He Called Me Angel. Disaster Engagement Series Book 1 Free

Episode 12

"why would you guys think I’m taking drugs?" he asked. Fran just rubbed his hands over his face "it was Stefan, he told me that you and him where smoking it on tour” Poor Chris looked mortified “he's a liar, honestly Gorgeous I'm stupid but not that stupid" I cuddled him tight, "so what's up with you? why have you been so quiet lately, you haven’t been yourself for ages” He put his head down "I've just been hitting the bottle a bit lately because....well I'm a bit embarrassed...but I'm love sick" I had to suppress a laugh "oh Chris I'm sorry I had no idea you were even seeing any one special" he shrugged his shoulders “Im not.. I kind of like this girl but nothing has ever happened between us, she doesn't like me back so it doesn't matter" Fran put his hand on his shoulder "I know how that feels mate, it's crap and I can't tell you how to handle it but I know how hard it is and drinking isn't the way to go" he looked so sad but I thought he said he was over Stacey "oh god Chris it isn't Stacey is it? What is it with that girl? Why are you all crazy about her, what does she have that I don't have?" Fran just laughed "nothing Gorgeous she's got nothing on you" Chris looked at me like I was crazy "no it's not Stacey, it's that American actress Carmela. I meet her the night you set my hair on fire at Fran’s house. Well I’ve bumped into her a few times since then and we really hit it off but she's going back to America soon so it doesn't matter. But I can honestly say I have never felt like this about anyone before and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve been really down in the dumps so when Stefan told me you guys wanted to get rid of me I really took it to heart" “none of that is true Chris. I’m sorry he made you feel like that he’s a bad person” Chris hugged me tightly “it’s not your fault Gorgeous” but he was wrong none of this would have happened if I hadn’t started a relationship with Stefan “Are you ok Gorgeous?” Asked Chris “Yeah I’m fine” “no your not” snapped Fran “you’ve been quiet and distant for ages” I didn’t want to admit to my friends all the s**t Stefan had put me through so I just lied “honestly I’m fine” I said with a fake smile but Fran wasn’t buying it “so your telling me that Stefan just told me and Chris loads of bullshit and was nothing but nice to you. Your telling me he didn’t once try to manipulate you the way he did to us” I opened my mouth to lie but I realised there wasn’t any point in hiding it all from them “okay I will tell you the truth. He tried to slit his wrists when we were in Rome and when I went to see him in hospital he said it was all my fault. He said he did it because he thought I was sleeping with the Big Man and Fran at the same time. He said that Fran had told him that he only looked at me as a work mate and that he wanted me to leave the band because I'm a pain in the arse and I cramp his style. He made me feel terrible that he had hurt himself, that's why I couldn't end it with him and now he's in rehab and I can't speak to him to tell him that I hate him" Fran shook his head "why didn't you tell me all this Lydia" I shrugged my shoulders "the same reason Chris didn't say how he was feeling, because Stefan said you guys were sick of me” Fran stepped forward and grabbed me into a hug “I could never be sick of you Gorgeous” I snuggled into him and I felt like the weight of the world had been lifted from my shoulders then Chris said “Did the Big Man tell you he's in therapy for s*x addiction?" Fran looked at me then then to Chris then back to me and shook his head "No he didn't, and thats our problem at the moment we aren't talking, it's not like us, there's too many secrets, f**k this who fancies going to Thailand" Chris nodded in agreement “yeah let's get out of here and leave all this behind us" The front door opened and it was the Big Man “what's happening guys is everything ok?" He had pink lipstick all over his face. "Yeah we are going to Thailand for a while, do you fancy it?" Asked Chris "Yeah let's get out of here, this city’s boring, I've started banging birds I've already been with, I need fresh meat or just a rest from it all" Chris started laughing "have you learned how to wank yet? What made you think about going to therapy any way?" The Big Man started to wipe the lipstick from his face “It's a long story, when we were on tour Stefan said you all think I'm a joke because I'm always chasing birds and that Lydia doesn't want to be pals with me because I'm a womanizer, so I thought I better screw the nut, and I was doing really well until I shagged the therapist" I let out the biggest scream and it went on for ages "what the f**k gorgeous are you ok?" Asked the Big Man as he covered his ears "she's been doing it all morning, it turns out Stefan has been telling us all lies to turn us against each other, and now she wants to hire a hit man and keeps screaming" all the boys were laughing "I hate that dickhead Stefan" said Chris and Fran just chuckled "lets grab our passports and get away, we can plan his death on the flight. But Gorgeous please promise to stop screaming?” I shook my head “I can’t promise that Fran” I was livid with Stefan for all the lies he had told but for the first time in a long time I was happy to have my three best friends back together again.

Chapter 18

Our holiday in Thailand was amazing, I think the sunshine and the relaxation was just what we all had needed. The four of us stayed together in a beach house and it had the most beautiful view and I loved listening to the waves as I went to sleep every night. I enjoyed the fact that hardly anyone recognised us so we were free to wonder around and it was so liberating not to be photographed everywhere we went. We decided not to drink whilst we were away so we could support Chris because he had decided to stop drinking altogether. It didn’t take long for all four of us to feel the benefits of not drinking alcohol. Don’t get me wrong waking up without a hangover ever morning was life changing but it wasn’t just that. I felt an over all sense of well being. The Big Man wasn't sleeping with every woman he could see either, he said he couldn't be sure who was a women and who was a Lady Boy so he decided not to pursue anyone and Chris was still love sick over the American actress so he wasn't interested in chasing woman either. We would sit on the beach every night after Fran had made us all dinner and Chris would play guitar whilst me and the Big Man danced. We would sit up all night talking about old times. Fran and I wrote a couple of songs and the boys ran on the beach every morning whilst I worked on my tan. The Big Man taught me how to dive off the rocks and Fran and Chris would play cards. We were only supposed to be there for three weeks but we decided to stay on longer, but after five weeks our relaxing holiday had to come to an end because we had press and other commitments to do on the run up to Christmas for the album. I had a petted lip when it was time to leave. "Why don't we make it an annual thing just the four of us go away every year "said Fran "and if we call it a band meeting it means the record company can pay for it” “yeah that sounds good honey but I'm going to miss this place" I said. I really didn't want to go home "why don't I buy it for you Gorgeous” said the Big Man "it will save me from thinking about a Christmas present for you" "thanks honey but the flight here is a killer, I just wish we lived somewhere hot all the time I hate going back to the rain" "yeah but we are going back to Christmas parties and we can show off our tans"said Chris. He was looking great, he was bronzed and had put on a bit of weight, him and the boys had been working out and between that and him not drinking he was looking really healthy. The flight home was a laugh from beginning to end but I was still sad to be going home. The whole time we were in Thailand I hadn’t stoped thinking about Michael or Stefan. When I finally got back to the flat I was exhausted but Stacey was there to greet me, "Lydia you look amazing, did you have a nice time?” But before I could and answer her she interrupted me “Look what I did for you coming home" she took my hand and dragged me into the living room, she had put up a Christmas tree, and it was enormous "wow it looks great, thanks honey" I gave her a present from duty free and went straight to bed I lay on top of it and closed my eyes. Stacey stuck her head around the door "by the way Lyds a guy called Michael has been calling non stop and Stefan called once a week he's asked me to write down his messages, I put them on the side of the bed for you, oh and you have a party tonight with the boys" my eyes shot opened this was the whole reason I went away and all the s**t I had been running from was still there when I got home. "Thanks Stacey" I sat up to set my alarm for the party and noticed the pile of notes from Stefan and unopened letters and I rolled my eyes. I quickly read the notes they all said the same thing. "I love you Angel, please talk to me" I was still so angry with him for everything he had done but it couldn’t be easy sitting in rehab when your girlfriend is awol. I just lay back and closed my eyes, all the mess could wait. By the time we all had a rest and got our glad rags on the party was in full swing, it was in a nightclub I had been to a few times. The four of us arrived together and the photographers and press went nuts when they seen us. Chris looked great he had borrowed a suit from Fran and shaved his beard off and gelled his hair back. He looked fantastic, in fact all the boys looked good. My hair had grown so much when we were away it was nearly down to my waist I wore a floor length red backless dress with a split all the way up to my thigh, the Big Man said I looked like Jessica Rabbit. When we went into the party everyone was staring at us. The party was being thrown by a good friend of mines his name is Johnny. He was a huge pop star in the eighties and still had a cult following, he was gay and super flirtatious with every person that crossed his path and I loved it. He was really good fun and his parties were always extravagant and filled with fabulous people. There were practically naked men and woman serving drinks and canapés, and I was holding on to Frans arm for dear life. I felt overwhelmed by the amount of people, I had gotten used to our own little private paradise and this was loud and busy. "Are you ok Gorgeous?" Fran whispered into my ear. "Yeah I’m just nervous honey, everyone is staring" "don't be nervous you look beautiful that's why everyone is staring" "thanks honey you look good too" Fran always knew the right thing to say. A nearly naked girl went over to Chris and the Big Man at the bar and offered them a glass of champagne. Chris said no and the Big Man just ignored her, he didn't even stare at her arse. Although I was shocked I was happy that the trip had done us all the world of good. Then Johnny came over "oh my god you two look so f*****g hot, I would actually love to watch you two go to town on each other and that's no joke" I just let out a laugh "I wish she would let me mate" Fran said with a big smile "Francis" I screeched and slapped his arm. "Well do you blame me Gorgeous? " "wow Lydia he's not wrong your t**s in that dress, they are making my mouth water, oh my god guys do you think I might be straight?" "you’re defiantly not straight but her t**s are mouth watering" said Fran looking me up and down "Franco stop it" I said with a laugh, "you two should just go for it, you know you want to. And when you do please film it, you would make a fortune, oh look there's that American actress the blonde one what's her name I need to introduce myself, please excuse me love birds" I slapped Frans arm again "Fran what are you like, you’re such a wind up, you know he loves all that" he just looked me up and down again, "I'm not joking Gorgeous" he said with a half smile "okay then why don't we just go for it" I said sarcastically "I would but your getting married soon" he said with a smirk "don't remind me Fran" the thought sent shivers down my spine "Hey I didn't mean to bring him up, the reason I don't go for it with you is because of the band, once that's finished me and you can get married" he looked serious "is that your idea of a proposal, you will need to do better than that honey, even Stefan bought a ring." "I'll buy you a ring Gorgeous, don't you worry about that" "What do you mean you don't go for it because of the band? Have you thought about it before" "it's all I think about Gorgeous" I could tell he was joking but looking at his beautiful face it gave me a thrill. The Big Man came up behind me and interrupted us "fancy a dance Gorgeous? show off that beautiful dress" "yeah of course" I said. As we stepped out onto the dance floor a slow song came on and the Big Man held me so close to him that we were nose to nose. “what were you and Fran talking about gorgeous?" "he was just joking that we should get together" he was quiet for a second "yeah I bet he was just joking" he said and growled over in Fran’s direction" "look Big Man Chris is talking to that blonde girl Carmela the actress, that's the girl that he has fallen for" we both looked over and they were flirting "yeah that's her, he says he's in love with her" "aww I hope she feels the same way" I watched them for a few moments and she was flirting and playing with her hair "she seems into him. There's nothing worse than loving someone and they don't feel the same way back." I said. I couldn't stop thinking about Michael since I got home, I wondered why he kept calling my flat when I was away. "Yeah it's the worst feeling in the world being in love when it's only one sided, I know how that feels" "what do you mean Big Man, are you still hung up on Stacey?" He just ignored me "the only thing worse is holding her in your arms and wanting to tell her how you feel but you know she doesn't feel the same way back" he looked so hurt "what are talking about big man? He couldn't look me in the eye "you know what I'm talking about Gorgeous" i thought about it for a second "I really don't know! what's up?" I asked “mind if I cut in here mate" said Fran "yes I mind we’re having a conversation" the two of them just stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity. What was up with them, I decided to change the subject "actually I'm going to find the powder room and when I come back I think we should get drunk how does that sound?" Fran nodded in agreement "that sounds like a plan Gorgeous" A few hours passed and I was starting to feel a little tipsy. Chris had introduced Carmela to us and she seemed really nice and fun, Chris was smiling from ear to ear. It was nice to see him so happy. Fran and the Big Man were still acting weird the Big Man kept grabbing me into a bear hug and Fran kept giving him a hard time about it. "Stop being so rough with her Big Man" "you like it rough don't you Gorgeous" What was going on with those two, Carmela and I went to the ladies room which is the best way to get to know a girl. She was smiling as she spoke about Chris and how much she liked him "do those two always fight over you like that? It must be nice to have your pick, they are both very handsome" I made a face at her as if I was going to be sick "no it's only a joke honestly" "really they could have fooled me, they’re clearly head over heels for you Lydia, even Chris said so" she turned to the mirror and started to fix her hair "what? what do you mean? No we’re just friends, we have all been close since we were kids,no your wrong," "sorry if I have upset you Lydia. I thought you knew, it's so obvious" what was obvious? I asked myself "no honestly you've got it wrong, anyway who cares about them, let's talk about Chris, I think he is the sweetest, kindest man you will ever meet" "I think so too" she said with a huge smile, we walked out into the lobby and Fran was waiting for us "Gorgeous Johnny had asked us to sing a Christmas song in the small back room, I said yes I hope you don't mind, Chris is going to play piano” I just smiled in agreement because the champagne had went to my head “hurry up guys" said Johnny. But suddenly i felt sick and just wanted it over with, I stepped onto the small stage and the music started we sang ‘Baby it's cold outside’ Fran had his hand around my waist and kept smiling at me. The Big Man was standing at the side and he looked kind of angry. Was Carmela right, did the boys fancy me? No it can't be, she’s wrong. As the song went on Fran kept staring into my eyes and running his hand over my back. When the song had finished Johnny shouted "kiss, kiss, you two should kiss" oh f**k off Johnny he was making it even worse. I looked at Fran and he was just laughing, I knew it was all just a joke. Thank god for that I would hate to think the boys were fighting over me the way they had with Stacey. The audience were clapping and cheering when we finished our song, then Johnny shouted "no offence Fran but can we get a song from Lydia on her own" Fran kissed me on the cheek and walked over and stood next to the Big Man at the side of the stage. Chris was still on the piano, "how about Santa Baby?" He said. As I was singing I could see Fran and the Big Man laughing at me out the corner of my eye, they were taking the piss, how could I have thought that they fancied me, they were laughing at me because I was trying to be sexy. I decided to really ham it up and give them a good laugh. By half way through the song I was doing my best Marilyn Monroe impression, I was wiggling my arse and flicking my hair when I looked at Chris he was giggling and the Big Man was wolf whistling but Fran just stood with his mouth wide open. I hoped he knew that I was only kidding. When the song finished the small crowd went wild, they were cheering for another song but I needed a big drink before I sang again. The Big Man was clapping and cheering so loud it nearly burst my ear drum. He came onto the stage "I'm going to stop calling you Gorgeous and start calling you Sexy" he said and planted a big kiss on the lips. I slapped his arm "stop it people will think we’re shagging" I said with a giggle “So who cares?” he said with a smile "then you won't be able to pull any girls here if they think we’re together" "I told you I'm not interested in any birds" although he hadn’t chased any woman the whole time we were away I knew it was only a matter of time before he picked his next victim. We all left the stage and met up with Carmela "oh Chris you were amazing up there, why don't we go back to your place" she said with a sexy smile "see you later boys call you tomorrow Lydia" he said as he took her hand, the two of them disappeared into the crowd. "Nice one Chris mate" the Big Man shouted and Chris looked back at him and gave him a wink, he looked over the moon. "I'm happy for him he seems delighted" I said then Fran looked at the Big Man "you've got red lipstick all over your lips mate" "are you jealous Franco?" Asked the Big Man sarcastically. I wasn’t sure what was going on with them “Oh s**t I better go to the ladies and fix my lipstick" I said "cool we will wait out in the smoking area" said Fran. I made my way to the ladies and met two girls I had known for years. Their names were Annie and Kate and they were in a girl band. They were always so lovely not to mention they were both drop dead gorgeous with model bodies, they were nothing like me and I felt tiny next to them, but they were always so nice to me. "Lydia you look amazing let us see your engagement ring, oh you’re so lucky, Stefan is really funny" one of them said. I had forgot I had that thing on my hand but I had to wear it in case the press picked up on it and I really didn't want the drama. "What's the Big Man and Fran saying about you getting married? They’re really over protective of you" I hated lying to these girls but I had to keep up the pretence "they are happy for us" I said "those two are so hot” said one of the girls. “Really? I can't see it, they’re like my brothers" and I screwed up my face the girls laughed. "Why don't you two go and join them on the smoking balcony, they would love to see you both” they both looked like I had handed them a winning lottery ticket “oh really Lydia,do you think we have a chance with them?" These girls were nuts what guy wouldn’t want to chat them up “Of course you have a chance with them you are both gorgeous. I'm going to freshen up, you should go out and meet them" "thanks Lydia" and they left with a skip in there step. By the time I left the ladies room and looked out onto the smoking balcony the girls were flirting up a storm with Fran and the Big Man. I decided to leave them to it and go home, I was still exhausted from our flight home and I had 5 weeks worth of London Streets recorded on my TV. I couldn't wait to catch up on it because I had read in a magazine that one of the main characters was going to jail, I just hoped that it wasn’t going to be my favorite Jason, he was so hot! I stood near the entrance whilst my body guard and driver Harry got the car to take me home. As I was standing I felt someone come up behind me and the brush of lips on my ear. "Sweetheart you’re such a hard girl to get a hold of" It was him. My Michael, I didn't even turn to look at him. I just said "you love it when I play hard to get" he gently brushed the back of his hands up and down my arm "you look fantastic sweetheart and that performance was very sexy" I closed my eyes as I took in his touch and his breathing into my ear. "Why don't you come back to my place for a private show" he said. I had spent the past few weeks in Thailand daydreaming about him and now that he was touching me I was overwhelmed with lust. He always had a way of turning me on and I haven't even looked at him yet, but I needed to be strong, although I wanted to turn around and jump on him I had to play it cool "a private performance is very expensive. I don't think you could afford it" “I will make it worth your while sweetheart" he whispered, I turned to meet his gaze and I melted. He was wearing the most perfect sexy black suit and tie and I could see his muscles bulging. He smelled so sexy, it was the aftershave he had always worn and I felt transported back to a time when I could just fall into his arms "you look so hot Micheal" I said and he just gave me his devilish grin "you are the sexist girl I've ever seen in my life and I want to see you in my bed tonight sweetheart, come home with me. I need to talk to you" "what about Michael" I said stroking his tie, playing coy "I want to talk to you about us, but I really want to talk to you about what you have on under that dress" "I don't have anything on under this dress" He inhaled quickly through his teeth "Jesus sweetheart" was all he could say, he looked like he was about to explode. "well I want that dress on my bedroom floor, I’m taking you home with me" I was so turned on. Everything about him was sexy and I just couldn't resist him any longer. Harry coughed to interrupt us "excuse me Miss Knight the car is here" I tried to compose myself “Harry sorry I didn't see you there" Michael introduced himself and shook his hand and said "can you drop us off, it's only a few streets from here?" He looked at me for a reaction, I wanted to interrupt and say ‘I'm not sleeping with you. You have a lot more groveling to do’ but I opened my mouth and nothing came out. Harry walked out first, there was no photographers around then Michael came out and slid into the back seat. Harry put the divider up, he must have sensed we wanted some privacy. Micheal put his arm around my shoulder and slid his other hand all the way up my leg were the split in the dress was. It felt incredible. I had goosebumps with excitement but I just tried to remain cool and kept eye contact with him. He started to speak very quietly and slowly, as if it was only being said for my ears "sweetheart I want to taste you, I want you to scream my name as you come on my face, then I want you to spread your legs out wide so I can f**k you hard. You know how much I love that." The two of us were breathless as the city passed by us out of the window "would you like that sweetheart?" I bit my bottom lip and rubbed my thighs together with lust "answer me sweetheart!" I could only manage to say "yes" "yes what sweetheart?" "Yes Michael I want you to f**k me hard" "oh sweetheart that's all I've wanted to hear" he cupped my face with his strong soft hands and lifted my face