Chapter Six
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She found the photograph three weeks in.
It was on his desk in the stud— not displayed, half tucked under a paperweight, as if put there by accident or kept there by a refusal to deal with it. A woman, laughing, in a garden. Young, beautiful in the careless way of someone who didn’t know they were being watched.
“Who is she?”
Julian was in the doorway with two cups of coffee— they’d established a late-night working truce, her with her reports, him with his briefs, the study their unlikely neutral territory.
He set the cups down, he looked at the photograph with an expression she’d never seen on him before. Not cold, not armored , hollow.
“My mother,” he said.
Cara set it down carefully. “She’s lovely.”
“She died when I was eleven.” He crossed to the desk. He picked up the photograph and put it in the drawer. “She was the only person who ever,” he stopped. He sat down and picked up his office.
Cara watched him.
“Julian.”
“It was a long time ago.”
“That doesn’t mean anything.”
He looked at her.
“Grief doesn’t have an expiration date,”she said. “It just — changes shape. It was that long ago and you still keep her photo.”
He was quiet for a moment that had weight to it.
“She used to organize my books,” he said. “By colour, it made no sense at all. I thought it was maddening.” A pause. “I kept it that way for twenty years after she died. Exactly as she’d left it.”
Cara felt something move in her chest.
“And then?” She asked softly.
“And then I had the library done over by a designer, very professional and very logical.” He looked down at his cup. “I’ve regretted it since.”
She thought of the library. The Fitzgerald collection. The first editions.
“I can put it back,” she said. “By colour”
He looked up.
“If you want,” she added.
He held her gaze for a long moment. “No,” he said. “The way you did it is— he stopped again. Picked up his pen. “It’s fine,” he said.
But something had shifted in the room. She felt it the way you feels change on pressure— not the thing itself, but the evidence that the thing was real
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