My Little Mate: The White Wolf

CHAPTER FOUR

Did I even have an idea where I wanted to go right now?

I can't go back to that house, at least not now. I needed to clear my head. Rushing out of the hall, I looked up to see the dim light of dusk, the sun had already set.

My lips stretched into a smile as I remembered my favorite spot, my personal den.

As I skipped my way to my den, I saw Maria and her clique. I tried to divert my direction just to avoid them, but I guess I was late.

"Our Luna," they said, mockery laced in their tones.

I could not explain why this small group of friends held so much resentment and jealousy towards me. Since I could remember, they resorted to hurtful tactics and plans just to break my spirit. It's either they whispered insults loud enough for me to hear when I walked past them or made sarcastic remarks during pack meetings, indirectly but directly insulting me. In the past, I had always tried my best to endure for peace.

I ignored this statement, brushing past Stephanie, one of the minions. She pushed me back saying, "Come back here, you filthy thing. Is it because you are mated to the Alpha? Newsflash baby girl, he'll reject you. Do you think he'll accept the idea of a mate whom her pack already deemed as weak?" At this statement, I shut my eyes in anger and pain.

"Yes, you are a weak and worthless lass. The earlier you get that, the better for you."

With a heart heavy filled with the memory of the day's event and all the hurtful words I had endured from my pack mates, I reflected on my life. Is this how I wanted to keep living all my life? Subdued and feeling vulnerable and isolated. At that moment, I decided to live as the Luna the moon goddess destined me to be, rejected or not.

A painful thud on my shoulder pushed me out of my thoughts.

"Are you dumb or what?"

And I answered her. Yes, I did. Or no, my fist did.

It all happened too quickly. One moment I was landing her the first punch, then a series of punches, and the next thing she was on the floor, beaten like a pulp. If it was my decision that made me do it or the accumulated emotions I felt, I couldn't tell.

I realized people had gathered when I looked up. Everyone looked dumbfounded. Why wouldn't they be though? They should better watch their back now because I'm done taking any bullshit from anyone. No one would make me feel doubtful of my self-worth, not anymore.

" All of you saw what just happened right? No one should step on my toes anymore or else you'll be in worse condition." I said, trying to sound confident, even though my insides were a mess.

After this, I continued my journey to my favorite spot; the waterfall. I had stumbled upon this hidden waterfall one afternoon after my dad had beaten me up. I had left the house to cry my eyes out and ended up exploring the outskirts of our territory. Since the moment I laid my eyes on this serene piece of nature away from the torments of my pack, I always came here each day.

On getting there, the cascading waters calmed me down as I found solace in my sanctuary. Reminiscing on the events of the day, I curled up in the den I created some time ago. Lying there, I watched the waterfall. I found solace in the darkness as I fell into a deep sleep.

Deep in my sleep, my body became alert as I heard the rustling of leaves and felt feet approaching the waterfall. I stood up immediately, already scenting my mate. What exactly did he want from me now? Part of me just wanted to run and hide as I didn't want to lay my eyes on him but a larger part of me yearned to know why he came looking for me.

As I sighted him, I noticed how he looked at me. With pity! I'm done with being pitied.

"Did you come to reject me? If that's your intention, please let's quickly do it." I scoffed.

I was met with silence as he stared at me with emotions I couldn't decipher. With each minute that passed, I got more pissed. "If you're not man enough to do it, I can do it."

With tears threatening to fall, I said with a shaky voice," I, Janice Carter reject __"

Before I could finish my statement, my mate shut my mouth with a kiss. My eyes fluttered as our lips met passionately - his lips were so soft and had a sweet vanilla taste on them. The slight stubble on his face tickled my face as our lips collided. I'd never kissed anyone before, so I wasn't sure if I was doing the right thing.

His cold hands that crept underneath my shirt brought me back to reality and I pulled away.

"We shouldn't be doing this."

"I'm sorry, Janice." Todd's voice was gentle, laced with regret.

"Please can we talk?"

"I suppose we could," I said, guarding my emotions.

Todd raised my face slowly, his eyes locked with mine. "I'm so sorry I second-guessed our bond because of our age difference. I'm sorry I realized late how important you are to me."

I couldn't help but feel angry at his words. "Important? How important I am to you. So it's all about the Luna position?"

"No, it's not my love."

"You know, you made me feel like my age was a flaw like I'm less worthy of the Luna position."

"I know and I'm sincerely sorry for that. I let my fears and insecurities get the better of me." He said, lowering his gaze.

"Alright, let's take it one step at a time," I said after I took a long pause to think.

Todd's face lit up with a smile at my statement and he dragged me into a comforting hug.

"Thank you, Janice. I know this won't be easy but I still want to try. Please don't give up on me."

As we stayed in each other's embrace I felt a glimmer of hope. Maybe our love and mate bond would conquer every obstacle we meet on the way.

"Why are you so lost in thought? Are you still thinking about the scenario earlier?" He asked, sounding worried.

"It's nothing."

He opened his mouth, no doubt to apologize and I did the first thing that came to my mind. I leaned up and kissed him, silencing him. He reciprocated, kissing me harder. I held onto him as I held his shirt tightly. My body was on fire as his hands moved around my body. I then slowly let my hand move down his chest as I felt his quickened heartbeat.

We pulled away, breaking the kiss to catch our breath.

"Damn, you're so cute." He whispered looking deeply into my eyes.

I blushed, clearly affected by his words. The feeling of rejection I had earlier, had disappeared and was now replaced with passionate feelings of lust.

"Uhm, thank you." I breathed out, not sure what to say.

"f**k!" Todd said, hitting the walls of the den.

"What? Is something wrong?" I said, shifting back. I was scared at the impact his punch had on the wall as it left a c***k.

" I'm sorry, freckles. Damn, I just want to make you mine." He muttered.

Looking into his eyes, I knew I was damned when I saw his alpha wolf had taken over.

As he came closer, I shifted back.

Was he about to mark me? Was he making me his?

I know I wanted this so badly but not this soon.

"Wait!" I screamed, in terror, making my heart beat fast.