stress off of my head, "You still at work?"

"No," I said back, "I'm on my way home now."

"Oh," he replied in a casual note, "Then I'll start preparing dinner now. How's the photoshoot going?"

"Same old, same old. I kept posing like a total diva again. And of course, it tired me out like it always does but it was still fun."

His chuckles reverberated into my ear upon my answer and I tried to let the sound soothe me more.

"Then, wanna tell you something even more amusing?" He asked all of a sudden.

"What do you have in mind?"

"We've just gotten a spot at Evangeline's pub on Saturday. She phoned me a while ago and asked for our appearance. Who would have thought, huh? Maybe it's time you'd finally show up to her. The old woman has been dying to see you again. She pestered me with her whining the whole call, you know."

I closed my eyes, swallowing the evident guilt growing inside chest. Of all the days it should be, why Saturday?

"I can't," my whispered rejection came out like a punishment to my wounded conscience. I gulped in regret and Colin took a second to take in my response.

"What do you mean you can't? Why?"

"I have a schedule on Saturday evening," I partially lied, "It's some meeting with the people for the project."

"In the evening? On a weekend?" The incredulity in his voice had me biting my lip in depressing regret.

"Yeah," I uttered back, mentally hitting myself on the head.

Colin sighed loudly from his end and I could even imagine his frowned expression as he tried to think over his next words. Then after a moment, he finally spoke again.

"Okay," he dejectedly replied, "If it's work then I can't really force you anymore. Too bad though, Evangeline really wants to see you."

"I know," I said in deep remorse, "I'm sorry."

"It's okay," Colin quickly refuted. "I understand. She'll understand. It's not like you're avoiding her or anything. Maybe this is not just the right time yet."

His words slowly stabbed me as I kept an awful silence from my end.

"So, I'll wait for you here then. I love you."

I almost teared up as I kept on with the lie. "I love you too."

The call ended in a click. My heart slowly broke into pieces, piercing a heavy cut deep into my chest. Karma is totally a b***h. And now, it seemed like I have to keep lying more to Colin.

Yet despite this appalling truth sinking in, I still don't feel any intention of ever giving it up anyway.

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