He Called Me Angel. Disaster Engagement Series Book 1 Free

Episode 8

He said Stefan is in his room with Chris. I can’t believe he left you on your own.” I took a deep breath “honestly I’m fine, I just got a fright tonight because that fan came out of no where” he just slowly nodded in agreement with me but when I looked up at him it felt like he could see into my soul and he knew that I was terrified and that I was deeply unhappy “it’s not just about tonight Lydia. I know you better than you know yourself. Are you happy with Stefan?” His question hung in the air between us. I didn’t want to tell him the truth because I felt embarrassed that I had entered into a relationship with someone that was basically only supposed to be a business asset to us. Fran was the driving force of the band although I gave most of input into the creative side he was the business mind behind it all. I don’t think that the Big Man had went to one meeting he just pulled the crowds of fans in with his good looks and charm and Chris was too much of a sweetheart to negotiate contracts he just showed up and played the piano or guitar. But Fran always took over all the business decisions and I loved him for it because without him we would have nothing. That’s why I was apprehensive to tell him that I didn’t want to be with Stefan any more. I thought that maybe he would have been angry with me for getting involved with an employee. I had enough bullshit on my plate and I didn’t want to piss off Fran so I just told him I was fine and just getting a little tired of the tour but I could tell by the look on his face that he didn’t believe me. “This tour has been pretty s**t” he said “ I miss the good old days” he let out a laugh “No offense but it isn’t the same with your boyfriend hanging about. I feel like we haven’t spent much time together, you know, just the two of us” and when I thought about it he was right and I had missed him. “Well there’s only two more weeks left and we can go home and get back to normal” he gave me a side ways smile “yeah hopefully you will feel better when we get home” I gave him a big smile. He looked really worried and he was still shuffling from one foot to another so I took both his hands and led him over to the bed to sit down before he wore out the carpet. I hated to see him so concerned “I will definitely feel better when we get home I promise” I decided there and then I didn’t care what anybody had to say about it, I was going to dump Stefan as soon as we got back to London. But I wasn’t ready to tell Fran that yet. I just had to be nice to Stefan for two more weeks, and that wasn’t going to be easy. Fran looked relieved and he hugged me. The door of the hotel room burst opened and it was Stefan. He was the drunkest I had ever seen him. “What are you doing in bed with my bird?” He snapped at Fran. Fran looked at me and laughed “we aren’t in bed you stupid bastard” he kept laughing but I didn’t want to join in. I didn’t want to antagonize Stefan in his drunken state. “What are you doing in here?” “If you must know I heard a loud noice like a wounded animal and wanted to make sure Lydia was okay” he must have heard me trying to cry and I was mortified “you shouldn’t have left her on her own” Fran stood up and went over to him. Stefan put his hands up “your right Franco. I’m sorry Angel I shouldn’t have left you alone I feel terrible” i wondered why he had such a change of heart then Fran said “I told you before if you don’t look after her I’m going to break your legs” that’s when I realized that he wasn’t really sorry he was just shitting himself from Fran. He didn’t care about me and the truth was I didn’t care about him any more and couldn’t wait for the tour to be over so I could dump him once and for all. The next day he apologized for leaving me alone after he had seen I was upset but I didn’t want to hear his excuses. We were over I just had to build up the courage to tell him. In the last few weeks of the tour I started to pull away from Stefan. I didn’t want to be anywhere near him. Chris had left the tour and went home and the Big Man said it was because Stefan had pissed him off. I tried to call Chris but he wouldn’t answer his phone and I was worried about him but I didn’t want to call his mum and dad because they were in Scotland and it would only have worried them that he was back in London on his own, so I called Stacey to call in on him but she said that she had seen him in the local pub the night before and he seemed fine. I was relieved but I still had my own s**t to deal with. Stefan could tell I wasn’t the same with him anymore and he started to turn nasty. He was constantly accusing me of sleeping with either the Big Man or Fran. I was exhausted with it by the end. His paranoia was always worse when he was drunk and the next day it would always be the same thing "I'm sorry Angel, I didn't mean it, i was jealous, please forgive me," it was the same old line and I was sick to the back teeth of it. The s*x had stoped altogether the thought of him touching me made me sick to my stomach and he was so drunk most nights he probably wouldn’t be able to perform anyway. After that boy had tried to kiss me the thought of having s*x with anyone made me sick. But I was still trying act at least a little normal in front of people because I didn’t want anyone to know just how bad things had got between us. I was just desperate for the tour to end so that we could go home. Then when we were nearly due to finish the tour and go back to London we were in Rome and I woke up in Fran’s bed. I must have passed out drunk. Fran was coming out of the bathroom "is everything ok honey, what time is it?" "No everything's not ok, Chris and your boyfriend have been smoking smack for the past few weeks, that’s why Chris was in a bad way and that’s why he disappeared. Gorgeous are you listening to me?" This was all too much to take in. I knew Chris was being quiet before he left but this was crazy. “Yes I’m listening but I've just woke up and I'm still really drunk. What time is it?" He looked at his watch “It's 5 o'clock" "at night?" I asked and stretched out. “no its morning" he said “why are you up and why am I here?” I asked looking around his hotel room. “I didn't want you in that bed beside him" I sat up with a fright. I had totally forgot about Stefan “so you put me in here, he's going to go nuts Fran!" I stood up and found my shoes and put them on frantically. "What are you doing? You're not going near him again. Lydia he's a junkie I don't want you near him," I ran to the door and stoped and turned to face him "Franco everything will be fine when we get home I promise" I ran along the long corridor and when I got back to our room Stefan was sitting up waiting for me. He was sitting drinking straight from the bottle and he looked furious "Stefan I'm so sorry I passed out drunk I just this second woke up and I ran straight here to see you" I was terrified he was going to kick off again. Mostly because it was a small hotel and I knew the Big Man was right next door. If the he would have heard Stefan shouting at me it would cause a war. He just looked at me "your nothing but a dirty slut" he was almost whispering, "what? why are you saying that?" I was so hurt by his words. "You know what you've done, I love you Lydia and you treat me like this!" I didn’t say anything I didn’t have the energy to have the same argument with him again. He stood up from his chair and grabbed me by the throat and slammed me up against the wall. "You think I’m stupid. I know your sleeping with both of them you little tramp, probably at the same time" I was terrified but not of Stefan, although he was so much bigger than me I was terrified that the Big Man heard him. "I'm not," I said " I promise I'm not. I wouldn't do anything like that" I whispered. "I love you Lydia but I can't have you sneaking into my bed after you've been sleeping with them" I was starting to get really scared, he was acting like a lunatic "stop being ridiculous, this is all in your head" he put his mouth up to my ear and said "I will kill you before I let them have you" I tried to push him away “please Stefan your scaring me" and then he just stood back away from me and took a deep breath. I was scared and when I looked in his eyes but he was gone, he was drunk or high and I didn't care what it was I needed to go to bed. I stood rubbing my neck where he had grabbed me and it hurt like hell “I think you should go, I need to sleep and I don't want you in here beside me" he just stared at me in the darkness and then he slapped me across the face. It was so hard and unexpected I let out a scream. It was silent between us, how could he do this, he's lost the plot. A second later the Big Man was banging on the door, I could hear him shouting "Lydia let me in, it's me Lydia let me in" I opened the door and the Big Man was standing in his boxers and a t shirts with his fists were clenched at his sides. "Big Man everything's ok, I'm just drunk and banged my toe!" He just looked at me then looked at Stefan he was staring at the floor. "Cool see you in the morning Gorgeous, night Stef" he walked back to his room and I closed the door. I was furious about what Stefan had done but I couldn't lose it and I couldn't have the Big Man coming back so I decided to be very calm "Stefan your a very lucky boy, I could have let him off his leash for what you just did to me and for the way you've been treating me, and believe me he would have f*****g killed you. If you ever insinuate that I am sleeping with the boys or if you lay a finger on me again I will let them cut you up" he just stood with his mouth opened staring at me, I had been nice up until now, but now I was pissed off. “I'm going to bed you little prick and you can sleep in the bathroom because I don't want to share oxygen with you" I climbed onto the bed and took off my dress and got under the covers. "Lydia where am I supposed to sleep?" "Sleep in the bath I hope you drown" "listen I'm sorry I shouldn't have hit you but I can't go on turning a blind eye to you sleeping with those two" I just let out a huge grown "you're demented, this is all in your head" I jumped up onto my feet and ran out the door. I was so angry and I could see the situation turning nasty between us so I had to get as far away from him as I could. But I should have put clothes on first, I was just standing in the hotel corridor in my black lace bra and thong and stockings I didn't even have any shoes on. I wasn't going back in there and I couldn't go back to Fran and admit Stefan was a prick so I just headed towards the Big Man’s room. As I knocked on the door I and could hear girls talking and laughing from his room, I knocked again, this time he answered and he looked pissed off and out of breath "what the f**k is it?” he shouted then he realized it was me "Lydia, f**k me you look amazing, are you ok?" I just shook my head "everything's s**t Big Man" he took both my hands "everything will be fine I promise" he shouted over his shoulder "right ladies you lot will need to go, something's come up" I looked up "no Big Man I'm ruining your night I feel terrible" he grabbed me into a hug and kissed the top of my head "you come first Gorgeous, actually that's my threesome motto” I let out a little laugh "two blondes barged by us and gave us both a dirty look "sorry ladies" he said and he dragged me into his room. As the women walked up the corridor they looked furious but he just closed the door. "What's wrong Gorgeous girl?" I was silent for a moment "it's Stefan, he's horrible" I buried my face into his bare chest and threw my arms around his neck. "What's he done Lydia?" Then I looked up at him, "he says I'm a slut that I've been sleeping with you and Fran, and that you two share me or something, he was so angry I'm scared of him" he was breathing really slowly and he gently grabbed my face so that I would look up at him "tell me the truth Lydia did he hurt you?" he looked furious and I knew I couldn't tell him what really happened "no, not really" "not really! what does that mean gorgeous?" I couldn’t take any more I was exhausted “I’m tired, can I sleep in here tonight I ran out without putting my dress back on" he gently stroked my hair "of course you can, let's get into bed." I was glad that he had stoped questioning me because I honestly didn’t know where to start. My head was banging and my neck hurt from when Stefan had grabbed me. “I'm sorry I ruined your night Big Man" he gave me a little kiss on the cheek "it's ok but you owe me a threesome" I let out a laugh. We got into bed and he lay on his back staring at the ceiling and I cuddled into his side. He had his arm around me and he was stroking my hair. It was quiet between us. He had put the light off and I felt the most relaxed I had felt in a long time. "Lydia did he hurt you?" I just ignored him, "he said you and Fran have s*x with me at the same time. How can he think that?" he just kept stroking my hair "you’re beautiful and kind and cool and you deserve better than some junkie” It was quiet again "did he hurt you Lydia?" He asked again I sat up and whispered "promise not to tell anyone" he nodded his head "he slapped me" his eyes where huge, but he very calmly said "I'm going to f*****g kill him" I stroked his bare chest “not tonight Big Man we can kill him tomorrow" then we just smiled at each other in the darkness "I love you Lydia" and it felt good to be with someone that really did love me “I love you too Jamie" he kissed the top of my head “I will never let anyone hurt you again" i cuddled into him and went to sleep.

Chapter 12

The next day I had to creep back into my room because I was only wearing the big mans tshirt. He wanted to come with me but I told him to give us some space. I didn't want to dump Stefan in front of the Big Man it would be so embarrassing. It was about 1pm and we didn't have a show that night, thank god, before I left the Big Man’s room I poured myself a large whiskey and drained every last drop for Dutch courage i couldn't face Stefan without it. As I opened the door I heard him jumping to his feet. "Angel is that you? I'm so sorry about last night please forgive me I feel terrible" i could hear the panic in his voice but I just stared at him. He stepped towards me as if he was going to give me a hug but I backed away "it's not just last night Stefan I don't think we are compatible" I just wanted this break up to be over with as quickly as possible "yes we are. I love you" he was deranged. How could he think this was a happy relationship? But I didn’t want to argue with him “yes we were good together when you’re sober" he nodded his head “your right, I'll stop drinking I mean it, I'll stop just please give me another chance" i shook my head “it's not just that Stefan the things you said last night, that I was a slut! It really hurt me, and constantly saying I'm sleeping with the boys it's exhausting I can't take it anymore" he rubbed his eyes really hard "aw Lydia where did you come from last night? from Franco's room?" I nodded my head "and where did you stay last night? In beside the Big Man? I can see you’re wearing his T-shirt" I nodded again "is it any wonder I'm constantly jealous? I feel like the piss is getting taking out of me. Franco trying to set me up with groupies and now he's saying I'm taking heroin with Chris it's all bullshit" i couldn't look at him I just stared at the floor. This was one big headache and I wanted it over and done with quickly "i suppose that's all true Stefan but you should never have slapped me" "I'm ashamed of myself angel, I promise I'll stop drinking but you need to think about me sometimes and how I feel" "Stefan I never meant to hurt you, but you did mean to hurt me when you lifted your hand to me" he took both my hands "Angel it will never happen again, please let me take you out for lunch so we can talk” I didn't see the harm in going to lunch with him because we were splitting up anyway and I supposed it would be better in a public place. "Okay we can go for lunch I just need to take a shower" he look relieved that I had agreed to go out with him "okay I will be waiting here" as I wondered into the bathroom I looked back at him. He looked so ashamed of himself I was actually beginning to feel sorry for him. That day and night was a total blur, we went for lunch and I drank a bottle of champagne because I was so nervous. I had never dumped any one before. Then the champagne was followed by whiskeys. Very large whiskeys. Then I can't remember much after that. We ended up having a wild bender. The next day we showed up at the stadium for the show. Stefan was the opening act so he went on first. It was the most drunk I've ever been in my entire life. We haven't slept in day’s. Stefan and I went into the dressing room and the Big Man and Fran were waiting for us, the Big Man jumped to his feet "Lydia I've been worried sick where have you been? why are you with him?” the Big Man looked pale and worried "listen Big Man, Franco you better sit down" they looked at each other "Lydia I am sitting down what's going on?” asked Fran "where's Chris he needs to hear this" Fran shook his head "he's went home ages ago, remember?” “Stefan and I are engaged look he got me a lovely ring and everything” the room was totally silent "aren't you happy for us" the two of them looked at each other in shock then looked at me. "Listen you two are being rude! You should congratulate us" then Stefan said "I need to go on stage I'll see you in a little while” and kissed me on the lips and it was a long lingering kiss. As soon as he stepped out the door Fran went in on me "what the f**k are you thinking? he's not right for you" I just let him say what they had to say. Fran was pacing the floor shouting and swearing and the Big Man just sat in his chair with his arms folded throwing in insults in every now and then. "Gorgeous we love you. We want what's best for you and that junkie isn't what's best," all I could say was "stay out of it" then the Big Man said "stay out of it? Lydia you were in bits the other night because of the things he's been saying about you and me and Fran and now your engaged to him it doesn't make sense" he was right but I was wasted. Stefans manager Barry came in, "Stefan has just announced on stage that you two are getting married" "he f*****g what?" Shouted Fran. "We aren't going on tonight no way she's too drunk, Chris isn't here and now he's out there shouting his mouth off" Barry obviously hadn’t seen this side of Fran before and he looked shocked “what do you mean your not going on?” said Barry "listen mate you and Stefan are our employees, so shut the f**k up" Barry just turned and left, the Big Man stood up and broke the fire alarm glass. Then the alarms were going off and the place was evacuated, the boys threw me into the back of the limo and took me back to the hotel. I woke up the next day in my own room and Stefan wasn't there. I had a dreadful feeling and the worst hang over. I got up and had a drink of orange juice from the mini bar, and decided to run myself a bath. I stepped in and let the bubbles surround me and I was feeling a lot better. I heard the door opening and thought it must have been Stefan "Gorgeous where are you?" It was Fran and he sounded angry. He came into the bathroom and stopped when he seen I was naked in the bath. Although he couldn't see anything for the bubbles he still looked a little uncomfortable "What have you got to say for yourself?" He shouted. "What have I done?" He laughed really sarcastically "we had to cancel the show because you were too drunk to perform, then you announced your engagement" "engagement to who?" I said with a laugh "You really don't remember? Your engagement to Stefan, congratulations gorgeous your marring an arsehole" i sat up straight I didn't care if he seen my t**s "are you being serious? Fran I took him out to dump him. Why did I drink so much. Oh Franco I'm so sorry about the show, I'm an i***t" he didn't know where to look, a smile broke out over his face then quickly disappeared "yes you are an i***t" "I'm so sorry" I put my head down and pouted my lips. After a second or two he managed to look at me. "listen don't worry, they thought it was a bomb threat or something" I felt awful for all those fans spending money to come and see us and then the show had to be cancelled because of me. then my mind went to Stefan. "Where is he, I need to tell him it was a huge mistake" "he's probably out looking at wedding venues. He announced it on stage last night, it's in every paper this morning and all over the internet" As he said it my head was spinning, I thought I was going to be sick "oh no I want to die" I said and I slipped back and put my whole head under the bubbles" Franco just laughed "come on Gorgeous don't be silly" and he put his hand into the water and pulled me out. I was only under for a second but I was already gasping for air. I need to stop smoking....and getting engaged to dickheads i thought to myself. "Lydia I'm happy you feel like this" I looked at him, was he being serious? “what you’re happy I'm suicidal?" He let out a laugh "No that you can see he's not good for you and it was a mistake, because last night you were declaring your undying love for the little prick" "oh god i remember that part, but I think you were shouting at me and I just wanted to disagree with you" "thank god for that" he said, we just stared at each other I felt awful and really sorry for myself but I was glad Fran seemed to relax because if it would have been the other way around I would have been livid with him "Gorgeous you’re unbelievable, I really thought I was coming in here to talk you into dumping him." "Don't be daft Franco I meant to dump him a few days ago before all this, but then I started to feel sorry for him and that's when I got pissed. I can't remember anything after that" he looked concerned "that's not all that happened, when we got back here I was giving you a hard time and Stefan said i was jealous and that you and me have been sleeping together." "s**t really he's been saying it for ages, he's been giving me a really hard time. And well he's been saying a lot worse than that honey. He said you and the big man have been sharing me" he looked confused "what does that mean? sharing you?" I was mortified but I had to tell him the truth “He thinks I've been sleeping with both of you at the same time, in the same bed" he looked like his was going to murder someone "who does that little prick think he is? well I'm glad I knocked him out" "oh my god did you?" I said and put my hand over my mouth to stop myself from laughing “Yeah he's a prick" Fran was still angry but he started to soften up a bit. "How are you feeling Gorgeous?” He said with a sympathetic smile “I feel terrible honey, this is all such a mess" I let out a huge sigh I looked up at him, "promise you can't see through the bubbles," “I promise” he said and stroked my hair and kissed my forehead "Your so cute in the bath" I just giggled then I heard someone putting the key in the lock "that must be your fiancée" "oh f**k off Franco. What am I going to do?" I was still in the bath and Fran was sitting on the side of the tub and Stefan stood at the bathroom door, we both turned around to look at him. He was standing with a black eye and he looked angry "what the f**k is going on, why are you naked in front of him?" "Shut it Stefan," I said "what do you mean?" "I mean shut the door mummy and daddy are talking" I put my head back and covered my eyes with my eye mask and Fran let out a laugh. "f**k this" he said and I heard him slamming the hotel room door. "Thank god he's gone, that's some black eye honey" "nobody talks about you like that Gorgeous"

Chapter 13

Franco and I chatted for a while, he was telling all the ins and outs of the night before and I was mortified about how I had acted, but also that he knew that Stefan thought i was the kind of girl that would have threesomes with him and the Big Man, I was embarrassed, but I had bigger problems. Breaking up with Stefan would have been bad enough but now I was breaking an engagement and having to announce it to the press it was going to be a nightmare. When Fran left and I got out the bath and dressed I was ill I