Days went by feeling like eternities as Shane tried to explain to L.J what happened. She kind of felt like she wanted to forgive him but she felt insanely jealous. She will never be like the other girls. She was different and she didn't think that's what Shane wanted in a girl. She didn't want to forgive him, because she was scared he would reject her. She thought that this is the best for both of them, and she has set her mind on not letting him apologize to her.
"I don't deserve it" she mumbles as she shoves her face into her pillow, trying to rid her mind of all thoughts
