I'm Fine or Am I

Chapter 4

I ran straight to my room. Thankfully, no one was home because they were all at church. I sat on my bed crying my eyes out, what did I just do, for months I cried myself to sleep over Cody and he just poured his heart out to me, and I pretty much just spit in his face. Why did I do that? Suddenly, my phone rings I was afraid to answer it thinking it might be Cody, but I answered it hesitantly. I slowly picked up the phone, hello. Girl are you okay? It was Brooke she had already heard what had happened. She always finds out things so fast. Brooke what have I done? I don’t know I thought Cody was who you wanted to be with? He was, I mean he is, I’m so damn confused. Why does he do this to me now, why couldn’t he have told me this months ago? Do you know how many nights I cried myself asleep because of him? When he kissed me today his lips were simply perfect, it’s like we fit perfectly together, do you know what I mean? Girl you will drive yourself crazy thinking too much. I’m so afraid to let him back in what if he hurts me again, I don’t think I can I mean I don’t think my heart can take it. But I am so afraid that if I don’t try, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. Just please tell me what I should do. Honey I can’t tell you what to do, but I can tell you that I will always have your back and will always be here to catch you if you fall. I guess I need to talk to Cody. Now, that sounds like a promising idea, I do know that he left work too. I heard that he went to Logan Hubble Park. I asked Brooke if he went by his self, and she said yes as far as I know. So, I got myself together and headed towards the park. As I was driving all I could think about was how scared I was and that relationships are so complicated. I pulled in and I immediately saw Cody’s truck. I was praying he was by himself and not with another girl. Honestly, that would be my luck. I pulled up beside his truck and he wasn’t in there. I didn’t know where he was so I just started walking on the trails and if he comes back, he will see my truck and if he is by his self then he will wait if he wants to see me. I take off walking and start remembering all the fun times Cody and I had. We would laugh so hard that my side would hurt so bad. I would hate for the night to end. I had been walking for a while and didn’t even realize it. I looked around and realized that I really didn’t know exactly where I was at, and it was starting to get dark. Panic started setting in, and I realized Cody had probably already left and I ruined our chance together. Tears filled my eyes, get it together Taylor, you must find your way out of here. Suddenly, I heard leaves rustling, oh god what was that. I just stood there. It just wasn’t leaves I heard, it was footsteps, oh my gosh there’s a serial killer out here and I’m his next victim. I grabbed the first thing I could grab which was a small stick, I was holding it up getting ready to swing it when a figure was walking closer to me, then whack, someone yelled out stop! OMG I am so sorry before I even realized who it was, I had already hit them. It was Cody. I immediately hugged him, I guess because, for one he wasn’t a serial killer and another, I wasn’t going to be lost on this trail forever and probably the best reason I was hugging him so tight, because I missed him so much and I really do love him! He looked at me and said what are you doing out here by yourself? Well, I came to find you and saw you wasn’t in your truck, so I decided to just go walking on a trail, but somehow, I got lost and I don’t know. Why was you coming to find me for? I wanted to tell you I was sorry for running out on you this morning. I was scared by what you had said, and I didn’t know what to do. But everything you said to me I feel the exact same way. Cody, I do love you. I never stopped! That day I didn’t want to break up with you, it killed me that day and every day after that. But I know I’m probably too late. Cody grabbed my hand and looked me in the eyes and said no it will never be too late, I love you Taylor! We kissed and I swear I heard fireworks, like you see in movies. Right there and then everything in the world was right, or was it…………………