Heartbroken and Still Pissed

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With the faces of childen who's innocence once defiled  They unleash upon me what was once wrought to them by my hands Sliced open they proceed to bathe in my blood, devouring the intestinal tract Such pleasure they have in my pain Much pleasure it brings me as my c**k begins to stiffen The sweet sensation of blood and organs surrounding my d**k makes me c*m  As the maggots dig their way into my testicles Angel Splitter  So today's the second last day before I have to go back home though Mum and Cam insist we spend this day on souvenir shopping.  Every now and then my mind will tick back to Luke, but he has been a bit distant lately and I think what he and his Dad were talking about, had something to do with it. I feel upset that I'm leaving soon and he hasn't made any attempts to answer my text messages or even the couple of phone calls. But I gave up after the third time, no point bugging someone who clearly doesn't want to be. Only I brush it all off in favour of spending the good remaining days I have with my family, like it should have been instead of Jake coming and ruining it.  I admit, it kind of hurts that I was Luke's pass time until he got bored with me. Who knows if he is even still in town? He could be with his mum for all I know considering he and his dad aren't seeing eye to eye at the moment.  Luke was right about one thing though, the town really is small due to the diner we just passed happens to be the one Luke's mum took us to. It doesn't take long for the memories to come flashing back and ones of me standing outside on the phone to Lucy.  Brushing away the recollection for now when we finally call it a day, we end eating lunch same restaurant we came to the first night we came here. Even when we enter the restaurant my eyes snag straight on the door that lead me to my first encounter with Luke, the events feeling like yesterday regardless of how many days actually passed.  "You okay Em; you've been quiet all day." Mum points out as Cam disappears to get the drinks for the four of us.  "Yeah, just a little tired is all, but I'm fine considering the fun I've had today has managed to keep me going." I lie, yet I'm too distracted by the fact that Luke still hasn't replied to my messages.  Like how hard is it to say he's okay? I'm sure he's found loads of ways around not being able to reply because of no credit, so he shouldn't even think about trying that one on me or I will legit punch him in the d**k.  "Good, then maybe when we get home we'll be able to have a nap until it's time for dinner. I think Cam wants to take us out because apparently we haven't explored the town much." she explains while Cam returns with our drinks and Mum and Lucy locked in deep conversation as to what they want to do.  "How are you feeling about the whole Jake thing?" Cam quizzes in a murmured tone so it's only between us.  "Fine, pissed that he didn't have the balls to tell me what he did but also happy that he did a runner on Kimmy. I feel that she deserves that considering she tried to play the whole "she didn't know I was with him" bullshit." I sigh with an eye roll, Cam snorting in disgust when the waitress asks for our orders and menus.  Once that is over, we again delve into the subject about Jake, his parents and the junkies that went with them.   "I just don't understand why the parents would need backup, it's not like I would have attacked Jake if he had of came clean and told us he f****d up." Cam frowns as he tries to keep his cool in the restaurant.  "Look, let's not worry about it anymore. What's done is done; he's clearly got a lot of growing up to do like his parents. There was nothing I could have done to stop him from going down that path." I sum up the matter, everyone taking that as the cue to drop it though mum still shoots me a sympathetic smile and hand squeeze.   "Love you baby girl, don't you forget that." she whispers near my ear when our orders start to come, her hand now on my arm in a way as if to say she knows.  "Love you too." I get over the lump in my throat with a smile forced to smother the tears further.  Turning my attention onto the meal before me, I find myself un-attracted to what it has to offer and force myself to eat when they start to notice I haven't touched anything, my mind too consumed with the thoughts of Luke and Jake.  I loved Jake and I am now starting to love Luke if that's even possible, like I don't think I feel for Jake this hard and not hearing back from Luke seems to be weighing more on my mind than Jake cheating on me, and leaving me for his unplanned child.  By the time we finish our meals, we head back to the cabins then part ways and the mission of watching TV with Lucy when we get into our cabin. "Alright, well we love you too and will see you when dinner comes around." they both inform while giving us hugs and kisses then leaving. With that Lucy and I advance to the couch and switch the TV on, nothing of interest to me only I stay to enjoy the company of Lucy seeing as how I'm old news to Luke. Ugh.  Did I push things too far by letting him have me, I mean I did just end things with Jake, does he think I'm easy or something? It's not like we f****d on the first night, but maybe still it was too early for him. Oh my God did I push him to have s*x with me? Was I too forward with my actions that he didn't know how to let me down easy, so he just let it happen anyway?  That or he knows I was listening in to the conversation he was having with his father...  More of those thoughts run through my head up until around six o'clock, do I get a message from him. A name I have been waiting for, for what feels like the second century rolling by now, and sending all sorts of crazy emotions running through me.  Opening it with shaky hands and forgetting that Lucy is beside me, I'm washed with a sense of reprieve when he updates me that there was a family issue he had to take care of, but he should be around soon to talk about some things as to why he has been gone for so long.  I want to slap myself for thinking it was me, yet you can't blame me for being like that because I'm starting to think that it was me that forced it to end between Jake and I. Only I want to believe that it wasn't considering who would want to think they were the sole issue?  Pushing all thoughts to the back, I turn to the task at hand and that's replying with an apology for seeming like a stalker and whatnot as well as telling him to take his time.  Just when that message is read, Mum and Cam come strolling into the room with large smiles and faces full of energy from their much needed nap, my mind clicking to when I remember that mum and Cam want to explore the town tonight and see what it has to offer. Thanks to the tourist season, we're able to see more of the town than what the locals are used to seeing, so some of these tourists we're going to be mingling in with might very well be locals.  So gearing up and reporting to Luke what's going on, I can't beat the nerves of excitement when I finally get to see Luke tonight, something I've sort of longed for when you think about it. Jumping into the car with everyone appreciating a random topic of discussion all the way into town with me joining in every now and then, yet automatically seem to be lost once again in texting Luke what the plans are so far. Parking the car somewhere up the street our gazes observe a local festivity going on, Mum and Cam deciding to jump out and have a squiz with Lucy and I in tow.  My head is constantly turning to take in the flashing coloured lights in shape of swords, toy guns, stuffed teddies and aromatic smells of mouth-watering food.  The more I soak in the more the place seems to open up, the live band pumping tunes from my Mum's generation though it doesn't stop me from gently bopping along. I mean it's no Whitechapel but it's better than nothing.  Getting a text letting me know Luke will be joining me in the town's monthly festival of where people come to see the live bands, as well as enjoy the food, rides and view in general that they have to offer, I'm automatically giddy all over again with my adrenaline sharpening all of my senses. So informing Mum and Cam all about it, they ask how I know before making up some bullshit excuse of overhearing it from a few people behind us.  Breathing easy, I get a text telling me that Luke's here, my heart leaping into my throat as I text Lucy what's going on with me and Luke.  "Mum, I've got to go to the toilet." Lucy announces when I go to open my mouth with the same excuse. "Okay, but take Emily with you and text us when you're done, Cam and I are just going to have a look around." Mum instructs, Lucy and I bobbing our heads then taking off into the direction of the toilets.  "Hey girls, come here for a minute!" Cam calls as my insides lock up a little and my mind goes straight to him knowing about Luke and knowing that he's here. "You might as well have a look around yourselves. Just give me or your Mum a text message when you're done having a look around and doing what you want to do." Cam suggests when we approach him and Mum again, after what seems like a quick conversation between the two and lingering glance back and forth.  "Alright sweet, we'll see you later." I grin, Mum and Cam matching our smiles then wishing for us to have a good time and goodbye.  Gaining the feeling of tonight's going to be a great one, I add that to the already giddy feeling I've had since speaking to Luke, and make progress towards the toilet blocks.   "So you okay with me meeting up with Luke?"  "Yeah, but I actually do have to pee though."  Laughing we eventually make it, though I have to wait what feels like forever for Lucy to finish so I'm able to continue my destination to Luke. Like the entire time I feel awkward when people will walk in and stare at me with wondering eyes, I'm automatically relieved from my station as Lucy exits the toilet then washes her hands while passing me the duty of leading the way. "Emily!" a male calls out, my head snapping into the direction of the yelling guy and seeing Luke grinning at me when he walks over, people casting him quick glances as well as me then going about their business. "Hey, it's good to see yo-" though he cuts me off with a kiss, one that takes both Lucy and I by surprise considering it is so unexpected. Like Lucy doesn't even know where to look right now and I'm looking everywhere but Luke, due the eyes I now feel burning into me.  "Alright, good to see me too." I re-try, Luke laughing while turning to Lucy with an extended hand and goofy grin, which Lucy happily matches.  I'm so glad that Lucy and Luke are able to have the friendship they have, even if they do see each other every now and then, they act like they saw each other yesterday and something she never did with Jake. "How you going mate?" "My God, not this s**t again. I'm fine fucktard, how are you?" "Great, offended, but great. I see you've kept her alive for me while I was gone." "Barely." "Lucy! Shut up!" I intervene with a nudge to her side when we continue to stride our way around the unexplored parts of the festival.  "Oh come on, it's no secret that you like me." Luke teases.  "Don't flatter yourself, you mistake it for niceness." I shoot back with a dry yet fake smile. "Well, that's not what I was picking up the other-" "You even finish that sentence and I will f*****g stab you." I cut in with a deadly look, Lucy poking her head out from the other side of Luke with a devilish smirk. "Don't you start!" I warn and point a finger in her direction. "Hey, I'm not saying anything!" Lucy declares in surrender, her hands raised in a gesture as if she did nothing of harm.  Running a hand down my face, I forget how relieving the feeling was without the piercings hanging out of my face, and rolling my eyes in defeat.  "I'm done with the both of you; now let's go and do something fun before I die of boredom." I sigh, Luke and Lucy taking this opportunity to hang a little more s**t on me and doing what I suggested.  "Well in saying that, I actually came here to tell you that I have also invited a few of my friends. You know, the ones I was telling you about and how you would get along with them." he informs me when Lucy is off getting a drink.  "Really, are they here now?" I squeak while roaming my eyes around.  Are they watching me look for them? Or am I completely covered by the large crowd of people surrounding me? Either way, now that he has said that I can't overcome the feeling of being watched.  "Yes, but they are waiting for me to give them the signal to come on over and join you and your sister." "Would they mind if Lucy hung around?"  "If she is anything like you, which she is in some aspects considering I know the both of you are close, then she'll be fine." "Good, because here she comes." "What, do I have to tell her?" "Yep." "Tell me what?" Lucy questions hesitantly as she approaches us with her drink, a little bit of sadness creeping in when the thoughts of me ditching her to be with Luke, surfaces on her face.  "I was wondering if you and your sister would like to hang out with me and my friends. I think even you will have a good time there." he explains, the look of sadness wiping from her face while one of happiness takes its place.  So I was right, she thought I was going to ditch her. I don't think I would because if I did want to ditch her, then I would have made her go back to Mum and Cam on her own. But I like having Lucy around just as much as Luke, so why get rid of one when I can have both to have a good time with?  "Sure, where are we going?" she asks when she too looks around for them. "Nowhere, they are here at the festival and are waiting for me to give them the heads up to join." he re-explains, he and Lucy sharing a weird smile that has me even laughing before joining in as their eyes land on me.  "So that's a yes?" Luke clarifies, both Lucy and I sharing one last quick glance then nod in agreement. "Good, I shall let them know." he beams while jumping straight onto his phone.  Doing that my own phone sets off, my brows furrowing together as I try and make out the digits coming up on the screen, but come out empty handed considering the number is unknown to me and it isn't Kimmy because I blocked her number, I can only imagine who it might be.  "Hello?" I squeak, my mind still racing when I try and figure out the person by the ragged breath on the other end of the line.  "Is this Emily?" the elderly sounding woman demands on the phone. "Yes, who is this?" I frown, my tone becoming crisp when anger starts dripping into it.  "This is Jake's Grandmother, is he still with you?" she drops on me as if a bomb has just gone off right in my face. "No, he left with his parents a few days ago, his girlfriend Kimmy called me asking me where he was." I put plainly, my eyes rolling at the name Kimmy before I'm shaking my head.  She senses my bitterness towards Jake's name and Kimmy's, the other end going silent after she clears her throat. "Well I'm sorry to hear that but I was only calling because they were meant to be back days ago like my daughter told me, though they haven't returned and I haven't been able to try and reach them. I just thought maybe you would have something-" "I don't, I'm sorry but I don't. The last time I saw Jake was when I caught him with his parents talking about leaving me, though I was attacked that night and woke up hours later in the woods, so I assume it was one of the friends of your daughter's she brought up with her and her boyfriend Burt. I don't think I was meant to see what I saw and now I have a lump on my head for it. So to sum it up I don't know where Jake and that are but by all means, ring the Police if you think it's necessary, I won't hesitate to tell them what I just told you." I intervene in a firm tone, my gaze casting around and eventually bringing me back to where I am as I see Lucy and Luke staring at me with confusion and worry in play, on their faces.  Flapping my hand in a way to tell them everything is fine, I return to what the woman has to say and discover her speechless.  "That won't be necessary, only I will keep that in mind if they don't come back. I know my daughter is known for taking off for days on end, I just don't understand why they would leave Riley behind." she sighs while her voice shakes, my eyes rolling when all I want to do is forget that Jake left me, yet something tells me I won't be witnessing the ass end of this for a while. "Okay, again sorry for not being more helpful, that's all I know." I round up while feeling it coming towards the end of the conversation.  "Thank you for your time, it's more than I knew." she voices in a gentle tone after a long pause and hanging up, surely leaving me wondering where the f**k did Jake actually go.  I then start to think maybe I should have told her that Jake got his latest girlfriend pregnant and that is most likely the thing he is keeping himself well hidden, from.  "So, what the f**k was that about?" Lucy demands as we begin making our way towards where Luke's friends are meant to be emerging from.  "Jake's Nan, she was asking if I'd seen Jake but told her that he went back home days ago." I shrug casually, though it still leaves a sting knowing what he did was f*****g spineless and horrid, yet I'm the psycho moody cunt. Okay, cool. "You alright?" Luke asks slowly when we come to a halt altogether. "Yeah, just annoyed how everyone thinks I know where he is. Then again he was seen with me last." I grumble before lightening the mood with a bright smile when Luke announces his friends are finally here.  "So this one here is Molly and her boyfriend Matt." he introduces the first couple, Molly a short girl like me yet a few inches taller. Her eyes are an incredible ocean blue and wheat gold hair, semi-pale skin and hair cut short as well as up in a small bun to reveal her undercut.  Thick boots, jeans and heavy jacket clad her curvy form, her cheeks read from the cold air only we're blessed with a steady breeze. Great, add frostbite to the list of things I hate about the snow.  Her boyfriend Matt on the other hand stands a few inches taller than her with faint alabaster skin, messy chocolate brown hair and matching eyes a shade lighter.  He's built as if he does some type of heavy lifting, but not to the point where it's like body builder, and probably the second built person in the group Lucy and I now hang with.  He too is attired in heavy boots, thick looking tracksuit pants and thick coat, all dull colours apart from Molly who seems to be wearing everything but black and grey.  "That's also Rado as you have met before and Craig, Tim, Harley and Jacob but we call him Ballsmash." he explains further, my face twisting up in confusion then shoots me a look as if to say he'll explain later. All their faces look familiar, all clothed in warm attire and looking a little drunk if you ask me honestly.  "So you must be Emily, I've heard so much about you because Luke won't shut up." Molly greets while she comes over to give me a hug and flinging Luke a wink in his direction.  "Yeah, and really?" I question with a smile desperately trying to turn into a grin.  "Definitely, and who's this one?" she asks while pointing to Lucy.  "That's my sister Lucy." I supply when she walks over and delivers Lucy a bone crushing hug. "Well it's a pleasure to meet the both of you. Now are you guys allowed to drink? Will your parents get annoyed because Luke kind of gave us a run dow-" "Emily, Lucy!" I pick up the dreaded voices of Mum and Cam, both Lucy and I freezing up along with some of the people in the group before we turn around and answer their summons. "We'll be back in a sec." I murmur in a faint shaky tone as I wait for an ass handing from both Mum and Cam.  "Okay Lucy, go along with what I say, I have an idea." I blurt in a hiss and flurry of words while on our way towards them.  "No worries, I have no f*****g idea what to say." she laughs nervously to make it look like we aren't up to something and having a casual conversation.  "You guys okay?" I smile casually even though Mum and Cam seem a little annoyed.  "Who are they; because I'm pretty sure some of them were the guys at the restaurant the first night we came here." Cam rounds just as we're almost a foot away from them. "You know the short girl and the tall guy over there." I state and throw my head back in their direction. "Yeah." Mum and Cam voice in unison.  "Well they both catch mine and Lucy's bus to school but they don't go to our school, they go to that TAFE up the road from mine and Lucy's school. Well anyway, they too are on holiday up here like us and she wanted to come back to her home town for it." I go on, my mouth surprising myself when it flows with the words of a small yet well thought of lie while my stare takes in their expressions the whole time.  How I feel so comfortable with lying about this is beyond me, but then again I guess it's because the only one I know and feel comfortable around with is Luke, which means I trust that he will get both Lucy and I out of dangerous situations, if the time called for it. "It's true; we only talk to them on the bus if we get bored on the way home." Lucy adds with my smile widening in relief more than anything, when they give the both of us their infamous eyeball that lets us know we're off the hook. "Alright, well how do they know them guys from the-"  "Molly went to school with him, as kids before her parents decided to split and move down towards where we are. Crazy small world isn't it?" I chuckle as Mum and Cam both nod and take it all in, only to exchange looks and silent conversation moments after.  "Alright, so what do you guys want to do from here? I mean this is your last night, well second last night, so might as well make it the best one since the bullshit we've copped in the past week and a bit." Mum declares with eyes landing on me, at the last part of her sentence.  "Not just that, the girls can always call us when they're ready to come home. Besides we can go and grab them if they aren't able to get back." he suggests, Mum nodding while she agrees further on the matter.  "As long as you girls don't think we don't want you around, we just want you to have as much fun as possible." Mum explains with a sad smile when we all realise that we have not done much together, but the times we did share, are the ones I will always remember.  "We know, and we have enjoyed ourselves considering it's helped me get out of school for a bit and Emily with her Jake situation." Lucy smiles, both Mum and Cam giving us hugs and kisses before we're let go. "I'm so sorry about that, we were just giving them a rundown on what's happening tonight." I update in a flurry of words as the group all turn around with large smiles. "All good, so what's the verdict?" Luke asks when he emerges out from his taller friends.  "We're allowed to hang out with you guys, but they didn't mention about staying on the grounds of the festival. Meaning if we can find ourselves back home then they don't mind." I inform while everyone commences the chatter again and doing what they were doing prior to us leaving. "Awesome, well lets hit the piss and have a good night then." Matt states and grabs two drinks then passing it to the both of us new comers.  "Thank you." Lucy and I squeak shyly, Luke chuckling at how in sync we are sometimes then finding his hand slipping into mine.  This feels right, like I should be here along with Lucy who too seems to be having the time of her life laughing with Rado and Molly. I mean I don't think Mum or Cam would care if Lucy and I ended up moving out together, as long as she had Rory with her, I think she'd live anywhere I dragged her. "What did you say to give them that much trust in us?" Luke murmurs as our group start exiting the festival grounds and into unmarked territory. Well for Lucy and me, we're putting our complete trust in these people to get us back safely. Not me though, I'm more concerned about Lucy than anyone else here tonight.  "I told them that Molly and I catch the same school bus together and that she's here on holiday like me." I beam before looking behind me to double check Mum and Cam aren't watching, grab his wrist and stop mid-walk to give him a kiss.  Peering over at Lucy I observe she's already enjoying herself, laughing and carrying on with Luke's mates and confirm that taking Lucy was the best thing. She doesn't get out much and when she does, she knows how to party. That and I want more bonding experiences with her if I do move out into my own place. I love home and my parents, but sometimes they drive me to the point of jumping off a cliff. No offence guys. Sorry. 
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