I'm A Dream

Vivid

"Its raining its pouring its four in the morning"

I wake up cold but covered in sweat, heart racing, it takes me awhile before I realize that I'm not still against that door, that I'm okay, that I'm alone. I breathe, trying to slow my heart down, I would probably be shaking for the next few hours. I hate the dreams, I dont have them often but when I do they keep me on edge, they are the memories that no matter how hard I try I can never ever block out or forget. I forget 75% of my childhood, but that night is the one that stays with me forever.

Its the first day of school and I dont want to miss my bus so I quickly get ready and then go back to bed for a few minutes before I have to go, who decided that school starts at six in the morning anyway? I could already tell it was going to be a long day.

"it might not be to bad" tate says, "maybe you'll have fun." tate is like my big brother, he is always there for me and supports me no matter what, I love him and he means well but he doesn't know public school. "I highly doubt that"

"go eat child, ill just be sitting in here waiting" I feel him fade from my mind, characters do that, they will just fade but usually they give me a warning at least.

I go grab an oatmeal creame cookie and go wait for the bus. I get on and we drive for over an hour, I dont mind, I just space out and dream when I get on the bus. My body is tired but by now my mind is wide awake so I lay on the seat, eyes closed......

"So your..... a wolf...." Mr. Jeffries says as I sit next to him at the bar. "can I get two shots of whiskey please? thank you sweetheart. yes, kinda. Its a little more complicated than that"

"when were you... you know... bitten?" Hes shaking and scared of me, but I cant resist the urge to chuckle "thats even more complicated. jana, ryhdian and maddi were born this way, I wasn't but I want bitten. I was given a serum."

"like tom." I look down and take my shots "Can I show you something?" He nods somewhat reluctantly. "follow me." we walk down to my hotel and go in my room "what are you going to do to me?" I can sense the fear in his voice "im going to show you something"

lex? lex?? LEX!

I snap out of it, the bus is practically empty, me and three other kids were left. I quickly grab my things and get off, I dont know who was calling my name, nobody there knew who I was, it might have just been a dream, my subconscious knowing it was time to get off the bus. I walk into the school and the day begins. I was dreaming about kodi on the bus, he has a hard life, there is a lot of pain and loss, I hate seeing him go through that. I feel guilty, I should be able to just not think those things but I cant. there's no control its more like watching a movie, sometimes it plays randomly, sometimes others turn it on and sometimes I turn it on, but I can never really truly decide whats going to happen, my brain does that for me.