Trap Queen

18

Last night kept replaying in my head as I got ready for my visitation with Skull. I feel like s**t and you can literally see it in my face but I just hope he can't.

I finished flat ironing my hair and put on my white Ralph Lauren snap back that matched my white Ralph Lauren shirt both with pink horses and white Nikes with the pink shoe strings and plain blue skinny jeans. I looked simple but it was cute.

I looked on my dresser for my REAL diamond studded ear rings I got myself for my birthday and I couldn't find them. I knew they could only be one other place. I marched upstairs and to Tay's room. I banged on the door then backed away. After a few seconds go by and I still didn't hear no noise, I banged again this time the door snatched back.

I looked in the face of a half-sleep and half-naked Tyshawn. I looked past him and Tay was basically dragging her head from off the bead as if it was too heavy.

"So you and this Puerto Rican muthafucka think y'all can break our hearts then just come back and we fall back into your arms?" I asked now mad that's what just happened.

"What you want?" He asked rudely and then I remembered I hates him.

"Not you muthafucka this is the door that belong to my f*****g sister not yo raggedy ass" I stated rolling my neck.

"Well who answered the muthafuckin door?" He questioned as he rolled his neck to mock me.

I rolled my eyes and pushed by him. At first he made me struggle then let me fall through. I stumbled at first but then regained my balance. I turned around and mugged him before I continued my journey to my disoriented sister.

"Where my earrings at?" I questioned looking everywhere.

I noticed I didn't get a response and looked back over to her. Her head was still down as if she was struggling to hold it up. I walked over to her and grabbed her face by her chin then made her look up at me. At first she was looking then her eyes went crossed then closed. I let go of her chin and he whole head went crashing into the bed.

"Did you drug my f*****g sister?" I asked pissed off.

"b***h get the f**k out my face with that bullshit she just f****d up" he stated back.

"What?" I questioned taken aback he just called me a b***h.

"You heard me" he said harshly "get what you came to get and get the f**k out"

"Listen I don't know who the f**k you think i am or thought I was but you not gon keep disrespecting me" I stated with my finger pointed at him and I walked closer and closer until my finger was in his face.

"Move" he warned but I was livid so I ignored him.

Next thing I know he grabbed my wrist and waist then pushed me up against the closest wall. "Stop f*****g with me Malaysia" he stated sternly.

"Nigga I ain't never been scared of you" I lied.

Me and Tyshawn used to date like forever ago. He was abusive as f**k but I always fought back. One day he sent my 16 year old ass home with a black eye and daddy seen it and went ballistic. He made me take him and his crew where he lived and everything. They shot the whole s**t up only shooting him once and killing his brother and he ended up coming to the house, shot it up and ended up killing my father and my family and I hated this mothafucka ever since.

"When did I ask you to be?" He stated through gritted teeth.

"What's going on?" I heard Tay say.

Tyshawn jumped from me but when we looked at her she was still laying down.

"I was looking for my earrings" I stated then mugged him then exited without even looking for my earrings no more.

I went into my room, got my keys and phone then dipped out. The whole hour and 45 minutes was silent, not even music was playing, as I rode down to the prison.

I finally got there and my hands were sweating real bad, I had to put phone in my pocket just so it wouldn't drop. I got in, signed in and waited. For a whole 30 minutes I sat and waited.

"You look scared" some old lady said with a slight chuckle as she sat across from me waiting on her prisoner. I returned with a sly grin as they called out Skull' s name.

"Trayvon Del Rio" the officer called out after 3 other names and I stood along with the creepy lady.

Skull came out looking sexy as ever which only made me feel worse. How could I do this to him? Why would i? You haven't even thought about Rico since you met this muthafucka? What's wrong with you?

As he got closer, a question came with every step. I felt my heart get heavy and tears weld up then he finally hugged me. All the tears poured out as I melted into his arms.

He let me go and smiled as he wiped my tears. He may have thought they were happy tears but they are tears of regret.

We sat and talked but the entire time I was zoned out thinking should I tell him? Should I not? What if he already know and just waiting for me to say something?

"Malaysia!" He yelled.

"Huh?" I stated dumbfoundedly.

"What's the matter baby?" He asked as he grabbed my hands and I could feel it start to reveal in my eyes so I looked away "No look at me"

At first I was stubborn but my neck started to get a crick in it so I looked at him "what you been doing?" He asked with eyes that told me he knew so I couldn't lie.

"I'm so sorry" I repeatedly stated now breaking down.

"You good" he said and my tears stopped. I sniffled and looked at him like he lost his mind. "Just don't worry bout me winch let me rot" and with that he got up.

He didn't even look back he just walked away leaving me at the table. I wiped my tears and looked around to look in the face of that old lady again. She gave me apologetic eyes as if she just seen everything go down.

"Mind yo f*****g business you old fart" I stated sourly as I got up and exited the prison. This can't be life.